I don't know

[picassoui]

three years ago i started questioning the existence of God and i wondered if i truely believed in God ...i went through periods of pure agnostiscisim well as close to the accepted term as possible ....

is it posssible to loose youre faith ...because i went from being a dogmatic believer in God and Christ as a teenager and i thought had at least on one of many ocassions placed my faith in him to save me but doubt came back and i searched and searched and went to the alter and went to the alter again ..prayed and prayed and searched for answers till i think i just slowly gave up questioned everything denied some things and now im sitting here worried i have really commited the unpardonable sin ...i feel beyond hope ...

all of these thoughts seem to confirm it at times ..maybe i was a believer and am now an apostate ..maybe i never was truely saved ...maybe i am backsliden or maybe wortst of all i never was saved have commited the unpardonable sin and now cannot be saved that is my greatest fear ..
then the question comes up ...aren't you just afraid of hell ...is that what its all about ..i have to admit at times i believe thats been true ,,, which adds more terror ..

im sorry this is the wrong forum it should be in depression but my obessions and blasphemous thoughts have contributed to all of this i know .

 

[Jayangel81]

Prayed for you.

 

[Jpark]

yes, it is possible to lose your faith

1 Tim. 4:1, 1 John 4:3, 1 John 2:18, 2 Cor. 11:3, 2 Tim. 2:26

Rom. 10:9, 10

1 John 4:18

2 Pet. 3:9

 

[kaykay9.0]

I think the doubt is part of the OCD process, Andrew. I think that the OCD tends to make us seek absolute certainty about stuff and if we don't have it, we sometimes start the "well, what if....yada, yada, yada..." Hope this makes sense.

Praying for you....

 

[forgiveable]

Hang in there and know that you are not alone. I am currently reading John Bunyans book called The chief of all sinners. Apparently he had OCD as well or at least the symptoms of OCD. That was back before they had a name for intrusive thoughts. Don't give up. Hang on to the scriptures that you know. A lotof timesI haveturned to John 5:24 and another one I found this week id JOhn 17 where I believe Jesus is actually praying to the Father for us and on our behalf.
Be ofgood courage and Don'tgive up! ~Brandi