Some might know I left my religion (Jehovah's Witness) and recently left home after family pressure to do so because of this move from what they consider to be 'truth' and my younger brother being wrongly influenced by me.
I went to live at the university accomodation and what a change. The atmosphere is just so different from home. I sit in my room and hear everything that goes on, the weekends being the worst. I guess I'm on some pity party coping which doesn't help.
From a family who prayed together at 10pm each night, attended Bible Studies and led quiet lives I am finding this change so difficult. I miss my family, my friends and just don't fit in here at all.
It feels like satans playground, really it does. Like I have stepped into the 'WORLD'. On one hand I feel if I am to fit in I should try and mix, on the other I feel that if I do I am dishonoring Jehovah God. Is there some common ground?
Is there a place for someone like me? I'm such a misfit. It isn't until now I realize what a protected life I have led. Is my future to be leading a double life? one where you laugh and joke and have low morals for friendship?
I was thinking that priests or nuns who leave the comfort of their lives in a monestry would feel like me. How does a person fit into society and still remain true to Jehovah? Do they ever find peace?
The Biblical differences showed me I wasn't in 'the truth' as far as teachings go from The Bible but I fear there is no group of believers that might be close to how The Jehovah's Witnesses acted their lives out.
James
I went to live at the university accomodation and what a change. The atmosphere is just so different from home. I sit in my room and hear everything that goes on, the weekends being the worst. I guess I'm on some pity party coping which doesn't help.
From a family who prayed together at 10pm each night, attended Bible Studies and led quiet lives I am finding this change so difficult. I miss my family, my friends and just don't fit in here at all.
It feels like satans playground, really it does. Like I have stepped into the 'WORLD'. On one hand I feel if I am to fit in I should try and mix, on the other I feel that if I do I am dishonoring Jehovah God. Is there some common ground?
Is there a place for someone like me? I'm such a misfit. It isn't until now I realize what a protected life I have led. Is my future to be leading a double life? one where you laugh and joke and have low morals for friendship?
I was thinking that priests or nuns who leave the comfort of their lives in a monestry would feel like me. How does a person fit into society and still remain true to Jehovah? Do they ever find peace?
The Biblical differences showed me I wasn't in 'the truth' as far as teachings go from The Bible but I fear there is no group of believers that might be close to how The Jehovah's Witnesses acted their lives out.
James