I don't know anymore

[JesusLovesYouImTrying]

Hey guys.
I don't know what to do anymore. Something is majorly wrong. At times I'm the happiest person in the world but then i sink. I feel like the world is on my shoulders, like no one loves me or no one cares. I know it's not true, but i just keep feeling like that. I cry out of no where and when i go places i put on a mask. What can i do? I need some help.

 

[RaddMadd]

if you explain your problem further i can try and help you better, but other then that the typical advice-giving of just praying always works,you hear that alot because its important, ask and have faith and everything will be fine, maybe God wants you to do something that you haven't done, He has a purpose for everyone. God bless

 

[HolyOne87]

Hey guys.
I don't know what to do anymore. Something is majorly wrong. At times I'm the happiest person in the world but then i sink. I feel like the world is on my shoulders, like no one loves me or no one cares. I know it's not true, but i just keep feeling like that. I cry out of no where and when i go places i put on a mask. What can i do? I need some help.

Sometimes I feel like that too. You have to remember that God is always there to carry these crosses in your life with you..and that you are never alone. With God and God's children, you are never alone in the world. We all stick together and help each other out. Maybe remembering that will help.
I hope you feel better

btw, welcome to CF!

 

[JesusLovesYouImTrying]

Well i really don't know what is going on with me. Every where i go i feel like people are looking down on me like i can't do anything right. I go to my church and my ex is there and he is always joking with me and i laugh but it really hurts my feelings. He hits me to. My parents expect me to get straight a's and i can't live up to that. I feel like such a dissapointment to them. My youth leaders always judge me for not coming to church or something. My school friends make me feel like an idiot at times. This is hard for me, but i really need some advice. I cut myself. I haven't done it in a while but i feel tempted to often. I'm so lost prayer helps for a little while but then i go back into depressed mode. There is no people here for me to tell this w/o them judging me or lecturing me. I told a friend once and he didn't talk to me for 2 weeks said if he founf out again he'd never talk to me. What am i supposed to do?

 

[HolyOne87]

Have you ever tried going to a group that shares the same pains as you do or went through what you went through? Because, at least through them, you wont be judged because they went through the exact same pain you are dealing with.
Maybe do some research..and find a trusted group of people and talk with them. They don't know you or anything,,They will just know you are going to them with a lot of trouble and pain that you need help with.
Either that, or maybe a pastor in your church. That person will listen to you and maybe give you his insight(well, thats what mine did for me..he didnt lecture me..he listened and gave his open and honest opinion). So thats another suggestion.
You also have us on here. We are all battling with depression(and some actually fought out of it and are willing to help those who are still in battle). I admit on myself, I am not the greatest when it comes to words sometimes, but I do listen pretty well and try..and I am sure others on here will too.
And try and not let other people make you feel like you can't do anything. I use to let people do that to me, and basically, in my own way, allowed them to...which wasnt good for me at all. Then I finally just didnt care anymore what they thought and just led my life(which is what I am doing to this very day); not caring what people though..I only cared about the good things and blocked all the bad out of my mind(which is hard to do sometimes).
And about your ex, I feel you should say something about him. The fact that he hits you isnt good at all. That should really be brought up to someone.
And cutting isnt the answer to this problem(it isnt for anything actually). Cutting is just a temporary relief from pain..Why would one just want to settle for temporary relief when they could do heavy research, find a trusted person, get the help that is need, and have relief that will last(sometimes even permanent relief)..
I don't know if my excessive words help any..but if it does, im glad I at least did something for you.

*hugs*

 

[JesusLovesYouImTrying]

Thx for the advice it makes me feel a little better to know that someone cares. Heres in update on me. I was very happy for about a month or two i had a boyfriend who kept a smile on my face and everything, but then he came up here to move and live close to me but ended up haveing to go home because he had no plan at all. So our relationship went downhill from there we just broke up a few days ago and things have been bad. Alot of my "friends" are like i knew it wouldn't last and he was the only one who got me and made me happy. Plus school is getting to me and i just started back up like 2 days ago. I've turned to my old habits again and i just need someone to talk to. I won't go to any of my friends because they will take it wrong and everything. So yeah thats my update.