I cry out with no reply!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fallupchik]

I don't feel anything...the other day i took many pills trying to numb myself from any pain that will come, it diidn't work....
I don't want to be here, doing this, i want someone to know that i'm not okay and i'm not doing good right now, but noone cares no one cares.......
I know God cares...but Honestly right now, He's not helping no one is and i knw that sounds bad, like i doubt God, which i don't, but............................

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

Well you came to the right place... people here care!

 

[goldenviolet]

can you write it down and tell parents? how about a crisis line? sweetheart reach out to someone. it may be a little tough, but after, it's comforting and your feelings can mend. crisis numbers are inside front of every phone book. you can also get numbers from school and hospital. God bless you hun.

 

[devotee]

You neeed to write. Remember, Jesus spent 40 days and nights in the wilderness, he also "disappeared" for about 10 years, some say to study and learn more about his Father, some say he went to the desert again. You are in the wilderness, it is a place of discovery, Write, draw and create as you can to express yourself. Make contact with a counselor if you can.

What I found was that others can't be there the way I need them to be, they have their own journeys. I learnt to start speaking their languages, how they consider showing care. I learnt more about mself and how I want to be cared for, and started caring for myself.

I used SSRIs for one year, as a crutch, just to take a break from my head. I studied psychology and spiritual teachings that showed me how I could re-wriire my thought patterns. I go into the wilderness now voluntarily, I explore...I still feel that no one understands me, including my partner, but I communicate better with others, and I care about myself so much more.

The first step is getting those thoughts and feeelings out, even if it is just for yourself by way of arts and writing. pm me anytime.

 

[Soulwings]

Fallupchik.

Im glad you came on here. We are all here to support one another.

What thoughts were running through your mind when you took the pills? Did you want to die, or just numb the pain, or harm yourself? Things will get better. I am and have been at the place you are, feeling totally empty, drained dry by life. People do care about you though, hun. They DO. Even though you dont feel it right now, youve got to try and believe that. And God does too. Youre His princess and He loves you SOOOO much.

I agree with Dee. Let someone other than us folks online know that you arent okay. It will be hard, but it will be worth it. That first step is the most important, and after you step out on your own, other people can catch you and support you from then on.

God bless, and take care of yourself. PM/email/IM me if you EVER need someone to talk to/pray with/vent to.

 

[Mayflower1]

We care and there are others out there who care also. God cares for you so much. He sees you as His precious child if you trusted in Him. God is there in the good times, the grey times, and everything in between. I will pray for you and I hope things look up for you soon. Lily00

 

[s-one]

Hello! Yes we do care!!! Please seek care from your family or call 911. Please get help phsyically. We care, God cares and the ones helping you care.

 

[KristiLee]

If you have an opportunity to listen to this song, it helped me during a really hard time. You are in my prayers and if you need anything know that I'm here for you.


BARLOW GIRL

"Never Alone"

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

 

[Amin]

Hi,I guess my first question would be; what has you feeling the way you do? You're right about God, He does care. I'm sure there are people here that care also. God wants His children to care for each other also, i believe that . You're right in saying God feels distant sometimes. I'm not sure why, but it happens to a lot of His children. Even in knowing God is there, we need to feel the love and care of other people also. I believe God made us that way. What did He do while He was here. He took care of people, feed them , healed them, in fact it says He did so many things that they would never fit
into one book. Have you tried reaching out to people at church? What about just one person you can call, friend? I care, and can sense from your post that you're really in some discomfort. Take it from someone whose been there, numbing yourself isn't the answer. That's like leaving town. You're in a different place for awhile, but when you come back,,
it's the same old town. I even left town once, came back, and there was everything staring
me right in the face. Find someone you can talk to and confide in. I think in knowing someone is there, and not judging would be a big help. I know you said he feels distant, but ask God to send someone your way. I will too.
Amin. short for the musical note~~A-minor.

