I don't know.

[berry2000]

Things keep escalating. My functioning is going way down. I suppose this is when people starting thinking about hospitals. I saw my psychiatrist today he agreed i was not doing well. Recently weaned off one med so we will go right back and add it in the mix again. I'm confident that will help. What i'm not sure about is how to make it until then. My mind is so muttled and bogged down. So hard to think clearly. One thing i do know is it would be better to seek refuge at someone else's house then go to a hospital. I think that is a better idea. But I don't want to put that kind of strain on my family. I guess i will just try and wait it out.

Please pray. I have 2 kids and a husband counting on me to get thru this.

 

[Alive again]

Praying hard dear friend. Please be safe and kind to yourself inall of this.

 

[Alaskamomma]

Hey Berry, I had to go back to the hospital for a week back in October. There is no shame when it comes to taking care of yourself because then you are more fully capable of taking care of your family.

Put you first. Everything elses can wait. Do what is right for you.

You have my prayers, sister.

 

[berry2000]

Thank you. After I posted this I realized I was heading down a bad path. You'll be happy to know that I called my psych and got my meds adjusted. He agreed I was in a bad place...but thought that it could be rectified by increasing one of my antidepressants.

Then I called the dreaded "on call" person. My therapist is out on medical leave for a few months. I was supposed to have "graduated" from therapy only a few short 3 weeks ago. But I'm also not too proud to ask for help when i need it.

I'm feeling a little better each day. If even just a small amount.

I also realized a huge stressor was work changes. So i found someone safe at work to talk with and kind of vented. That helped too...mostly because there are others who feel the same as me about the problem at work.

I love you guys. Thanks for hanging in there with me as always. And letting me be honest w/ where i am really at w/o judgement.

 

[Alive again]

Praying!

 

[USNavyBlueAngel]

Glad to hear you're doing a bit better, berry2000!

Faith in God will keep you strong!

 

[rushingwind62]

It sounds like you are doing the right things, Berry. And you know where you are at in the BP struggle. And that too is a good thing. Just remember the hospital is there if you need it but in my opinion working through the issues is a far better thing for us to do. We just have to learn new ways to cope with things once we reach a certain stage. Not that hospital stays aren't good. I was hospitalized five times before finally getting my meds that worked for me. A lot of people think meds will take care of all our problems and that is just not true. We must implement lifestyle changes as well and that means learning to deal with stress. Again it sounds like you are doing the right things. You are talking to people and your DR and in turn he/she is adjusting your meds. Just hang in there girl, take things one day at a time, and remember we are here for you to vent to as well. You and everyone here is always on my prayer list!!