I dont know whats wrong with me

[PirateChris]

I do have worries within this week or so, I was on these forums and I saw a post that showed a link to a website where people were sent a tshirt for youtubing themselves rejecting the salvation of Christ. I was at work and it was later at night and it just made me feel sick to my stomach. And that night I had many nightmares that I might do the same. And when I woke up in the morning it felt somewhat real to me. This might sound crazy to you, but ever since I was little( every once and a while). I have what I call "mind tourettes". And for a good portion of that morning after having my nightmare I would have those thoughts, and they felt as if they weren't my own. It was like a battle in my mind. Like ive said ive had these problems before

FREE WILL. You can choose to reject Jesus Christ, even after being saved (not a good idea). The author of Hebrews 6:4-6 tells us: "For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come, If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame."

I dont ever want to reject the salvation that Jesus so graciously gave to anyone who chose to accept it. And we were all bought at a high price and we need to honor that. Would it be a willful event that I would know, a metaphorical "crossing of the line" literally renouncing your faith and believing it and then choosing that as your lifestyle. I Love Jesus and I dont ever want to give him up but these events are scaring me and I dont know where there coming from. And if I didnt care about Jesus anymore I dont think I would be posting on this forum asking for a prayer request anyways

 

[hypostatic]

Praying!

 

[LauraLu]

Lord, please give Chris peace. Let him know that you will stay by his side and help him fight these thoughts that are from the devil. Lord, he loves you and wants to be with you. Lead him in the right direction, and take away his confusion and suffering. I also pray for these youtube members who have rejected you. May you show them your power and glory. Amen.

 

[silentpoet]

God gives us the choice. And also just because a person rejects Christ now it does not mean they will always do so. Therefor be of good cheer and keep praying for them. I pray God's guidance and mercy upon these individuals you have mentioned. May His grace yet reign in their lives.

 

[Minty]

Chin up, PirateChris. I know sometimes dreams can be really scary and I have often had dreams that have lingered for days and made me feel really unsure of myself.
Please be assured, that as long as you believe and pray to Him, God will never, ever leave you. He loves you as do we all here, and I will pray that you find the strength you seek, PirateChris.
Just remember that we are all here for you whenever you need us, ok?
I find in times of personal crisis that Psalm 23 offers me comfort (it also gives me a warm feeling inside, too).

x Minty