No, I do not suffer from depression. It is true that I am quite lazy and hesitate to try new things, but it is not like I am unable to put any effort in things that are beneficial to me. I am not a shut-in, either. I have a work place that is closed right now because of the ongoing crisis. It is likely that not meeting any coworkers increased my loneliness.
But there were times when I really put myself out there for three months avoiding all distractions. I visited lots of self-help groups, a social competence training group and a guitar accompaniment group. That is when I noticed that there was a wall between me and other people that I was never able to cross.
I have no problem talking to people. Though, I lack humor and rarely smile / laugh in the presence of other people. I do not dislike the company of other people, and it does not stress me out. I was socially anxious in the past, but I fixed that problem almost completely.
I thought it over, and I would dislike living together with him. We are not compatible and are bound to argue. But I would like it if he lived nearby so that I can visit him from time to time.
It is easier with my brother, because even though we are not close at all, and have not contacted each other at all for a few months already, my brother takes on the role of the older sibling, and welcomes advances towards him, even if he is not really that much interested.
I do not dislike the idea of getting to know someone new. I just can't imagine that ever happening, because I am not a very likable person, and people do not have fun spending time with me.
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