I can't stop!

[ninetails390]

Uhg...Over the summer I self-injured quite a bit, but then I stopped for a while and cheered up... Now I'm gettng depressed again, and I keep hurting myself...I have cuts, scatches and puncture markas all over my arms, and if I try to stop cutting myself, then I end up doing other stuff that won't leave such obvious marks.... I use hot water to burn myself, and a couple of times I even tried outting Vicks VapoRub medicine in my eye. (That stuff hurts, and it is not meant to go in eyes...!) I just can't stop myself! I don't know what to do...

 

[jesus died for ME!]

i know what you mean i did the same thing over the summer and then stopped cold turkey after promising a friend of mine too. then in nov. i stared again only this time i was cutting deeper and it didn`t matter where i was i would still find a way to cut myself. but then i found this new thing, you used a rubber and snap yourself and you don`t get a thin one you get a thick one and it hurt. but that`s just what worked for me.

 

[Lioness816]

Uhg...Over the summer I self-injured quite a bit, but then I stopped for a while and cheered up... Now I'm gettng depressed again, and I keep hurting myself...I have cuts, scatches and puncture markas all over my arms, and if I try to stop cutting myself, then I end up doing other stuff that won't leave such obvious marks.... I use hot water to burn myself, and a couple of times I even tried outting Vicks VapoRub medicine in my eye. (That stuff hurts, and it is not meant to go in eyes...!) I just can't stop myself! I don't know what to do...

Have you talked to an adult about this? There are reasons you are doing it and why you are unable to stop. My 16 yrs old sister was doing it last year (she lives with me) and went to her guidance counselor at school. I did things to hurt myself when I was your age. I hit things mostly (not people). There is help out there, you need to ask for it. I am praying for you .
~God Bless

 

[ninetails390]

Thank you guys so much!

I have talked to my mom about it in the past, but she always overreacts and ends up really stressing me out by worrying over me so much, which makes it worse, so I haven't told her about my more recent cuts and such... It was a lot more helpful for me to talk to my English teacher... she was really helpful about it.
That rubber band thing sounds like a good idea! I'll try it! Erm...Well, I'll try it on th wrist I haven't mutilated so bad that it would practically be self injury in-and0of itself to snap a rubber band on it... but anyways, yeah, I'll try that! Thanks!

 

[HopelessHuman9579]

i've done some puncture and burned a few times....only minor though cause i have trouble with pain and stuff....but i use rubber bands now.....though i'll be praying for you that maybe you can stop and God will help you somehow Good luck

 

[ninetails390]

Thank you very much for your prayers, Hopeless...I'll pray for you, too. (I guess now ya' know why I was so excited about that rubber band I've got in the CB, huh?)

 

[Seeking the Truth]

Hi ninetails I will be praying for you I know it is hard to stop injuring yourself. Some people do it because it becomes an addiction and others do it to temporary rid the pain that is placed in their hearts. I use to injure myself because I was hurting so much inside that I wanted to kill myself. I felt so hurt and so I hated myself so much that I hurt myself. I have recovered. Instead of cutting yourself try hitting a pillow or listen to music. Take a deep breath and pray I know it isn't easy but you need to keep yourself busy and fight the temptation by doing other things. I hope this helps, I will be praying for you

 

[ninetails390]

Thank you, Truth! I appreciate your help! (And thanks for replying! There's been over 50 page veiws, and only, like, 3-4 replies! I feel so...invisible!)

 

[Seeking the Truth]

Thank you, Truth! I appreciate your help! (And thanks for replying! There's been over 50 page veiws, and only, like, 3-4 replies! I feel so...invisible!)

Your welcome. I feel invisible sometimes too but guess what... there's hope because we have the ultimate friend in christ People may not know how to reply to your topic. Don't worry, I am sure the Lord is working in your heart. He knows our needs and desires. He will see you through this. Then you will be able to help others who face this problem. I love you

 

[equal-minded]

seeking the truth's music idea is my way of releiving stress... when i'm down i just turn on the radio to a good Christian station, pop in a cd with some good music, or just play a video game... do your favorite thing (as long as it doesn't involve self injury) and it helps a lot you have my prayers

 

[NINGirl]

Hey Ninetails!

I spoke to you briefly yesterday and found out about your problem. I am so glad you decided to make a thread about it, so now people from everywhere can read and help you.

Before anything, I too am going to pray for you. I may not know you, but your health and overall situation means alot to me. Your my sister in Christ!

I've been there too, as I've told you. And I haven't cut in 6 months because of one main reason. Whenever I get the "urge" (whether it be an addiction now, or just a temporary release of pain, I do not know) I just lean down and pray. I sometimes spend hours just leaning down and praying my heart out to the Lord. I pray until the urge leaves me. I can only speak for myself, but this helped me alot. I've tried the rubber band technique, but that didn't seem to help. I tried punching things, but that was just another form of hurting myself because I always ended up with bruises. It seems the only thing that truly works is the healing power of God. So give that a try, my friend. And stay strong in Christ.

