I don’t understand God…………?

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Read Psalm 73.

 

[PeterDona]

Thanks for sharing your struggle Angelwings

 

[niece0628]

My life is the most pathetic which I had began to realize over the years.


I got saved while I was just a child, annointed by the Holy Spirit at 10, received baptism at 15, but never got to live like a 'christ'ian. It really bothers why I can't have a steady prayer life, why I can't follow the basic and the greatest commandment 'Love God, Love your neighbour..' I'm annoyed at myself.


If I say I have trouble making friends in the secular world, then I should say I don't have friends at all in church. This makes a fellowship problem for me.


Many a time I question God too much saying, "Life is not fair. While many are suffering too much like the blind, deaf, dumb, cancer patients, etc , many are enjoying a great life with beauty, health, wealth, popularity, they seem to lack nothing. How can God say He created us all equally and fairly???? Though people suffer from illness, depression, mockery, poverty etc they still face other kinds of problems as well.......


Now again my question is...."Now why should both of these kinds of people receive the same heaven, the same joy, the same share????" How is it even fair???? The rich and the beautiful when they accept Jesus and live for Him, they go to the same heaven.........while the others who lived a life of hell on earth also receive the same heaven....oh wait.....even then they are judged saying, 'You were not content with the kindness that God had for you.." and so they might be thrown into hell or at the most get a lesser glorious place in heaven.......How do you think its fair??


Many people sin a great deal and they live happily and peacefully and have no worries and God blesses them richly but some people are addicted from birth that they have no control over, they cry every day seeking God's help and guidance to overcome addiction (that separate them from God), and yet receive none and are condemned by God.......to suffer every second of their life in depression, sadness, constant crying, worrying etc.......How come this is fair.......?


I don't understand God at all.............................though the Bible says He is good and fair................???

 

[niece0628]

God is good, but God is not fair.
In your initial post you asked why should both of these kind of people receive the same heaven? They do not receive the same heaven if you read Matthew 25: 31-46 it explains that more clearly. Please ask questions if you have questions. God does not send us to heal it is our choices to follow Christ or not follow Christ. That decides our destination.

I read your post and I too have felt the deep despair you are feeling. You can know that you are loved by the most amazing love you have ever experienced. Your Father in heaven is waiting for you and when we take and turn to him with that first steps to run to Him, He is sprinting to meet us. Please read these verses Luke 15:11-32. Do read this beautiful story but look at verse 20, So he got up and went to his father. "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. That is what our Father in Heaven does for us. He runs to us as soon as we take that first step to him.

You are loved by the creator of the heavens and the earth he created the universe. You were beautifully made Psalms 139:14.

You do need to know you are not alone in your struggles, you have more blessings than you can see right now but if you can grab hold of this one blessing you will realize you are not alone and there are so many people that want to love you. They are the ones that have replied to you and that are praying for you. God hears our prays and is there to help you.

I have many struggles, we all do but like yours mine were and are very similar. I have a difficult time making and keeping friends, There have been a lot of them that I tried to push them away because I did not think I was good enough or worthy to be there friend so I not even realizing it tried to push them away. Many friends have a lost that way. I attract people that are not the best for me. That will steer me in the wrong direction or take my focus off of my Savior Jesus Christ so I have had to end that daily contact. My thought that run through my head are not glorifying of my Father and are down right lies from the enemy to keep me from reaching out to my Father and His Son. That does cause a relationship problem with God. God is not gone though He is waiting for me to repent and come back to him. There are so many times during a day that my mind goes were it shouldn't and i have to repent and ask forgiveness. God Loves us everyone of us or he wouldn't have shown that greatest love. Sending His only Son to die for us. Everyone of us. You and I are not different. The thing that is different is we have and are listening to lies that the enemy says to us.

I was so deep in despair and no understanding of love that I had two pill bottles on my night stand ready to end it all and God sent me the most amazing gift I have ever received and showed me just how special I am. God met me that night in my room and He never left me, I have tried to go but God has something special for me and for everyone He created.

I know it is so hard to understand God at times and why things happen but I do know this He knows what we need when we need it. Isaiah 55:8 says "For my thoughts are not your thoughts and neither are your ways my ways." declares the Lord.

Your Heavenly Father and your Lord and Savior are there always.

You are loved, I pray you feel that love from your Father and His Son when you read this message.

 

[angelwings37]

God is good, but God is not fair.
In your initial post you asked why should both of these kind of people receive the same heaven? They do not receive the same heaven if you read Matthew 25: 31-46 it explains that more clearly. Please ask questions if you have questions. God does not send us to heal it is our choices to follow Christ or not follow Christ. That decides our destination.

