what a week this has been... since I'm new here and no-one knows my story I'll provide a little background. I've been saved since 1998. I was called to play drums, and did so at my old church for about 7 years. I finally stopped playing drums there in 2004 and havn't been to church since.... that was until Oct 17th of 2008.
heres my story: since about 02-03 I had been doing things my way. I was in highschool at the time and I had fallen in love with a girl. we became close friends and started dating. things seemed to be going good but there was something missing in our relationship... GOD, I didn't know it at the time tho. eventually things came to a head and the girl I had fallen in love with dumped me and crushed my heart. I never knew why. I blamed her... her parents.. even God.. I didn't understand.
That was 5 years ago, after that I moved on with my life.... sorta. I fell into a serious bout of depression. I did NOTHING for two years after that and got very depressed.... then Sept 18, 2005 I got off my butt got a job and started working third shift security. I had been working here for over 3 years at this point and even tho I enjoy my job, I still felt empty inside. I still didn't know why, I still didn't understand... thats when she walked into my life
WOW..... I bout fell out of my chair when I met her.. I will never forget it. I knew we we had a new girl that was going to be training in our building.. I just had no idea she would be so beautiful... I'm not talking that fake caked on beauty either. she walked up to the counter and my heart started to race..... play it cool I thought.. so I asked "can I help you?" it was all a blur after that but something told me she was different.
were just Human co-workers.... so somehow she ended up geting a shift working with me 2 nights of the week... now you all have to understand. working 3rd shift security you have about 6-7 hours of "alone time" every night. by the end of night one she was standing in my personal space. by night two she had found out I was ticklish.. ok shes showing some interest. why? I sought counsel with one of my other co-workers. me and him are very close friends and I knew he would have something to tell me.... well he did. "get to know her" thats it? "yup" he also told me the reason why he doesnt have female friends is because he's always trying to "sleep" with them... thats why he veiws melissa as just a human co-worker. now I've known this guy for about 3 years and I KNOW he's not that kind of guy.. I figured he was just trying to be funny and sarcastic.. so we had our own little inside jokes and I spent the next few weeks getting to know melissa. thats when I figured out what my buddy was REALLY trying to say to me... he doesnt keep close female friends because he will eventually fall in love with them and want to have a substantial long term relationship with them and marry them... once I realized what he had told me it was too late... I already had a crush on this girl.
now I'm leaving ALOT of details out, most are mundane so I'll cut to Oct 12, 2008... I had been trying to figure this girl out for about 4 weeks now... does she like me?.. if she does... why?. is she being honest?.. I had so many things running through my head and I couldn't figure them out... I had been talking to my co-workers and trying to figure out whats going on and thats when (whale talking about relationships) my OTHER co-worker gave me Proverbs 31:30...
"Charm is deceitful, Beauty is vain.. but a woman that fears the Lord shall be praised"
when I heard that I about pooped my pants and threw up at the same time. I got cold chills down my spine... I remembered Melissa praying over every meal.. trying to talk to me about God.... it was all making sense.... I had just realised that Melissa was the virtuous woman.. and God had placed me and her together.. there was only one problem. I had turned my back on God since 2003.
Ok I could not Ignore God anymore, I started Reading, Dug out my Old worship Cd's... and then I went to Church.
It was Friday Oct 17, 2008 I got to work at midnight and gave melissa a hug as usual and we spent the next few hours talking, sharing, and working together. prior to this day the high ups in our company had found out there was something going on between us... there was gossip in the building. I'm telling you now it was the devils work. he had been working at her for weeks. trying to get her to break. and as me and her grew closer, the devil tried harder. coming at us from every angle. through co-workers, tenants, big wigs in out company, our supervisor, our boss... thats when it happened... the devil traied one last time... throught MY MOM!!!! my mom had called me at 5:30am worried that the company might be thinking sexual harassment... nothing of the sort happened but still. I shared with melissa what me and mom talked about and SHE SNAPPED!!!
it was full blown spiritual warfare. she almost walked off the job, and out of my life. she broke down and was leaving.. the devil almost won.
God had different plans. I left my post risked my job and chassed after her.. she didn't get to far. I did my best to comfort her. I listened to what she had to say... it wasnt much. but I knew she was hurting inside. I got her to come back to the building and I told her that the devil is trying his hardest to get her.. and that God had put us together for some reason.. we both broke down and cried...
