I hate GOD.... help!

[phoenixgw]

Life may seem grim to you now, simplywhy, but it was not always this way & neither will it end this way for a child of God. The hell in this life is the only hell Christians will ever know, I've been told.

Suffering is a sign that God is refining our character (Isaiah 48:10, Romans 5:4, 1 Peter 1:6,7, etc.). Your denomination's teachings have much to say in this regard. There is someone in your church that can help you with this.

Fellow Christians can offer you comfort and support, but they can't eliminate your suffering, nor should you wish this. At least your anger is still directed at God. Keeping the conversation going, even if it disrespectful and/or angry is still Biblical.

Consider the Psalms (6, 13, 22 (I've recited many profanity-laced versions of that one, let me tell you), 88), Lamentations 3, Job, etc. Jesus is our High Priest and our God. He can take your anger. You may find that releasing all your anger and your pain to be therapeutic.

I know from my own experience that there are times that I must vent my anger towards Jesus, even if it is unjustified so that I can see my anger for what it is & return humbly before God in prayer. Some of my most profound prayer moments have come after I have unleashed my fury on the Lamb of God. Sometimes that it is what it takes to see ourselves for what we really are, I believe.

May you find God's strength and infinite love in your brokenness. May you find God!

 

[IamAdopted]

Well... What I meant by "do whatever you want with me" is that im fully submitting myself to him... because i fully trusted him and knew that he knows what's best for me than myself... however, i only asked him to let me feel his love.... you tell me that he loves me and his love can be manifested in a caring post... but i dont feel that love... maybe god gave me a failry good life (from this world point of view) but it never satisfied me... i do not want to receive gifts from god so i can know that he loves me... i want to feel god's love not god's gifts...

also you say that it is all in my hands... how come? one question here: do we fully control our emotions? i do not think so... i do not think we can control who to really love (from emotional point of view)... we can on the other side control how to act with others... we can choose to treat them good and do them good... but we cant control how we really feel about them deep inside...
Same applies to my relationship with god... i can obey him... trust him... but i can not CHOOSE to love him (from the emotional point of view)... it is simply not in my hands... that's why i was asking god to let me love him really... but he never responded.... i kept praying honestly for a long time trusting him... but no reply... what else can i do?
I do not know what to do... but im begging for love all the time and god knows that very well... but he never tries to fulfill any of my desires.... he created me a very emotional person... but he made me not in control of my emotions (whom to love) and he made me so much in need of love that nothing fulfills my desires....

please help me. and please do not simply quote from passages that TALK about god's love... because love is not simply words written.

I am really tired and lost... god totally left me suffering... i am in pain to the extent that i decided from some time ago that ill compleltley forget about god and live without him... but after sometime... i try to look for him again because i cant bear the pain... so it is not him who is even looking for me or wants me back... when i told him "i dont want u anymore... u betrayed me" he simply told me "ok u may go...i do not need u in anything".... is that love????

So God caused all of this pain you are in? We have to walk by Faith.. Not by feelings.. here is how it works..
Fact. God Loves you
Faith. Believing this is true
Feelings. emotion is emotion and feelings follow what you believe..
Have you ever came to God and asked Him to come Live His life through You? Or are you asking for God to prove His love for you?
Depression is a very painful painful experience.. Please get some Help for this..It sounds more like depression than anything. I have suffered brain chemical imbalance. Still do if I am not on my meds.. Please get your physical well being checked.. God does Love you. So much that He died for you.. Until you weed out the old and put in the new the old will choke out the new.. I have been there.. I have done That.. I am praying

 

[vic74]

Please help me.... I dont undersand... how can love be without emotions?

I am really lost and my mind is not clear and I do not know what to do... plz help me.... thanks

First of all, I would like to say that I have read all of your posts and I hope that you have found someone whom you can confide in. My heart and prayers goes out to you. And if you choose not confide in someone, doesn't make your pain any less real if they you remain anonymous about the details. The support that you recieve should remain the same, reguardless.

Second of all, I will try to answer your question as best as I can. Through a brief "mommy crisis" I thought I was having.

I have two children whom are almost nine years apart. When it was only my daughter, she was my little everything. She never cried as an infant, she always played quietly, she was the prettiest and sweetest little angel in my eyes. Even now, she's so kind and thoughtful and full of love. It's bananas and a mystery to me why she is as loving and as patient as she is...

And then came my son.

My son was the complete opposite. He cried all the time as a baby, he's loud, he's demanding, impatient and did I say he's loud? Also, he was and is a little rascle, if you know what I mean. And on top of all that, he's a wise guy, he can tell a clever lie just to get out of something as if he were a grown man.

But he's only three. But heres the twisted part.

About three months ago I thought that I loved or perfered my three year old son over my almost perfect little girl. The whys wasn't my concern. What mattered at that time to me was, What if's.
What if any of my true feelings would somehow leak through to my daughter. I never wanted to break her heart if she were to have ever known the true feelings of my heart.

I ate up every moment spent with my son, and yet wasn't nearly as excited about spending time with my daughter. I tried my very best to hide my feelings by reenforcing extra attention to my little girl. And whenever my son did something extra cute or adorable, and these feelings came fluttering upon my heart, I would thank God out loud for both of my precious ones and grabbed both of them and sqeezed them tighly.

But my point is; if I had allowed my true emothions to dictated my actions and responsibilities as a mother; if I would have given in to my feelings, by spending more time with my son instead of spending equal amounts of time with them both, or whenever I told my children that I love them both, but not as much as I do one over the other, how do you think my daughter would have felt?