I read your post and I too have felt the deep despair you are feeling. You can know that you are loved by the most amazing love you have ever experienced. Your Father in heaven is waiting for you and when we take and turn to him with that first steps to run to Him, He is sprinting to meet us. Please read these verses Luke 15:11-32. Do read this beautiful story but look at verse 20, So he got up and went to his father. "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. That is what our Father in Heaven does for us. He runs to us as soon as we take that first step to him.

You are loved by the creator of the heavens and the earth he created the universe. You were beautifully made Psalms 139:14.

You do need to know you are not alone in your struggles, you have more blessings than you can see right now but if you can grab hold of this one blessing you will realize you are not alone and there are so many people that want to love you. They are the ones that have replied to you and that are praying for you. God hears our prays and is there to help you.

I have many struggles, we all do but like yours mine were and are very similar. I have a difficult time making and keeping friends, There have been a lot of them that I tried to push them away because I did not think I was good enough or worthy to be there friend so I not even realizing it tried to push them away. Many friends have a lost that way. I attract people that are not the best for me. That will steer me in the wrong direction or take my focus off of my Savior Jesus Christ so I have had to end that daily contact. My thought that run through my head are not glorifying of my Father and are down right lies from the enemy to keep me from reaching out to my Father and His Son. That does cause a relationship problem with God. God is not gone though He is waiting for me to repent and come back to him. There are so many times during a day that my mind goes were it shouldn't and i have to repent and ask forgiveness. God Loves us everyone of us or he wouldn't have shown that greatest love. Sending His only Son to die for us. Everyone of us. You and I are not different. The thing that is different is we have and are listening to lies that the enemy says to us.

I was so deep in despair and no understanding of love that I had two pill bottles on my night stand ready to end it all and God sent me the most amazing gift I have ever received and showed me just how special I am. God met me that night in my room and He never left me, I have tried to go but God has something special for me and for everyone He created.

I know it is so hard to understand God at times and why things happen but I do know this He knows what we need when we need it. Isaiah 55:8 says "For my thoughts are not your thoughts and neither are your ways my ways." declares the Lord.

Your Heavenly Father and your Lord and Savior are there always.

You are loved, I pray you feel that love from your Father and His Son when you read this message.

Thanks neice0628. Guess I read your words right on time.

 

[Johnnz]

Thanks for the further information you have given. That now need unravelling to see if you can begin to adopt a more positive (for you) approach to what you have experienced.

John
NZ

 

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[Tomm]

Try reading this article by Grantley Morris. It should shed some light on your plight. It has definitely been a big help for me because I often struggle with the same anger at inequality as you.

http://www.net-burst.net/god/fair.htm

Life isn't fair -- Why some people encounter more adversity than others ? Why some people are born poor ? I often envy such people, they are so lucky !
Do you think rich people are lucky ? Definitely not.

Thank Heaven when you are given opportunities to learn and struggle, they are great gifts !!

 

[dysert]

Angelwings, I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time. You didn't tell us your age, but I'd bet that I'm quite a bit older than you. The only reason I bring this up is because it's taken me a lot of years to realize two things about life.

1 - Life isn't fair. It just isn't. Try to get used to it, but also try to not let that fact get you down. Rocks are hard. The ground is dry and parched. Tornadoes and hurricanes devastate. Bad things happen because this whole world is groaning, waiting for redemption. Do your best to accept that life isn't fair, and learn to deal with it when it affects you so severely.

2 - Don't compare yourself to others. This is a hard one, and it's one that I still struggle with. The fact is, though, that if we compare ourselves with others we'll inevitably pick people who we think are better off than we are. That will reinforce the "life isn't fair" concept and take you down. Just work on your own self. What can *you* do to improve your lot in life. What can *you* do to be a service to others. Don't look at others, it will only bring you down.

If you can master these two facets of life, I think you'll become much happier and content.

 

[Peace Keeper]

I don't know exactly what you are going through, but I know sometimes life can get very hard, I have battled with depression, wanting to give up, sadness from my disability, wondering if anyone would love and accept me for who I am, but those things do not matter, God loves me and cares for me even when others do not seem to show it. I know it is hard to hear that sometimes, but God is faithful, He is there for you, all we have to do is look to Him and trust Him, to praise Him even in our hardships knowing God is there and He will help lead us and strengthen us, we cannot do it ourselves. I have tried many times to do it with my own "strength" but I am very weak and I fail every time, but when I focus on His strength, His goodness, etc. He helps me through. Start reading the Bible more and singing praises and just taking time aside to spend time with Him, He longs for us to look to Him to have a close relationship with Him, and we do that by reading how to in the Bible and looking to Him to give us the strength and wisdom to follow through.

I have seen also that people have been mistreating you from what you have said in another comment, I wanted to show you a video that might help encourage you, it helped me because sometimes it is hard to have rejection by those we think should love us, but God wants to take us in and be there for us and to take care of us, we just need to trust Him.

https://www.facebook.com/