I prayed... she cried... I held her hand... she cried some more. I whispered in her ear... "I love you" it was at that moment.... I KNEW the devil had been defeated. by the end of our shift the weight of the world had been lifted off of our shoulders. we both talked to our boss seperatly that morning and told him what had been going on... all he said was "I'm happy for you two just don't let it get in the way of your job" thats it? "yup" I went home prayed and went to bed
Oct 17 2008 4:00pm, I woke up and could not go back to sleep. I tossed and turned but couldn't fall back asleep. I ate, showered and decided to visit a Church I used to go to way back when.. My aunt and uncle go there and I talked to my uncle first "what brings you here?" he asked.. I replied "a girl" I shared with him the basics and also shared the same with my aunt. I also ran into my old youth pastor from the other church way back when. I stood through Praise and Worship, I let the music speak to me. and afterwords Ray spoke... me and Ray go way back. I havn't seen him in about 6 years but I used to hang with him and my youth pastor alot back then. Ray actually lives in seattle now.. so the chances of him being there were slim to none. but God had brought him home for that weekend.. God spoke to me through him.. it all made sense now. Pastor's message? a don't remember much... I do remember him saying "don't rollover, ROLLOUT of bed" and by the time alter call rolled around I was a mess.. I gave it all to God right then and there. I had realized that I had turned my back on him. I had been selfish, and selfcentered and I was not living for God. I was Born again.... again
I shared this with Melissa that Friday night at work. we talked alot. I came back down to work later that day Saturday to talk to my co-worker... I told him everything... we talked alot. Melissa showed up for work and I was still there. we went to the bar down the street where she gets her coffee. we sat down at a both... the light was dim, the table was wobbly and wet. we talked about Gods plan for us... I felt God presence so strong in that room for those 15 minutes. I went home went to sleep and came to work sunday morning... of course Melissa was still there.. I greeted her with a hug. talked walked her to her bus stop and lold her I loved her. on my way back to work I stopped at arbys just like every sunday morning and the casier lady was said "you missed your buddy" "no I didn't, I just walked her to the bus" I replied. "Oh, so are you two together?" she asked. I replied "Kinda sorta"
Later that day sunday the most amazing thing happened. out of the blue. Melissa walked through the door.... with her son. I was speechless. I knew it had to happen, I didn't think it would happen so soon, I wasnt ready for it. but It was a day I'll never forget. I got the ultimate response and now its in God's hands.
keep us in your prayers
heres my story: since about 02-03 I had been doing things my way. I was in highschool at the time and I had fallen in love with a girl. we became close friends and started dating. things seemed to be going good but there was something missing in our relationship... GOD, I didn't know it at the time tho. eventually things came to a head and the girl I had fallen in love with dumped me and crushed my heart. I never knew why. I blamed her... her parents.. even God.. I didn't understand.
That was 5 years ago, after that I moved on with my life.... sorta. I fell into a serious bout of depression. I did NOTHING for two years after that and got very depressed.... then Sept 18, 2005 I got off my butt got a job and started working third shift security. I had been working here for over 3 years at this point and even tho I enjoy my job, I still felt empty inside. I still didn't know why, I still didn't understand... thats when she walked into my life
WOW..... I bout fell out of my chair when I met her.. I will never forget it. I knew we we had a new girl that was going to be training in our building.. I just had no idea she would be so beautiful... I'm not talking that fake caked on beauty either. she walked up to the counter and my heart started to race..... play it cool I thought.. so I asked "can I help you?" it was all a blur after that but something told me she was different.
were just Human co-workers.... so somehow she ended up geting a shift working with me 2 nights of the week... now you all have to understand. working 3rd shift security you have about 6-7 hours of "alone time" every night. by the end of night one she was standing in my personal space. by night two she had found out I was ticklish.. ok shes showing some interest. why? I sought counsel with one of my other co-workers. me and him are very close friends and I knew he would have something to tell me.... well he did. "get to know her" thats it? "yup" he also told me the reason why he doesnt have female friends is because he's always trying to "sleep" with them... thats why he veiws melissa as just a human co-worker. now I've known this guy for about 3 years and I KNOW he's not that kind of guy.. I figured he was just trying to be funny and sarcastic.. so we had our own little inside jokes and I spent the next few weeks getting to know melissa. thats when I figured out what my buddy was REALLY trying to say to me... he doesnt keep close female friends because he will eventually fall in love with them and want to have a substantial long term relationship with them and marry them... once I realized what he had told me it was too late... I already had a crush on this girl.
now I'm leaving ALOT of details out, most are mundane so I'll cut to Oct 12, 2008... I had been trying to figure this girl out for about 4 weeks now... does she like me?.. if she does... why?. is she being honest?.. I had so many things running through my head and I couldn't figure them out... I had been talking to my co-workers and trying to figure out whats going on and thats when (whale talking about relationships) my OTHER co-worker gave me Proverbs 31:30...