I don't feel anything...the other day i took many pills trying to numb myself from any pain that will come, it diidn't work....
I don't want to be here, doing this, i want someone to know that i'm not okay and i'm not doing good right now, but noone cares no one cares.......
I know God cares...but Honestly right now, He's not helping no one is and i knw that sounds bad, like i doubt God, which i don't, but............................

 

[KristiLee]

I believe that God distances Himself from us to help us grow. He wants us to be stable and strong and trust in His name. To be in His presence and enjoy His company is wonderful and knowing it will come again can make this time easier for you. Be sure to pray even though you don't feel or hear Him, He is listening. Be sure to get in the Word, He can talk to you through it. Rebuke Satan as he tries to make you distance yourself from God. Satan has to ask permission to put struggles in our lives and God doesn't allow anything we can't bear, in fact He uses them to teach us things, shaping us to be more like Him. Trust in His Word and His love. Talking it out, whether it be here on this forum, with a friend you feel comfortable with, your pastor, family, or even writing out your feelings in a journal can really help - and it is very important in order to chew up your thoughts, rationalizing the insecurities and putting a stop to the exaggerated emotions. What you are experiencing is very real and not something to be brushed aside but dealt with and it is when you deal with it in a manner that Jesus would that you become more like Him.

When I was little I had this FAVORITE dress, I loved to wear it and did as often as I could. Then it came time for me to grow and I had to choose to change into different clothes. Same with life. We get comfortable in where God has taken us, and then it comes time we have to choose to get familiar with new experiences and even uncomfortable and scary things - because we're growing. Look at this as an opportunity not as something to dread. God is teaching you something, open your eyes and find out what it is, and no matter what it is, it will be great when you open yourself up to it.

You are in my prayers. God bless you for expressing your real feelings, God wants us to be transparent and want Him.
In Christ's love,
Kristi

 

[Annoula]

hello! how are you doing????

 

[Arkanin]

I don't feel anything...the other day i took many pills trying to numb myself from any pain that will come, it diidn't work....
I don't want to be here, doing this, i want someone to know that i'm not okay and i'm not doing good right now, but noone cares no one cares.......
I know God cares...but Honestly right now, He's not helping no one is and i knw that sounds bad, like i doubt God, which i don't, but............................

I do not have formal psychological training, I'm just perceptive and very experienced dealing with people who have these kinds of problems due to old work. Here is what I would say:

I am fairly sure that what you are doing is what doctors think about as self-medicating. You're basically tranquiliziing yourself because your probllems are so bad that you don't want to think about them.

My common sense would tell me the problem is that this necessarily going to make them worse. Because you're not dealing with them, and problems that go undealt with tend to get worse, your problems are going to tend to get worse while you are tranquilizing yourself, and in turn, you would then want to tranquilize yourself more.

Again, I have no formal training, but it does seem like common sense that this could be what psychologists think of as a vicious cycle -- bad things happen, and then the response leads to more of the bad thing which leads to a stronger response of the same thing, and the bad things just get worse (ack).

My conclusion then would be that you should see someone who is a professional because if you keep trying to numb yourself to your problems, they will just get worse. If you are not able to afford to see a psychologist, that's OK. I suggest you try to find the MHMR and there are programs that can help you if you have problems and lack money.

 

[Catherineanne]

I don't feel anything...the other day i took many pills trying to numb myself from any pain that will come, it diidn't work....
I don't want to be here, doing this, i want someone to know that i'm not okay and i'm not doing good right now, but noone cares no one cares.......
I know God cares...but Honestly right now, He's not helping no one is and i knw that sounds bad, like i doubt God, which i don't, but............................

Depression cuts you off from other people at the very moment when you need them most. If it is any help at all, you are not alone. Others have walked through the Valley of the Shadow, as you are doing. They can walk alongside you for a time, or just sit with you and listen, if that is what you need.

