Buckle up, this is gonna be a long one.
So I've been applying for jobs out of state for awhile. Months go by without much of a peep. Then, last week, I get, in the span of 4 days, a phone call, an interview, a reference check, and a tentative job offer. In a state I'd like to go to, in a job I really want. Dream come true, right?
Well, it should be. Except I feel like I don't deserve it. I've been replaying my interview over and over, convinced I lied during it. I've been struggling to remember the questions, and what I said in reply, because it's kind of all a blur. I know I sent a follow up email clarifying one thing, and I thought that was the end of it, the end of my brain freaking out.
Nope. Still mulling it over. Now I'm fixated on another part, where I'm positive I implied I'm the only one who works on a specific task at work (a big information gathering task that helps the office run smoother--i'm positive I said that its my job to do that--which it is, but I have help from another gal, but I believe I implied I do all of it). And I described it as complicated, which it WAS, but we changed our process so it's easier now.
I KNOW I'm qualified for this job. But I feel like I need to decline this tentative offer, because if I don't, and I get the job, my life will be based on a lie. I've been in a panic since Friday, I'm exhausted, and I feel sick.
So I've been applying for jobs out of state for awhile. Months go by without much of a peep. Then, last week, I get, in the span of 4 days, a phone call, an interview, a reference check, and a tentative job offer. In a state I'd like to go to, in a job I really want. Dream come true, right?
Well, it should be. Except I feel like I don't deserve it. I've been replaying my interview over and over, convinced I lied during it. I've been struggling to remember the questions, and what I said in reply, because it's kind of all a blur. I know I sent a follow up email clarifying one thing, and I thought that was the end of it, the end of my brain freaking out.
Nope. Still mulling it over. Now I'm fixated on another part, where I'm positive I implied I'm the only one who works on a specific task at work (a big information gathering task that helps the office run smoother--i'm positive I said that its my job to do that--which it is, but I have help from another gal, but I believe I implied I do all of it). And I described it as complicated, which it WAS, but we changed our process so it's easier now.
I KNOW I'm qualified for this job. But I feel like I need to decline this tentative offer, because if I don't, and I get the job, my life will be based on a lie. I've been in a panic since Friday, I'm exhausted, and I feel sick.
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