I don't care

[brinny]

Bless yer heart, praying precious (((hug)))

 

[AWorkInProgress]

I have gotten help. I'm on medication for depression; have been since 2009. But I have nobody I can truly trust. My mother is a children's pastor. Whenever I bring up that I'm "not feeling well" she just makes me feel worse. There is no way I can bring serious things up without it being dealt with her getting angry. Now anger? I can understand. However, if it just makes me feel even worse. Besides, whenever I want to tell her about serious things - even if I'm just struggling in general - she doesn't do anything except lecture me. She doesn't listen to me anyway.

And before you all go ahead and say, "Just tell somebody else?" I can't. Everything automatically goes back to my mother. And she gets really upset, angry, and she yells at me about talking to others about my depression.

Justageek, it's obvious that you are emotionally wounded and you struggle with a crushed spirit. Truth is you didn't arrive here by accident. Everything you just mentioned about your Mom is the fruit of a critical and controlling spirit. This same spirit is probably why your spirit is so crushed.

Here are some scripture to back it up.

1 John 4:1 NKJV
Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God...

1 John 4:7-8 NKJV
Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.

Matthew 7:15-20 NLT
Beware of false prophets who come disguised as harmless sheep but are really vicious wolves. You can identify them by their fruit, that is, by the way they act. Can you pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? A good tree produces good fruit, and a bad tree produces bad fruit. A good tree can’t produce bad fruit, and a bad tree can’t produce good fruit. So every tree that does not produce good fruit is chopped down and thrown into the fire. Yes, just as you can identify a tree by its fruit, so you can identify people by their actions.

This means your living with your oppressor. There are many people who put on a face and act like they are holy and call themselves Christians, but they are truly ugly monsters inside.

Is there a relative you can move with that doesn't act like your Mom? I will pray that the Lord gives you deliverance from this situation.

Please don't give up on God. He already knows your situation, and He already has a solution. He wants you to receive the help you need, but your Mother is NOT a reflection of him.

Keep praying in the name of Jesus, with what little faith you have for guidance, comfort, and encouragement. I know you are scared, but keep looking for people who have the Spirit of God in them. You will know them by their fruits.

Galatians 5:22-23 NLT
But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!

Jesus teaches us to keep asking, seeking, and knocking till you find your answer!

Matthew 7:7-8 NLT
Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

 

[justageek]

Despite me saying that my mother gets angry about issues like this, and gets really upset and yells at me if I confide in somebody else, she isn't a bad person... She's fought for me when nobody else did and didn't give up on me. She isn't a bad person... I just wish she would be more "understanding"...

It hurts. I've completely lost all hope and I've ran from God and I don't want to return. I don't even want to live anymore.

 

[knw1991]

Despite me saying that my mother gets angry about issues like this, and gets really upset and yells at me if I confide in somebody else, she isn't a bad person... She's fought for me when nobody else did and didn't give up on me. She isn't a bad person... I just wish she would be more "understanding"...

It hurts. I've completely lost all hope and I've ran from God and I don't want to return. I don't even want to live anymore.

why dont you want to return to God? it doesnt matter if you have ran He still is there. remember the prodigal son. You have a purpose, so many people care about you like us. praying for you

 

[Maka]

praying for you