geo, I'm going to take the bait here because for 20 years I did not believe either. I entertained the idea of God, but was to convinced everyone was under a mass delusion, spent years piecing together how so many people could come underneath a false pretense of some divine being. I told myself "Look how many people Hitler convinced of his views...and he sure wasn't right!" I thought religion was a form of social control and the finest way of explaining unexplainable things because of the lack of scientific and technological abilities of today's societies. Look how a single Book, threat of damnation and embedding not only fear but guilt into an entire society one group by another. Makes sense, right? Looking at all the horrible things in this world how would a "Loving" God let this happen. For a time I shook off the entire idea and believed that we are here and that's it.
With that said...do you believe thing happen for a reason? I always did strangely, and after hanging out with my atheist friends a lot I came to disbelieve more and more that things did happen for a reason...until about 2 years ago.
I've had a interesting life...with many, many things that happened, life changing things that I always chalked up to coincidence...because they were at the time.
I read the Bible, the entire Bible and the majority of the Left Behind series and still did not believe in God at all, just entertained the idea.
Sometime between 2 years ago and a few months ago, between living with believers and in the tranquility of my single bedroom apartment, away from most of the negative influences that I used to possess, I began to piece all the life changing events together, and realized that it was and is logically impossible and the probability is so low that all of them sequentially worked so well in my favor that "something" was in control. Fate did "exist." Still didn't believe in God though and debated the "unbeliever's" side feverishly with those close to me that did believe. I hate to admit it, but I did ridicule them for their "ignorance" and "blind faith in something that could not be proven."
Logic will then point you to ask: "Well if fate does exist, something has to control it." That something is God. The reason I am alive and not in jail is God. The reason I went back to school and got a great education was the result of God's love and work in others close to me. The reason I was baptized in my home church with my Christian family present was because of the Holy Spirit that entered into me when I touched my aunt's shoulder as I walked down the aisle when my preacher said "If there is anyone here that is moved to come and be saved, let that person do so now." I had been going to church before that, that church...this church, yet did not truly believe. Why then? Because I sat down...looked over all the coincidences of my life and realized that while each one of those things in itself was coincidence, when added up, the summation of my coincidences logically points to someone that I can't see or hear being in control. It's bigger than the concept of "fate," it's God's Will, the work of the Holy Spirit, Jesus Christ's gift to us working in harmony of your own free will to do whatever it is you do, good or bad. Because I needed it, I needed God because I knew he was real...and when you know something is real and true, you are drawn to it.
God saved my earthly life and well being through every step and stumble, he saved the unfaithful sinner which I was...and while I am still a sinner, I am washed in the Blood of Christ.
This is my story, the reason a converted Atheist/Agnostic believes...I hope and pray you can relate to some degree. If you would like to continue this debate...and the moderators are okay with it, I would love to do so. If not, PM me, we'll talk. \\
-Brett