The reality about love is really no differant from everyday responsibilities. If we didn't feel like getting up in the morning to go to work, bills wouldn't get paid. if doctors didn't feel like answering their emergency pages, then lives would get saved. If I didn't feel like bestowing equal amounts of love to both my children, then my little girl's world, as she knows it to be, would be shattered, unsafe, insecure, and hopeless. All because of the fleeting emotional state that has long since left me.
You see, sweet child, if the world only did what we felt like doing, then nothing would ever get done.

Now, let me ask you this question.

Where do you think this world as we know it to be, would actually be, if the Savior actually did what He felt like doing?

Luke 22:41- 43

and Jesus knelt down and prayed,
"Father, if it is Your will, remove this cup from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done." Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven,
strengthening Him.

You see, in a moment of weakness, Jesus did not just asked, but He prayed that the agony He knew He was going to face, to be removed from Him. And yet, out of love, real love, He did the will of His Father and died for everyone of us. And just like the beautiful statement that the other young lady said in a previous post to you, "Even if you were the only person in the world, Jesus still would have died for you."

But love isn't always doing what one feels like doing. You see, Love is perfect that way.
I hope this may have been some help for you. And whether you can feel it or not, God loves you and I do to.

 

[cutie76]

I really hate God.... he hurt me sooooooooooooooo much you cant imagine to what extent.... he made me lose everything..... i have billions of questions and i dont have answers to them.... i dont have anyone to talk to... everyone is gone...
how can i love god after all what he did to me????

Hi Simplywhy

From what you are saying it sounds like you are missing the emotional side of the Love of God. It sounds like you feel you've been hurt by people and God througout your life.

From your posts, so far, I hear a lot of generalizations about what you're going through - but no specifics yet. It seems like you would benefit from going through your life and journaling what you've been through and are going through now, just to get things straight in your head.

I believe you would benefit from spiritual healing. I would advise that you seek the counsel of a Christian woman at your local church who has patience and experience with this.

I've been through circumstances in my life that made me angry and bitter and questioning my love for God and His Love for me. Thanksfully, God held me through this and I am healed spiritually! It was a long and rough journey, but I am delievered!

One thing I would like to suggest to you is get into the Word of God! The Word is Truth. Did you know that God is not the only one talking to you? Many times the enemy will talk lies to you, you must go to the Word (like Jesus did) and fight lies with Truth.

Please PM me if you would like to talk more.

God Bless!!

 

[united4Peace]

I really hate God.... he hurt me sooooooooooooooo much you cant imagine to what extent.... he made me lose everything..... i have billions of questions and i dont have answers to them.... i dont have anyone to talk to... everyone is gone...
how can i love god after all what he did to me????

Things happen in life and I dont believe God controls what happens...
Some people may look at God as a God who punishes by causing pain and hurt to people or making good things happen...I dont.
I think things just happen...nature happens just because and things in our life happen because we have no control....

Get on with your life.....realize that God is with you loving you...not punishing you...but travelling with you on your journey.

 

[savedfromdistruction]

God has done you no worng. He only has good foor you. if you suffered somehow it was a result of either your sin or anothes. satan is the author of all suffering, not God. What you need is to be bnorn again and your heart will then know the God of love in the bible.

I really hate God.... he hurt me sooooooooooooooo much you cant imagine to what extent.... he made me lose everything..... i have billions of questions and i dont have answers to them.... i dont have anyone to talk to... everyone is gone...
how can i love god after all what he did to me????

 

[RMDY]

I went through a lot of suffering...
....a lot....

So I can probably relate to your suffering....

I am sorry to hear your going through what I might had gone through or something similar...

 

[R3quiem]

Unfortunately, I can't answer your questions because I have the same questions myself. Believe me I know what you are going through.

I don't take it out on God though- I don't hate him.

It sounds like terrible things have happened to you and that you have some pretty bad depression, perhaps it is clinical. I recommend that you go talk to a professional and see if it will help, and definitely don't do anything drastic.

I hope everything will work out for you.

 

[RMDY]

Read the book of Job.
Perhaps there is a spiritual battle going on within your life.
Jesus and Paul taught us that trials will come, but woe to the man through whom they come.
Paul went through beatings, jailing, flogging and a whole bunch of things. He suffered greatly. People deserted him. But he rejoiced in the Lord while experiencing all these things and never lost his faith.
Chris Tomlin once sang "The joy of the Lord is our strength"
God loves you and is offering a plan for you life.

Suffering helps refine a person and build character and faith. But also, evil causes suffering to happen within peoples lives.
Jesus is our blessed Hope. I urge you to read Titus!

I read a book called "Journey into the Miraculous" by Todd Bentley. In the book, he suffered greatly! But God used Todd for a great purpose later on in his life.

If you are suffering greatly, there is a good chance God has a really important plan for you and the devil is doing his best to stop you from fulfilling this plan. Although God loves you so much, the devil will do really bad things to people who God desires to raise up for His glory. When the devil causes a lot of suffering more than in someones life such as yourself, it means he is scared and is trying to stop you from coming to God. Read the book of Job. I recommend it.

God loves you!
He is with you right now and will never leave you nor forsake you!

 

[cybermartyr]

We have to understand that being in this world we will go thru suffering, nut the Bible says to the ones that indure they will recieve the gift and crown of life.

 

[Elife3]

I really hate God.... he hurt me sooooooooooooooo much you cant imagine to what extent.... he made me lose everything..... i have billions of questions and i dont have answers to them.... i dont have anyone to talk to... everyone is gone...
how can i love god after all what he did to me????

Are you a believer? If so, then I don't believe God would have done such. You need to read the Bible. I will pray that your life gets better.