 

[ninetails390]

Thanks NIN and Equal... Yes NIN, praying does help a lot... I just have to get control of myself enough to pray instead of shreading myself... I'll work on that. Thank you!

 

[jelly_bean]

Tails you will be in my prayers. you know if you ever need to vent you can do it to me. try to keep your chin up-- you're so cool and so much FUN! God bless, Jelly

 

[ninetails390]

Ok, thanks Jelly! It's good to have friends to vent to.

 

[jelly_bean]

yeah I'm good at listening to people who are mad/upset. not gonna go into it tho. keep your spirit up!!

 

[Debbi]

I wish I could help and say something really encouraging but I still burn myself. I did today and can't promise I will stop. I haven't actually cut though in 8 months though. I work in a restuarant and burning is too easy to do and get away with. I know that Jesus can help us though.

 

[ninetails390]

Thanks, Debbi. Good luck to you, too. I'll be praying for you. I appreciate your concern and prayers.

 

[rocklife]

Dear children of Christ, I hope and pray God answers your prayers as you continue to seek Him and follow our Lord and Savior Jesus.

I hope you continue to grow in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus, and that you will choose life. Sin only brings death, and Jesus has good things He commands us to do with our lives, and you are stealing away your life from Him as you continue in sin. Torturing and abusing the body the Lord has given you is sin also. Confess your sins to God and ask His forgiveness, ask Him to change you and then follow Jesus, learn Jesus more and more. He can change you, I used to be a big mess of hatred and sin, and God changed me. I know He wants to do that for all (the bible says He wishes all would repent).

As we love God and turn to Him in truth and wholehearted love, He will help you. Keep close to Jesus, find ways to learn the bible, especially New Testament, it talks much about suffering, you can listen to the Bible on walkmen with tapes, or get the Picture bible by Iva Hoth, a great comic book bible with great artwork, and of course rely on the Holy Spirit of Jesus. Doing things for others for Jesus' sake and with God's Power will help you overcome sin strongholds. I was once an adulterer, a liar, a drug addict, but by the power of Jesus, I am now an evangelist, even in great weakness, with no income, no earthly power, not much material possessions to my name, only a heart for God.

God can save you from sin and from the lusts of the flesh, ask Him and cling to Jesus, learn Jesus' ways in the New Testament and lean on Jesus in prayer and obedience and love. God can do all things, He made the sun, He raises the dead, He is awesome, Holy and worthy of all honor, He promises to help and be with you as you turn to Him in truth and love by the blood of our Savior Jesus.

Stop loving sin and instead, ask God to help you see sin as He does, as evil that brings only death.

Lord Jesus, please help these dear people asking for help. Help them turn from sin and turn to you wholeheartedly. Please forgive our sins, all of us at one time have loved sin, except You Lord Jesus, thank you for changing us as we ask you for help, as we repent, turn from sin, and turn to You. Thank you for hearing our prayers. Help any one here asking for help to get help from you, to not seek man's help, but the help of the Father. Help us love YOu in truth and spirit wholeheartedly. Please help us be more obedient and open our eyes to see what You want. Help us love holiness and purity and righteousness. Help us love each other. Thank you Lord for helping and changing so many already. Thank you for hearing my prayers. Thank you for Your love and obedience, suffering death on a cross for our sins. Thank you for Your comforting words in the Bible, help more of us seek Your ways and give Your children a love and reverence for the Bible. Help us to evangelize more and not be so focused on ourselves, but rather to love our neighbors and be concerned about the reality of the punishment of sins the bible speaks of. Thank you again Lord Jesus for loving us. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.

 

[ninetails390]

Thank you so much, Rocklife. I do have to turn to God, and sometimes I forget that or think it's too hard. I know it makes him sad when I hurt myself, and I keep appologising over and over...and then losing control again. I'll keep trusting him, though, and then I know it'll get better.

 

[Debbi]

Sorry but i'm not hurting anybody but myself and burning is not that big of a deal. I didn't view it as a sin but a way of relieving stress. Sorry, ninetails it is your threads, I'll back off since I'm not helping much. Rocklife, are you implying that cutters can't be good christians because they hurt so bad on the inside and have trouble expressing the pain in words so they self harm? I'm one that too many people walked out on me and I have trouble trusting anybody. So, that makes me bad because somewhere along the way I was suppose to instantly know to trust God and be able to tell him that I'm hurting. In normal people, love and trust was supposedly learned from loving homes and good parents and family. I've been around way too much abuse and pain and love or trust, I am trying to learn from my church family and God but it still is a slow process. Where do christians just asume that salvation just instantly fixes a totally screwed up life and we suddenly have a really wonderful relationship with God?