I feel like life is a struggle....

[blessedmomof5]

now i have the urge to cut myself, never have before, self harm which i am so good at.in other areas in my life.......there is just so much happening right now it seems comforting......oh i hope i am allowed to say that........

 

[lilyput]

well if jesus saves then ur gonna b allrite rnt ya

 

[luv4godremains]

Denise...

hunny...

please don't, it becomes an addiction, just like eating disorders! please don't hun, it won't do you any good, it will just make things worse!

please pm me if ya need to chat!

God bless, you're in my prayers!

 

[blessedmomof5]

I feel like something has taken over my life....it was MINE, not anymore....it is someone elses, or someone has taken me and did something with the real me.....cause this is not who i am.........this is not who i want to be, this is to easy, this is so not me.
Oh God i Beg you, bring me back...i wanna be me again. how much more can i suffer? how many more trials am i going to have to go through? if this is your will so be it.....but i need to know.......In Jesus name

 

[IKTCA]

Sister,

If you have an urge to cut but do not want to (which is the case now), I plead you to seek the Lord. He alone can remove the urge from you. As you have noticed, you are not yourself under the attack by the urge. Give yourself up to the Lord. He will protect you. I pray for you.
Rupert

 

[blessedmomof5]

I am not myself at all anymore......and to late...it was to late when i posted yesterday.....now i have said to myself i will not again, only God knows for sure.....so i will assume you have not seen the old me around huh? thanks for your help, but i have a very hard time asking for help from the Lord, not to sure why, but i do.....maybe not ready, maybe something holding me back, maybe its because i am nolonger here?

 

[penguin]

The next time you have the urge to cut, and you cant handle the resisting use an elastic band first beforeyou cut . Hopefully you will not have the need to then cut. It's a half way house. Still self harm but not as distructive
Penguin

 

[Theresasjourney]

now i have the urge to cut myself, never have before, self harm which i am so good at.in other areas in my life.......there is just so much happening right now it seems comforting......oh i hope i am allowed to say that........

I hear you and how hard it all is...
You know..my daughter has 5 children...and as much as she loves them..they are all consuming of ones identity....so yes..you have lost yourself in many ways...some of it is change and maturing..some of it is being a mom who is consumed 24/7.
My daughter and I have talked about this when she has a hard time...and she has realized that each day she needs to take time for herself...be in touch with herself....find balance within and touch Gods heart....she has a quiet place she goes and has taught the kids not to bother her when she is having her quiet time....and the time is sometimes just a few minutes..but others its a couple hours or a whole day if hubby can watch the kids.
Find your quiet time and rediscover yourself and where your at seperate from lifes other demands..journal...find an interest..an outlet...make time for you...you are worth it...

 

[blessedmomof5]

thanks, ....i appreicaite ALL the help..........i do need to find myself, and hmmm my mother seems to nag me.......so along with the kids whom i love so much that i am here for them, and my mom and my husband and the world, it is overwhelming me that i am scaring myself.....

 

[jen_soccer13]

Hey Denise,

I understand the urge to cut. But please please please do not start that. I have read many of your posts and I can see that you have a lot going on. This will just cause you so much more pain in the end....trust me on that one. If you ever need anyone to talk to pm me.
~Jennifer

 

[Theresasjourney]

thanks, ....i appreicaite ALL the help..........i do need to find myself, and hmmm my mother seems to nag me.......so along with the kids whom i love so much that i am here for them, and my mom and my husband and the world, it is overwhelming me that i am scaring myself.....

Your 42 sweetie..I know what its like to have mom issues..comes a time where one has to just set boundaires when people can't respect you....you are your own adult ...stand up and be counted..k

 

[blessedmomof5]

Jennifer,
thanks for the reply......but life is never what we all want it to be......that i have come to realize. the odd thing is at times while your waiting for your post to appear, time goes by and it becomes to late...oh so not placing blame, but i can see why they would have to moderate everything that was posted here....
funny how calming it is after........on a good note a suppose i will go see a phschrist today spelled that wrong...lol and i am not to sure if that will be brought up.....for some reason i am boubting i will tell right away...or of ever.....
but again thanks for your concern.....
Denise