Your pain is overwhelming at the moment; I can see that clearly from what you say. Taking pills is not the answer, and I think you know that. Pain is a terrible thing, but if you can turn this round to see it as a gift from God, which tells you that you are still alive, still part of humanity, still belonging with others of us who also feel great pain, perhaps it will become more bearable. Our Lord suffered great pain in the Garden of Gethsemane. At present you are alongside him in his suffering, as he is alongside you in yours. If you can bear to do so, offer your pain as a gift to God. If you can see pain as a way of reconnecting with people, when depression has cut you off from them, then it might help you to find your way through the next minutes and hours.

You are in this dark place for a reason. I do not know what it is, but I know that it is there. Take it one minute at a time, and if that is too hard, take it just one second at a time; just as far as your next breath, and then your next. God will not leave you; you will find him in the moment of peace between one breath and another.

 

[ArmouredSaint]

fallupchick,I care too. You know it gets better if you hold close to Christ and give it up. I haven't been here for a few weeks. Life got crazy and I went nuts awhile. I felt lost. Hey,it does improve!

 

[inHisgripkim]

I don't feel anything...the other day i took many pills trying to numb myself from any pain that will come, it diidn't work....
I don't want to be here, doing this, i want someone to know that i'm not okay and i'm not doing good right now, but noone cares no one cares.......
I know God cares...but Honestly right now, He's not helping no one is and i knw that sounds bad, like i doubt God, which i don't, but............................

Hi there lovely lady:

You are a child of God. God made you. God doesn't make mistakes. You are a masterpiece of God. You are, therefore, awesome and beautiful. You are a masterpiece.

You know what? I feel lonely and like nobody cares at times too. I'm 50 years old and I have battled those kind of feelings throughout my life. Don't let my age scare you. My heart is as young as you are, if not younger.

I can't tell you exactly what I did to come out of the slumps. Each time, I do something different.

As old as I am, I still jog. I listen to praise and worship on my headphones and run. I'm out around people, so I'm not alone but I'm communing with God as I jog.

I listen to my praise and worship music at home when I'm alone. Music always makes me feel good. Sometimes I turn on my dance music and dance around the house.

One thing I have learned is that feeling alone is a state of mind. Feeling that nobody cares is a state of mind. It's not truth. Boredom is a state of mind. We have choice about how we feel and think that's why I refer to the expression "state of mind."

Press on and do something you enjoy. Write in your blog about your feelings, but then right in your blog what you can do to feel better. Be careful to choose things that are healthy that make you feel better. Don't choose unhealthy behavior to make yourself feel better. If we choose unhealthy things, we end up with addictions and make a bad situation worse.

You lovely lady are not alone and people do care. I care. Those of us on this forum care. You care. Jesus cares. Those of us on this forum love you unconditionally. Though we have not met you, we still love you because God made you. You are a child of God. That's beautiful. God is perfect and he made you perfect in His eyes. You are his masterpiece. You are awesome. Don't ever forget that.

In the meantime, I am here on the forum and the rest of us too. Keep on posting. We'll talk back. PM us too. We'll talk back. You are not alone.

Blessings to you always,
Inhisgripkim

 

[full_of_faith]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Can you call a trusted friend, parents or another relative?

If not, there are crisis numbers in the phone book that you can call.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way and I hope that things turn around again for you soon.

 

[fallupchik]

hi everyone thanks for your replys....here's the thing, Friday i was going to talk to one of my best freinds about it, but when the time came, i couldn't. I couldn't get it out of me. And i realized that it's becasue i guess i feel like other people have their own problems and i'm dealing with mine, so i feel that they won't know how to fix or help me with my problemms, b/c they're my problems and not someone elses..

 

[goldenviolet]

honey, we are meant to bear one another's burdens. it blesses us in many ways to reach out when we are needing support ourselves. if you give back what is given to you, then support is happening. if you don't, then it is possible to drain more needy people. at times we are all needy. so, if you care while you reach out, you'll know. you need to reach out. you are within God's will when you need ministered to.
are you feeling better? did you talk to parents, counselor, doc, etc? anyone? any staff can get you crisis numbers too. they are in front of any phone book.
hun, you are valuable. don't harm yourself.