i feel like

[fadedglory]

giving up. this isn't the life i want. i know it's not mine to take. but i just can't handle this anymore.

i want to die. my life feels like hell so i don't think it would make a difference if i ended up going to hell for killing myself.

i'm just tired of being alone. i'm tired of feeling abandoned and living in this misery. i don't belong anywhere. no one would care if i died.

 

[Ariel]

I would care. Deeply. I care.

I am here for you. I care.

I am praying for you.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Heya sister,

Praying to the Lord that he reaches your heart. I want you to know that there is hope. Today is riddled with pain and suffering, yet if you hold on to the Lord. Follow the truth, follow Jesus. He will carry you out of the darkness and into the light.

Body will pass away and return to the earth from which it is create, but the soul is eternal. Highway to hell is wide, while the gates of heaven are narrow. Know this, that evil will benefit and claim victory over your soul if you take the easy way out.

On the other hand, if you grab ahold of the hope that is Jesus("god who saves"). His love for you will fill in the holes in your heart. He will give you grace(undeserved mercy) as you begin to trust him with a musterd seed of faith.

Having peace in the Lord is amazing feeling. Many times over I been in heart breaking situations where I felt totally out of control. Yet when I came close to the Lord, I would experience peace. A joy that can not be taken away by the devil.

Just discovered this psalm. David was hunted down by people he loved. Many times he was in grief, yet his heart knew his deliverer was the Lord. I pray this psalm touches your heart.

Psalm 40

1 I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,
and he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
out of the mud and the mire.
He set my feet on solid ground
and steadied me as I walked along.
3 He has given me a new song to sing,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see what he has done and be amazed.
They will put their trust in the Lord.

4 Oh, the joys of those who trust the Lord,
who have no confidence in the proud
or in those who worship idols.
5 O Lord my God, you have performed many wonders for us.
Your plans for us are too numerous to list.
You have no equal.
If I tried to recite all your wonderful deeds,
I would never come to the end of them.
6 You take no delight in sacrifices or offerings.
Now that you have made me listen, I finally understand[a]—
you don’t require burnt offerings or sin offerings.
7 Then I said, “Look, I have come.
As is written about me in the Scriptures:
8 I take joy in doing your will, my God,
for your instructions are written on my heart.”
9 I have told all your people about your justice.
I have not been afraid to speak out,
as you, O Lord, well know.
10 I have not kept the good news of your justice hidden in my heart;
I have talked about your faithfulness and saving power.
I have told everyone in the great assembly
of your unfailing love and faithfulness.
11 Lord, don’t hold back your tender mercies from me.
Let your unfailing love and faithfulness always protect me.
12 For troubles surround me—
too many to count!
My sins pile up so high
I can’t see my way out.
They outnumber the hairs on my head.
I have lost all courage.
13 Please, Lord, rescue me!
Come quickly, Lord, and help me.
14 May those who try to destroy me
be humiliated and put to shame.
May those who take delight in my trouble
be turned back in disgrace.
15 Let them be horrified by their shame,
for they said, “Aha! We’ve got him now!” 16 But may all who search for you
be filled with joy and gladness in you.
May those who love your salvation
repeatedly shout, “The Lord is great!”
17 As for me, since I am poor and needy,
let the Lord keep me in his thoughts.
You are my helper and my savior.
O my God, do not delay.

 

[Angeldove97]

Praying for you--- don't give up on your life yet, it's too precious

 

[Jayangel81]

Alot of times our lives doesnt go the way we want. But with the Lords strength we carry on until the Day of the Lord. You say noone would care if you died but thats not true. God cares, I care and so does a great many other people.

Its easy to feel that noone cares about you when we are in such great pain. But you must not believe that noone cares.

You say you dont belong anywhere. But you belong to a very special family. Gods family. I am proud to call you my family.

I dont really know what you are going through but know that we are all here for you. And God is with you just waiting for you to grab ahold of His hand.

Don't give up. One day you will never feel this way again. If not in this lifetime, than definitly in the next.

Im here if you ever want to talk

 

[Jo1]

Oh sweetheart Im so sorry you feel like this Bless you, I know how that feels, to feel so bad. Please dont give up.
We love you. Praying for you love Joxxx

 

[Ariel]

fadedglory--just to let you know I am still here if you need me. PM me?

