That's about the best place to start this.
Over the past two days i've thought out, spoken out, and written out, my thoughts. The other day I posted that I had found out that he had lied about a woman he had an affair with, and that got me started to think, I just cant do this any more.
So. We went for our drive, and I read my thoughts out. He got very defensive of course; he yelled, of course; he threatened, of course; I screamed, of course. But I kept my decision. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. Then we came home, and he went downstairs and packed his things.
Then he came up and told the kids he was leaving. He told them I had asked him to leave. He told them that he had made some very bad decisions in the past, and those decisions dishonored me, and our family.
He told them he had cheated on me. He did not name names, or go into that kind of specifics, but he confessed his wrongdoing.
I kid you not, he stood there, and in actual humility and brokenness, he confessed to his family that he had betrayed his family. He wept, probably harder than I have ever seen him cry before. I saw true and heartfelt remorse tonight.
He stood and wept with each of our children, for the immense hurt he has caused each of them in their ways. He apologized and begged forgiveness from our sons for being a poor example of a man and husband. He wept bitterly with our daughter, for failing as a father to her, for being the poorest example of how a husband should conduct himself. He stood in front of me and wept even harder, and apologized for betraying me and our marriage. He said, the time for lying is over. He is planning to go to his parents, and his sister, and tell them as well. That's going to be very hard, my heart breaks for how he's going to place himself at their feet and at their mercy. He's making himself accountable to their disappointment and chastisement.
He is breaking himself of all that pride, and I'm absolutely stunned. It won't change the fact that I can't live with him beside me, because it causes me too much hurt. But I can pray even harder now for his restoration. Because now I think I can see it's going to be even more possible.
Another amazing night in MPs household.
Over the past two days i've thought out, spoken out, and written out, my thoughts. The other day I posted that I had found out that he had lied about a woman he had an affair with, and that got me started to think, I just cant do this any more.
So. We went for our drive, and I read my thoughts out. He got very defensive of course; he yelled, of course; he threatened, of course; I screamed, of course. But I kept my decision. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. Then we came home, and he went downstairs and packed his things.
Then he came up and told the kids he was leaving. He told them I had asked him to leave. He told them that he had made some very bad decisions in the past, and those decisions dishonored me, and our family.
He told them he had cheated on me. He did not name names, or go into that kind of specifics, but he confessed his wrongdoing.
I kid you not, he stood there, and in actual humility and brokenness, he confessed to his family that he had betrayed his family. He wept, probably harder than I have ever seen him cry before. I saw true and heartfelt remorse tonight.
He stood and wept with each of our children, for the immense hurt he has caused each of them in their ways. He apologized and begged forgiveness from our sons for being a poor example of a man and husband. He wept bitterly with our daughter, for failing as a father to her, for being the poorest example of how a husband should conduct himself. He stood in front of me and wept even harder, and apologized for betraying me and our marriage. He said, the time for lying is over. He is planning to go to his parents, and his sister, and tell them as well. That's going to be very hard, my heart breaks for how he's going to place himself at their feet and at their mercy. He's making himself accountable to their disappointment and chastisement.
He is breaking himself of all that pride, and I'm absolutely stunned. It won't change the fact that I can't live with him beside me, because it causes me too much hurt. But I can pray even harder now for his restoration. Because now I think I can see it's going to be even more possible.
Another amazing night in MPs household.
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