I getting getting the urge to become bulimic

[Destiny2009]

Hello,


Lately over the past few years I have been struggling/dealing with advoiding becoming bulimic. I haven't actually tried it yet but I have gotten very close to doing so. At one point I struggled with aneorxica but wasn't able to commit to for long. Because one of my close friends started to realize that I stopped it like an average person. Or knew that I was hungry but wouldn't eat, so she would start coming around more often and threaten that if I didn't start eating that she will tell my mom that she thought I was going aneroxica, my mom before then was already starting to wonder what was going on with me and why it seemed like I was barely eating or not eating alot. So after that I got better and started to striaghten out. But after a while the thought would pass my mind that I could eat and throw up that way I wouldn't gain weight but still would be able to eat around others and appear normal. At times it on my mind so much that I can't think about anything else like now. Then most of the time I am okay and don't think about it. But it's like when someone mentions either one of the two it starts crossing my mind more often. I know someone who was bulimic for i beleive two months they lost some weight and all but realized why they needed to quit and all and they don't struggle with it not. They are a christian, they was back then as well.

I know that if I talked to her she wouldn't judge me or anything and I am sure she would pray and help me out, but it's like even though were close I still don't want to share with her about it. Even though I could tell her like anything. I guess because it's something that I am not really proud of and something only one person knows about.



What should I do? Can I deal with this by myself? What can I do to get my mind off of it.

 

[Destiny2009]

I will be okay for the night because I am going to pray and read. But I hope someone answers sometime this week though

Have a blessed night,


Destiny2009

 

[Everlasting33]

I am sorry that you have gone through pain and probably a lot of self-detest and disgust. Deep down inside, you may feel truly unlovable, dirty, flawed, inferior.

Maybe you feel you don't deserve love, happiness, friendship or even self-acceptance. Maybe you are used to feeling so bad about yourself that feeling good may feel unnatural.


No matter what the cause, you are hurting and you need to be free of the pain and harmful expectations you have placed on yourself.

Counseling, prayer, support system, and inner child therapy are all helpful. Nurture the pain and hate inside. Forgive and be compassionate for the critical and destructive part.

God has a great purpose and hope for you! He loves you and I pray for peace and joy to fill your soul.

Never give up!

 

[Destiny2009]

Hello,

Thanks for replying I appericate it. Over the past few days I have been doing alot better and been praying alot more. I still think about it every now and then but when it pops in my head I try to dwell on something else instead. But also I do need to search myself to see if I am dealing with something personal or if the enemy is just trying to attack me but either way I shall overcome.

 

[Illuminated]

ya it can be tough. I think it's important to tell some people so they can pray for you cause it's a hard battle to fight on your own.
Good for you to be talking about it on here though!!

Keep up the good fight.
It's worth it. You are worth it. Because God made you who you are for a reason. And He won't let you down. He'll always be with you.

Blessings....

 

[MaxyK35]

probably completely unhelpful but you would likely not lose weight if you threw up anyway. most of the calories still get absorbed etc.

not much worth the effort if you think about it.

 

[Destiny2009]

ya it can be tough. I think it's important to tell some people so they can pray for you cause it's a hard battle to fight on your own.
Good for you to be talking about it on here though!!

Keep up the good fight.
It's worth it. You are worth it. Because God made you who you are for a reason. And He won't let you down. He'll always be with you.

Blessings....

Thanks I appericate it I have been doing alot better, I have lost alittle bit of weight not be eating and purging but by eating right. But I am doing it now so because I want to, I mean I am eating better (eating wasn't really ever bad) but realized eating regularly does help alot both mentally and physically

 

[kterry]

take it from someone who is bulimic... It's not worth it, it will ruin your life and once you start it will always be a struggle. I've been bulimic for seven years and it has robbed me so much of my life. Stay strong in the fight to resist your temptation. Trust me you don't want to fall in the life.

 

[jesuslovespancakes]

its not worth it. i have been on and off with bulimia. you think it wont control you that you really have control. but that is not the reality. tell at least one trusted person. and if you start thinking about it then do something else and think about something else

 

[Oddish]

Side effects and associated problems:

- Spots
- Bloated stomach
- Susceptibility to illnesses
- Rounder cheeks
- Decaying teeth

That might put u off, hopefully it will

 

[Whisper13]

yeah it is totally not worth it. i'm in college and my bulimia was really bad the first couple years- i could get away with it so easily because i had no one watching over what i was doing. but the guilt that comes with it is awful- spending my own money or my parents money for food that i'd just throw up.