"Charm is deceitful, Beauty is vain.. but a woman that fears the Lord shall be praised"
when I heard that I about pooped my pants and threw up at the same time. I got cold chills down my spine... I remembered Melissa praying over every meal.. trying to talk to me about God.... it was all making sense.... I had just realised that Melissa was the virtuous woman.. and God had placed me and her together.. there was only one problem. I had turned my back on God since 2003.
Ok I could not Ignore God anymore, I started Reading, Dug out my Old worship Cd's... and then I went to Church.
It was Friday Oct 17, 2008 I got to work at midnight and gave melissa a hug as usual and we spent the next few hours talking, sharing, and working together. prior to this day the high ups in our company had found out there was something going on between us... there was gossip in the building. I'm telling you now it was the devils work. he had been working at her for weeks. trying to get her to break. and as me and her grew closer, the devil tried harder. coming at us from every angle. through co-workers, tenants, big wigs in out company, our supervisor, our boss... thats when it happened... the devil traied one last time... throught MY MOM!!!! my mom had called me at 5:30am worried that the company might be thinking sexual harassment... nothing of the sort happened but still. I shared with melissa what me and mom talked about and SHE SNAPPED!!!
it was full blown spiritual warfare. she almost walked off the job, and out of my life. she broke down and was leaving.. the devil almost won.
God had different plans. I left my post risked my job and chassed after her.. she didn't get to far. I did my best to comfort her. I listened to what she had to say... it wasnt much. but I knew she was hurting inside. I got her to come back to the building and I told her that the devil is trying his hardest to get her.. and that God had put us together for some reason.. we both broke down and cried...
I prayed... she cried... I held her hand... she cried some more. I whispered in her ear... "I love you" it was at that moment.... I KNEW the devil had been defeated. by the end of our shift the weight of the world had been lifted off of our shoulders. we both talked to our boss seperatly that morning and told him what had been going on... all he said was "I'm happy for you two just don't let it get in the way of your job" thats it? "yup" I went home prayed and went to bed
Oct 17 2008 4:00pm, I woke up and could not go back to sleep. I tossed and turned but couldn't fall back asleep. I ate, showered and decided to visit a Church I used to go to way back when.. My aunt and uncle go there and I talked to my uncle first "what brings you here?" he asked.. I replied "a girl" I shared with him the basics and also shared the same with my aunt. I also ran into my old youth pastor from the other church way back when. I stood through Praise and Worship, I let the music speak to me. and afterwords Ray spoke... me and Ray go way back. I havn't seen him in about 6 years but I used to hang with him and my youth pastor alot back then. Ray actually lives in seattle now.. so the chances of him being there were slim to none. but God had brought him home for that weekend.. God spoke to me through him.. it all made sense now. Pastor's message? a don't remember much... I do remember him saying "don't rollover, ROLLOUT of bed" and by the time alter call rolled around I was a mess.. I gave it all to God right then and there. I had realized that I had turned my back on him. I had been selfish, and selfcentered and I was not living for God. I was Born again.... again
I shared this with Melissa that Friday night at work. we talked alot. I came back down to work later that day Saturday to talk to my co-worker... I told him everything... we talked alot. Melissa showed up for work and I was still there. we went to the bar down the street where she gets her coffee. we sat down at a both... the light was dim, the table was wobbly and wet. we talked about Gods plan for us... I felt God presence so strong in that room for those 15 minutes. I went home went to sleep and came to work sunday morning... of course Melissa was still there.. I greeted her with a hug. talked walked her to her bus stop and lold her I loved her. on my way back to work I stopped at arbys just like every sunday morning and the casier lady was said "you missed your buddy" "no I didn't, I just walked her to the bus" I replied. "Oh, so are you two together?" she asked. I replied "Kinda sorta"
Later that day sunday the most amazing thing happened. out of the blue. Melissa walked through the door.... with her son. I was speechless. I knew it had to happen, I didn't think it would happen so soon, I wasnt ready for it. but It was a day I'll never forget. I got the ultimate response and now its in God's hands.
keep us in your prayers
