Hi. I feel compelled to write as a result of Joyce Meyer's ministry today. I'm not sure how many watch her on God tv.
Basically, I have always done my best to find God. A lot of things in my life fell apart recently and I begged and pleaded with God to put this right. Over the past few days they got wose and I got very angry at God. I know I shouldn't have, but I told Him I didn't want Him in my life anymore. I was so angry. Over the past few months I have been tested many ways but yesterday was the breaking point and I just snapped.
Today, I decided to watch a DVD so I switched my playstation2 on and changed channels. The TV could not find the correct tuning for the PS2. I have never had any problems with it before. I messed around with it for a while before conceding defeat and switching back to TV. My digital box was on God tv and Joyce was ministering. My attentions were drawn when she began to read out a list of all the tests that she has been through. Anger, jealousy, revenge, weak faith...almost everything that Satan uses as a weapon. I could relate, so I listened to her sermon and it was the most uplifting thing I have heard in a long time. She spoke of pressing through struggle and never giving up. She said "I'm speaking to someone right now". I know there are thousands who fit that but I felt as though she was speaking directly to me. It was as if God decided my PS2 wasn't going to work so I'd have to watch it.
I found myself nodding all the way through when she spoke about being so tired and not wanting to get up in the morning but then correcting herself by saying 'I'm still here!' (she had breast cancer and had surgery but God wanted to use her and nothing would stop that) By the end of the sermon, people were in tears and standing up on their seats. I am thousands of miles away, sitting in a living room in Scotland and I was also moved to tears. At the end of the sermon she was speaking to the camera and was saying that someone, somewhere had been lifted up by the Holy Spirit during the sermon. She said that like any Christian, she wants to go to heaven. But more than anything, she wants to walk through the gate with thousands who have been saved and not alone.
So, I went from angry and far from God to bouncing about the house in a chirpy mood. I was reading the bible but was geting annoyed that my mum had the TV up so loud I couldn't concentrate in my room. So I drove down to the shore and parked where usually go for some quiet. It was very misty so I couldn't see the other side of the river. The river is about 5 miles wide and only on clear days can I see the mountains at the other side. I was reading away and thinking about miracles when I thought to myself 'God, let me see your mountains' I thought nothing of it. When I looked across the river a few minutes later, I could make out the sillouettes of the mountains on the other side. Before, the fog was so thick I couldn't see the yachts 100 yards in front of me. I thought to myself 'ok, that could happen. Let's see the fog come down again' I went back to reading about Elijah. A little while later, I made to drive away, and found I couldn't see the boats again, let alone the mountains.
In the space of a day I've gone from one end of the belief spectrum to the other. I was so close to giving up it was frightening. But now, I feel so close to God. I think he deliberately wanted me to watch Joyce today and it has made a massive difference. God rules!
God is amazing!
Basically, I have always done my best to find God. A lot of things in my life fell apart recently and I begged and pleaded with God to put this right. Over the past few days they got wose and I got very angry at God. I know I shouldn't have, but I told Him I didn't want Him in my life anymore. I was so angry. Over the past few months I have been tested many ways but yesterday was the breaking point and I just snapped.
Today, I decided to watch a DVD so I switched my playstation2 on and changed channels. The TV could not find the correct tuning for the PS2. I have never had any problems with it before. I messed around with it for a while before conceding defeat and switching back to TV. My digital box was on God tv and Joyce was ministering. My attentions were drawn when she began to read out a list of all the tests that she has been through. Anger, jealousy, revenge, weak faith...almost everything that Satan uses as a weapon. I could relate, so I listened to her sermon and it was the most uplifting thing I have heard in a long time. She spoke of pressing through struggle and never giving up. She said "I'm speaking to someone right now". I know there are thousands who fit that but I felt as though she was speaking directly to me. It was as if God decided my PS2 wasn't going to work so I'd have to watch it.
I found myself nodding all the way through when she spoke about being so tired and not wanting to get up in the morning but then correcting herself by saying 'I'm still here!' (she had breast cancer and had surgery but God wanted to use her and nothing would stop that) By the end of the sermon, people were in tears and standing up on their seats. I am thousands of miles away, sitting in a living room in Scotland and I was also moved to tears. At the end of the sermon she was speaking to the camera and was saying that someone, somewhere had been lifted up by the Holy Spirit during the sermon. She said that like any Christian, she wants to go to heaven. But more than anything, she wants to walk through the gate with thousands who have been saved and not alone.
So, I went from angry and far from God to bouncing about the house in a chirpy mood. I was reading the bible but was geting annoyed that my mum had the TV up so loud I couldn't concentrate in my room. So I drove down to the shore and parked where usually go for some quiet. It was very misty so I couldn't see the other side of the river. The river is about 5 miles wide and only on clear days can I see the mountains at the other side. I was reading away and thinking about miracles when I thought to myself 'God, let me see your mountains' I thought nothing of it. When I looked across the river a few minutes later, I could make out the sillouettes of the mountains on the other side. Before, the fog was so thick I couldn't see the yachts 100 yards in front of me. I thought to myself 'ok, that could happen. Let's see the fog come down again' I went back to reading about Elijah. A little while later, I made to drive away, and found I couldn't see the boats again, let alone the mountains.
In the space of a day I've gone from one end of the belief spectrum to the other. I was so close to giving up it was frightening. But now, I feel so close to God. I think he deliberately wanted me to watch Joyce today and it has made a massive difference. God rules!
God is amazing!
Today Satan again tried to pull me away from God. I rememberd Joyce's words and my tears dried up and I was smiling within seconds. I'm so much happier.
