Imagine spending a week studying for a test. You say no to parties, you sacrifice your sleep, etc. Then, on the day of the test, the teacher says, "Raise your hand if you studied for the test." You raise your hand but nobody else does. The teacher then proceeds to say, "Since nobody studied for the test, we're not going to take it- everybody passes." You raise an objection to this, as this test was said to be incredibly important for passing the class. Everyone then laughs at you and say something to the tune of, "You didn't really expect people to study for the test, did you?" You then say, "But it was stated at the beginning of the year that passing this test was a requirement for graduating this class..." and everyone begins to get mad at you. "It's your fault that you studied for the test- don't be mad at us for not doing so." You decide to take the test anyway, because you want to get the best job you can in the future. During your job interview, you state that you took the test (even though everyone else didn't) and the interviewer says, "That's cool- we don't care about that test anymore." The interviewer calls every employee into the interview room and asks them, "Did you passes this test?" 99% of the employees say they haven't and laugh at you for doing so.
The above illustrates exactly how I feel.
"Women are allowed to have sex with whoever they want and you just have to accept it. Expecting women of the Christian faith to abstain from the sin of fornication was unreasonable and your unwillingness to accept this makes you a terrible person. Either accept this or die alone- your feelings don't matter. It was stupid of you to think that your future wife would do the same for you- she doesn't owe you anything. Oh, but you don't get to sleep with anyone, because fornication is a sin. Yeah, everyone else does, but you just have to sit there and remain a good little boy because that's what God wants." This is what I've gotten out of this. This doesn't seem like something a loving God would do to me, but maybe I'm wrong. Maybe those who sin knowingly know something I don't, and I'm the fool here.
Yeah, but, why are you wasting time being mad at them, and mad that you waited when no else has seemed to, instead of truly trying to find what it is you are wanting and are looking for, etc...?
I know that you say they are your "feelings", etc, but they are also "baggage" that could possibly set you up for "failure" if you finally do find what you want, etc...
You've got to get rid of that man, like some have said... Hate and anger and bitterness and resentment in your heart is "no good", and is even probably much worse than some who have a "sexual past", etc, and please do notice that I said "some", etc, because "some" had to have that experience to learn from it before they could truly commit to someone, etc, and you should not hate them for that, etc, and those "some" may even be able to "now" be much, much more loyal to someone like you now than even some innocent young virgin with no experience might be, or could be, etc, but you won't even consider it, etc, and there is even hatred toward all of them in your heart, etc, which is "not good", etc...
Look, I'm not saying you have to marry one, but just you make sure to get rid of all of that "baggage" before you find your young virgin wife, OK, and I've told you about maybe some of the only places you will probably be able to find her, etc, because it's not just whether she's a virgin or not if you ask me, because, if you do ask me, I think there is something very wrong with both men and women brought up in today's more modernized cultures, etc, they don't seem to know what it's really supposed to be like, or be all about, etc, in fact, they think it's all about them, etc, and that's a big major problem, etc...
If they had the kind of life people did a hundred or two years ago, etc, then maybe they wouldn't be this way, etc, but as it stands, they never did, and so they have "no clue", etc, and so they are very selfish and self-centered and self-absorbed as a result, which never works out, etc...
And some all but cut off, and very remote place in the world is probably the only place left your going to ever find it now, etc...
You just better make sure your not one them, etc, and that you don't have unrealistic expectations warped by our modernized cultures, and you are not selfish, or self-centered, or self-absorbed yourself, etc, or things will never work out well for you and any new wife, because your carrying that "junk" over into it with you, etc...
In my opinion, people are spoiled babies by what they have today, etc, and in my opinion, it very, very much "shows", etc...
And you need to find someone not like that, and you also not be like that as well, etc, or it will not at all matter if you actually do find what you are looking for, because none of it will ever work out in the long term or in the end anyway, etc...
Anyway,
God Bless!