I can't seem to be

[dabro]

What God wants me to be. Excuse after excuse why I take more meds than prescribed for depression that never seems to want to go away. I feel like crud in the morning and after a few hours I saw screw it and dose my Gabapentin more than I should just to escape. I went to church this past Sunday and the preacher touched on this. Why do you call me Lord and not do as I say? It really hurt because I'm making excuses even tho I am in a lot of pain there are other ways to deal with it than drug abuse. So here I am feeling guilty for something I knew I shouldn't of done.

 

[SarahsKnight]

It must be hard for you right, now, sir. But it does seem as though you are relying too much on the medication to make the pain of depression go away, if you are takin gmore than prescribed. That will never help. I would recommend that you try speaking with God Himself about this, how you are feeling, and be honest about your mistakes. He wil heal you in due time, I am sure of it. At the same time, though, I believe it would be practical for you to seek some kind of counseling for this problem, as I think it could definitely be becoming an addiction that you absolutely do not want. Also, don't just quit the medication cold turkey, as that could have severe physical and mental risks as well, so instead speak with the doctor who prescribed this too you in the first place, and be honst with him/her about how you've been overdosing. Try to find the right practical solution (I believe medication of some fom CAN help), but remember that ultimately the Lord our God is the one to lean on. Just don't give up.

I will pray for you, sir. It will be a tough, uphill battle, unfortunately, but He will help you win. Remember He loves you, so don't try to focus too much on the guilt you may be feeling.

 

[Gods warrior 1]

Heavenly Father I pray for your son. You love him so very very much. Help him to know he is not condemned there is NO Condemnation now for him because he is in you. Help him to forgive himself. None of us are perfect we all make mistakes we need Jesus 24/7. Praying for you.

Please don't stop taking your medication dosage though you might need a different one or you might need to be taking more. Please see your doctor though about this and tell them how you are feeling. Pm me anytime I am here for you as well as everyone else on this site. Don't give up. Praying for you. God loves you

 

[Savedd]

Don't worry Jesus won't forsake you, he will never let go of you

 

[Gods warrior 1]

Praying for you my brother and son of the most High God. God loves you