I've been struggling with depression, anxiety, and hallucinations, for years now. To be honest, I feel abandoned. I don't feel like God is supporting me. I only feel like my family is helping and every time I go to church I feel worse. I don't know whats wrong with me, I used to be so active in my church community and now I stay home most of the time. I don't know what to do or think anymore.
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I feel abandoned
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Hey sis ♥ I just want you to know that I, too, once suffered from depression and debilitating anxiety. God hasn't abandoned you. He knows what you're going through and wants to help you. You need to draw closer to Him though..through reading His Word, praying, singing to Him, journaling about Him, doing a Bible study, etc.
See, the enemy likes to isolate us and make us feel that God doesn't care and is far away from us. But that's not true. The enemy is a liar and will do anything to bring us down and keep us there by condemning us and/or feeding us lies. The lie only becomes effective if we believe in them. The truth is also effective if we believe in His truths about His character and what He says about us. It's hard but we can't rely on our feelings to determine whether or not God loves us..because regardless of how we may feel, He loves and cares for us.
The following is my recent blog post that I wrote in May which relates to how you're feeling:
So I've been reading manga.. shoujo romance ones.. which is pretty much, for me, a form of torture
. Why? Because #1, I'm celibate and #2, romance mangas tend to bring out a mix of emotions in me..to perhaps.. be open to the possibility of the prospect of being in a serious relationship.
Which leads me to the title of this blog entry: "Why do you doubt My love for you?"
If anyone's ever read romance novels or mangas.. or even watched romance movies, tv shows, and cartoons.. you will notice.. that sometimes- not everytime- but sometimes..the boyfriend/husband or the girlfriend/wife starts to doubt the other partner's love for them. Even in the BEGINNING stages BEFORE they were even their boyfriend/girlfriend, there is a lot of doubt about the other person's interest and love for them.
And so.. this got me thinking about..God's love for us.
I feel like God is trying to tell me this:
Why do you doubt My love for you, dear one? I have loved you from before you were born. I am not like the characters that you read & watch who hurt others and are unfaithful. I have given everyone the gift of free-will. It is up to each individual to choose how to use it.. whether it be for good or for evil. Sometimes.. I notice that you blame me for certain things that have happened to you. I am not here to punish you but to help you through whatever circumstances come your way. I am here for you to trust Me and depend on Me to see you through. I know that people have hurt you in the past.. but that is solely them using their free-will that has hurt you in some way.. I only want to heal your heart and give joy once more in your life, if you let me. Please don't ever doubt my love for you. The enemy can plant seeds in your heart to distract you from My love for you and to make you feel as if I simply don't care or am not helping you. But you must be rooted, in faith, in my Word. My Word is truth. The enemy is a liar whose sole purpose is to kill, steal, and destroy..while My plans are to prosper you and not to harm you; to give you hope and a future. Sometimes, however, I allow things to happen in order to test your faith in Me. What good would faith be, dear one, if you exercise your faith when everything is going well for you? Faith in Me is proven in difficulties. I only want to strengthen you. But you won't be facing those difficulties alone.. for I am here with you always. But it is up to you to let me help you through it. Sometimes, I find you pushing my hand away in order to face your troubles alone. How I wish for you to take My hand and let me help. That is what I am here for. To lead and guide you through every circumstance. I will always be your first true love for I have loved you since the beginning. I will never abandon you no matter how many times you push Me away to face things on your own.
See, the enemy likes to isolate us and make us feel that God doesn't care and is far away from us. But that's not true. The enemy is a liar and will do anything to bring us down and keep us there by condemning us and/or feeding us lies. The lie only becomes effective if we believe in them. The truth is also effective if we believe in His truths about His character and what He says about us. It's hard but we can't rely on our feelings to determine whether or not God loves us..because regardless of how we may feel, He loves and cares for us.
The following is my recent blog post that I wrote in May which relates to how you're feeling:
So I've been reading manga.. shoujo romance ones.. which is pretty much, for me, a form of torture
. Why? Because #1, I'm celibate and #2, romance mangas tend to bring out a mix of emotions in me..to perhaps.. be open to the possibility of the prospect of being in a serious relationship.Which leads me to the title of this blog entry: "Why do you doubt My love for you?"
If anyone's ever read romance novels or mangas.. or even watched romance movies, tv shows, and cartoons.. you will notice.. that sometimes- not everytime- but sometimes..the boyfriend/husband or the girlfriend/wife starts to doubt the other partner's love for them. Even in the BEGINNING stages BEFORE they were even their boyfriend/girlfriend, there is a lot of doubt about the other person's interest and love for them.
And so.. this got me thinking about..God's love for us.
I feel like God is trying to tell me this:
Why do you doubt My love for you, dear one? I have loved you from before you were born. I am not like the characters that you read & watch who hurt others and are unfaithful. I have given everyone the gift of free-will. It is up to each individual to choose how to use it.. whether it be for good or for evil. Sometimes.. I notice that you blame me for certain things that have happened to you. I am not here to punish you but to help you through whatever circumstances come your way. I am here for you to trust Me and depend on Me to see you through. I know that people have hurt you in the past.. but that is solely them using their free-will that has hurt you in some way.. I only want to heal your heart and give joy once more in your life, if you let me. Please don't ever doubt my love for you. The enemy can plant seeds in your heart to distract you from My love for you and to make you feel as if I simply don't care or am not helping you. But you must be rooted, in faith, in my Word. My Word is truth. The enemy is a liar whose sole purpose is to kill, steal, and destroy..while My plans are to prosper you and not to harm you; to give you hope and a future. Sometimes, however, I allow things to happen in order to test your faith in Me. What good would faith be, dear one, if you exercise your faith when everything is going well for you? Faith in Me is proven in difficulties. I only want to strengthen you. But you won't be facing those difficulties alone.. for I am here with you always. But it is up to you to let me help you through it. Sometimes, I find you pushing my hand away in order to face your troubles alone. How I wish for you to take My hand and let me help. That is what I am here for. To lead and guide you through every circumstance. I will always be your first true love for I have loved you since the beginning. I will never abandon you no matter how many times you push Me away to face things on your own.
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I'm happy to know thatThank you so much that was really helpful
Praying that God will heal your depression, anxiety, and hallucinations. ♥
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I have nothing to say but agree one-hundred percent with @Spiritlight, because she has it down. All I can say is draw closer to Him, and He will draw closer to you. I can testify this is true because the same thing happened to me when I began to seek Him. My life is still a haze, but God is much closer to me than ever before, and that is quite a joyful feeling.
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