I've realized that sometimes I feel really ashamed or embarrassed when I feel attractive... and I don't understand why. And it's taken me a long time to feel comfortable around men. I'm finally getting to the point where I can talk to them and not be thinking, this is a man I'm talking to, but it's just another human being. Sometimes I still become overly aware of sexual differences... I guess is how to describe it... and I don't understand why I feel this way or what it means. I just feel dirty (I guess that's the word... I don't know how to describe it) sometimes when I feel too attractive, I don't understand it. It makes me wonder if maybe I was sexually abused but just don't remember it. Is there anything else that could have caused these feelings to develop in me?