I can't do it anymore

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[Winter]

You have been through too much.

I am praying for you. And I will keep you in my prayers.

 

[miss-a]

Last night in Bible study the teacher said, based on Isaiah 49:16, that when we are in the grip of fear we must remember we are in something much tighter. We are in God's hands. "See, I have engraved you on the palm of my hands." She went on to say that the word engraved indicates when you grip something so tightly that it leaves a mark on you palms.

I don't have the exact same situation as you, but I do write in this moment from the same emotion. My life is humanly impossible right now. I have to trust that this means God's got it under control even though it feels like chaos. I think He spoke to my heart today when I was questioning my faith because I feel so terrible. I think He told me that I have faith, I just don't feel my faith right now. And I don't. Or at least, if I do, it doesn't feel the way I want it to. So can we make a deal to pray that Scripture over one another, even if we don't feel its impact right now? I pray we will feel it soon.

In fact let's pray it for everyone on the forum. Sometimes I think the enemy hits me with these heavy emotions and fears to keep me from praying for others like me.

Praying for you, A

 

[Dave73]

Man I'm sorry to hear about all your troubles. You seem like a really nice guy and I hate to hear all this you are going through ... I'm praying for you.

I really don't know what to say ... all I know that in my life I've endured some valleys, some that I didn't think I would survive but WHEN I've gone through those bad times AND TRUSTED in the Lord those I ALWAYS came out of it so much stronger.

I know (boy do I know) trusting the Lord during the bad times it's the hardest thing to do. You feel so unworthy and feel like God is giving you what you deserve. But we serve a God that holds the entire universe in place and yet cares so much for you that He knows the number of hairs on your head.

I'm praying for you and your family right now.

 

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[miss-a]

There's no condemnation for us, brother. We're in Christ. Thinking you're a bad example is condemnation from the enemy. I'm saying this as much for me as you. I've been struggling with the same type of thoughts today. I was only twenty minutes ago walking across a parking lot thinking, "I'm sorry, Lord. I can't do the rest of it. I've managed to stay out of hell, but that's all I can manage." I've been attributing it to the fact that I had to start taking care of myself, doing everything I could to avoid disaster, at age four. It messed me up, and as much as I want to be one of those great examples of godliness. stepping out, and finding "success" in this life, I can't make it happen. I've done everything I know how to. I'm saved. I'm a nice person. But the life I think my unsaved friends and aquaintences need to see, the good job, the successful ministry, the filled-with-the-Spirit, on-fire, happy Christian, I can't find her anymore. I can only trust that God knows where she is and will lead me to her in His time. And meanwhile, He'll take care of my unsaved friends and understand that I can't spend as much time with them as I should, because I often don't have the energy to fake it. They've seen glimpses of that woman I can't find and I don't have the heart to tell them I've lost her.

But here on this forum you don't have to fake it. You're allowed to be yourself. The Lord understands us, friend, and He's still our anchor. We're looking at ourselves in condemnation, but He is looking at us with compassion.

Praying for you, A

 

[Dave73]

We're looking at ourselves in condemnation, but He is looking at us with compassion.

That was perfectly put ... and so true. If we were judged on our works we would all be on the road to Hell. You can't beat yourself up over the past ... we all have one (unfortunately).

 

[nhisname]

I've learned to live day by day. I'm like you I can pretty much handle everything but the mental stress. I think satan plays a big part in this. It's not so much what happens to us but how we are able to handle it. My husband and I own a business and this year has been a total disaster. Lay offs, trying to pay taxes and meet payroll has been really a challenge. We haven't had a paycheck for our selves in 5 mos. Even though life has been tough my walk with the Lord has never been sweeter. Get together with your wife tell her how much she means to you that nothing matters but her and the family. In these bad times families have to pull together in order to make it. Satans job is to divide and destroy families. I'll be praying for you. God Bless

 

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[BlessEwe]

As someone else said in this thread living in the day is really the only way to survive at times, sometimes moment to moment. Perhaps there may be a way for both you and your wife to see a marriage counselor. There are tools that can be used through these different stressful events. The communication breakdown adds more stress. There are also daily readings to start your day on the left of the page in the reading corner >>>>
Christian Recovery Social Network Discussion Forums - Alcohol and Drug Addiction Help/Support

I do feel these readings are not just for addicts but in all struggles we face daily.

Perhaps join a online bible study, or spend as much time in the word as possible.

Focusing on Christ 100% keeps our focus on Him and not on our problems. This in turn gives us the strength, guidance, and patience.

Our character defects will show up, and at times we will show our humanness but keeping Christ 1st all things will fall into place.

A big knock on the head for me in my own personal recovery is when I start to feel really anxious or angry. I reevaluate and come to find every time, I am trying to control, or manipulate things to work better for me. Then its time to release control back to God.

Here is a prayer for you:

 

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[BlessEwe]

I'm really not looking forward to when she starts menopause with the mood shifts I'm told I can expect. Hoo boy.

That made me laugh haaa I am not sure how old she is, but maybe she is starting now. I did at 43, so worth it though. Not to fun for the husbands though. Is there a men's bible study you can join once a week for yourself?

 

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[Criada]

I'm so sorry you have had such a tough time, brother
Things sound a little better now... I am praying for you and your wife.
God bless you

 

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[Criada]

That's sad... my kids all tell me I'm crazy, but they aren't nasty about it.. they just laugh when I loose track of things.
I hope your wife can recover from that and realise that she's a valued and unique child of God.

 

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