I am praying for you. (((hug)))

 

[Yuki Usagi]

giving up. this isn't the life i want. i know it's not mine to take. but i just can't handle this anymore.

i want to die. my life feels like hell so i don't think it would make a difference if i ended up going to hell for killing myself.

i'm just tired of being alone. i'm tired of feeling abandoned and living in this misery. i don't belong anywhere. no one would care if i died.

I realize it is not healthy for you to feel this way and it's not a good thing but... God can take it and use it. He can use anything. Most of us hate our lives before we accept Jesus as our Savior.

Paul said we die daily. So if you have an attitude of hating yourself... it still can be used for good, to a point.

If you aren't saved, yet, please accept Christ into your heart life and exchange yours for His. That's what He does when we accept Him.

We give Him our trash of a life and He gives His life in exchange; a life of power and strength and a Comforter to help us through things. We are promised the victory over everything. It may take time but the Holy Spirit works on us and in us to overcome the thing He sees as most important first. One thing at a time.

We still have problems, but instead of feeling despondent all the time, to the point where we dont' want to live, we are given a hope that sustains us. We have someone with us taking us through things always. Jesus promised to NEVER leave us, and has always lived up to it.

Psalm 34;19
Many [are] the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all.
​

That's God's word. He can not lie. The only way things that don't kill us make us stronger is having Jesus at our back... at our side, living inside us... carrying us through.

I'm praying for you!!!

(((((((Fadedglory)))))))

 

[Criada]

Dear one, you are loved... so very much.
Before He created the universe, God planned for you.
He knows all you are going through, all you are feeling, and He is there beside you, loving you.
You are not alone, sweetie.
If you need to talk, please PM me.
Praying for you

 

[Soulwings]

((((Fadedglory))))

I have been where you are. In the past, as recently as this past summer... but I am learning that people do care, that people would miss me/you/anyone who is struggling like this.

It does matter... you matter. Your life may be hell, but that doesn't mean that God doesn't love you. He does. Jesus died for you. I'll save you the preaching - if you want to talk about it, any one of us would be glad to talk with you - but just know in your heart of hearts that God cares, and that you can call on Him as Jehovah-rophe - the Lord our Healer. I pray that He heals your life, that you find peace in your Heavenly Daddy's arms, and that Jesus help you along your way.

I don't know when you'll stop feeling like this. I don't know you... so this may be a stupid question... but are you getting any help for feeling the way you are? therapy, pastor, pdoc, meds - anything? because they might help some... I can't imagine fighting suicidality and self hatred on my own... it is so hard.

Keep fighting, beautiful. You can make it through this.

 

[Bellicus]

giving up. this isn't the life i want. i know it's not mine to take. but i just can't handle this anymore.

i want to die. my life feels like hell so i don't think it would make a difference if i ended up going to hell for killing myself.

i'm just tired of being alone. i'm tired of feeling abandoned and living in this misery. i don't belong anywhere. no one would care if i died.

I feel like that too.

 

[Ariel]

Praying for you, Bellicus.

 

[Soulwings]

((((Bellicus))))

 

[Criada]

(((((((Bellicus))))))))
Love you, brother.
Hang in there, k?
Praying for you!

 

[kimbalee]

Even though it may not seem like it now, God has a purpose for every single (that includes you!) person on this planet. I don't know exactly what is going on in your life to make you feel this way, but I can remind you of this scripture:

Romans 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

If everything was perfect in our lives, we would never get a chance to really trust God and to get to know his character. Tough times help us get closer to God. He is building your testimony. Take a leap of faith and cry out to him. He is there waiting.

 

[jbm611973]

giving up. this isn't the life i want. i know it's not mine to take. but i just can't handle this anymore.

i want to die. my life feels like hell so i don't think it would make a difference if i ended up going to hell for killing myself.

i'm just tired of being alone. i'm tired of feeling abandoned and living in this misery. i don't belong anywhere. no one would care if i died.[/quot

Father,
I pray for this sister who is fighting this demon of depression, and I give this battle to you Lord and claim victory in the name of Jesus , for her. Father I pray you will fill her life with your glory and peace. I thank you Lord , Amen