i am not coping at all

[Cutie_girl]

hi people
i have had a really stress full week my best friend from church dont want anything to do with me anymore cos i cut my self. someone who i used to be friends with when i was going to school said that i am full of the devil and that god will never love me cos i cut my self and someone else i go to school turned around to me the other day and syared saying all this mean stuff to me for no reson at all. that night i ended up in hospital cos i was really suicidal my mu found out so she took me to hospital and before that i cut my self and i didnt evan feel it i cut me self quite bad as well that really scared me. i stared in a mental hospital that night i got everything sharp taken off me so i couled not cut my self i really really needed to cut but i coul;dent that was so hard toget through that. things wee ok for a few days after that but then one of my friends stared been mean to me for no reason now all i want to do is just kill my self i dont no what to do i dont want to tell my mum cos she will take me to hospital again i am so scared and hurt inside i dont no what to do i feel like going to sleep and not waking up for about 10 years i so cant cope with life anymore.

 

[luv4godremains]

hunni, you need to find some help, being suicidal is NOT an option, it isn't a way out, it's not an escape, there are lots of people who care about you a LOT, trust me, I have haad a few friends commit suicide, and the damage it did, it was more than they could possibly have imagined! I know it's gonna be hard, but you need to talk to your mum, a doctor, or school councellor. it has to be done in your own time, but you need someone to talk to who you can trust!

no matter what people say, God will never abandon you, he will never turn his back on you, not even if you turn your back on him. he loves you no matter what, and it kills him to see you like this, and to see what people are saying to you. you are NOT of the devil, it is a fight against him that you are in, you are fighting against the temptations he is putting in your ehart and you can get through this and deal with it, but it will take time! don't listen to people when they tell you you're unlovable by God or from the devil, I mean, do you think the rest of us here are? if not, then how can you be just because you cut? I mean, surely it would make us too, right?!

The other thing is, do you know WHY you cut? the root cause? cos that's what you need to know to be able to stop hun, that's what you have to deal with, the cutting is just a symptom of the pain, and whilst it's good to stop, it won't do you as a person, how you feel any good if you don't deal with the reasons!

I'm here if ya need to chat, just pm me, I'm always willing to chat and pray with you, and I'll be praying for you anyway as long as it's ok with you!?

God bless hun
*hugs*
xXx

 

[FireOfGod]

hi people
i have had a really stress full week my best friend from church dont want anything to do with me anymore cos i cut my self. someone who i used to be friends with when i was going to school said that i am full of the devil and that god will never love me cos i cut my self and someone else i go to school turned around to me the other day and syared saying all this mean stuff to me for no reson at all. that night i ended up in hospital cos i was really suicidal my mu found out so she took me to hospital and before that i cut my self and i didnt evan feel it i cut me self quite bad as well that really scared me. i stared in a mental hospital that night i got everything sharp taken off me so i couled not cut my self i really really needed to cut but i coul;dent that was so hard toget through that. things wee ok for a few days after that but then one of my friends stared been mean to me for no reason now all i want to do is just kill my self i dont no what to do i dont want to tell my mum cos she will take me to hospital again i am so scared and hurt inside i dont no what to do i feel like going to sleep and not waking up for about 10 years i so cant cope with life anymore.

This is exactl what the Holy Spirit is for. He helps you, he guides you, he comforts you, he gives you counsel, etc. This is also what Jesus is for. He is you brother, your best friend, and that person that you can just tell everything to because you know you can trust him, and he can help you. This is also what God is for. He is your Father. He sees and feels your pain and wants more than anything in the world to bind up the wounds (physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally) and make the scars disappear forever. Best thing is, he can.

What your friends say mean nothing to you. Everything they say are all lies, for all we know. But one thing you can trust, is your best friend and what He says. He only says that you are beautiful, that you don't deserve second best, that you are perfect in His eyes, despite anything natural that you can see, that you are all together lovely, that you don't deserve pain, that you are his everything, that he loves you more than anything you could ever even think or imagine. He is there, and if you listen closely, he is constantly whispering these things in your ear. Listen right now, and I bet you'll hear something like, "I love you. I love you. I love you. You mean everything to Me". And it is the best thing you'll ever hear in your life!

Whenever you think about cutting yourself, worship instead. Replace this pain with joy and peace in the Holy Spirit. Ask God to remove all pain, and take every addiction and self-inflicting spirit away from you.

Hope this helps.

 

[daughteroftheking1983]

oh sweetie thats awful. You have so much to deal with and it's just not fair!! Know that God has said that He will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13v5) It sounds like you really need someone to talk to. I have been going to Christian counselling for a few months now and it is really helping-it sounds like it might be good for you too. PM me if you need to talk. x

 

[Deamiter]

Community is a big part of recovery from SI, but there's no doubt that it can also tear us down! I remember when I was cutting, a lot of my friends would just get fed up with it and say stuff like that. And there's ALWAYS mean people just waiting to set you off!

The key to dealing with it, in my experience at least, is to find some people that you can trust and who you can spend time with. A good personal friend might be good, but the BEST might be a youth pastor or youth leader at your church. You don't necessarily need to go and talk about your SI with them, but you can certainly make a deal that when you're having a really hard time with life, you could go and visit them.

I remember the times that helped me the most was when a friend would just let me crash on their couch for a while. I had a really hard time sleeping, and I had a REALLY hard time resisting SI at night. Just being able to fall asleep in a safe place where I knew I wouldn't be allowed to SI was wonderful!

And for the long-term, therapy is really important. Therapists have spent their whole careers studying and practicing how to help people who struggle just like you! They not only understand the problems, but they love to listen, and they even know how to help! Of course it often takes months or years -- recovery is a long-term commitment, but I can tell you from experience that it's worth it in the end!

Through everything, Christ is there. There were times when I screamed at him for "letting" me fall so far, but the great thing (though I didn't think it was so great then) was that I could always tell that he was waiting just one step further than I pushed him. And as soon as I invited him back because I really needed a hug, he'd always come smiling for me. He's there for you too. He promised!

 

[Anti Existance]

*hugs* Much love,

Imagine yourself being locked up in a room and you want to get out, what helps more cutting yourself or a key? The same counts for your situation, you need to deal with your problems one by one , from small to big, and you need a totally different outlook on life, you need to redirect the energy you are investing in cutting and start using it to deal with your problems, a problem will remain a problem for eternity until you solve them.

You need to see the wolves in sheeps clothes, and understand that this world is filled with darkness and hatred, and that we are here to spread love and help others.

Nothing in the universe will give you happyness exept love. By now you are only piling up garbage that your so called friend who are void of love and filled with hatred spouse on you. It just shows you who you friends really are.

When you are in trouble a real friend will walk in,while a fake friend will walk out.

 

[Mayflower1]

You are everything to God. You are His child and no matter what you do, you are not evil in His eyes. You are a perfect little angel. Your friends have a misconception on what being a christian is about. They are very much sinners too, and don't stick in their faces but next time they give you mean looks and call you mean things, you need to remind you of that. I cut, but I started a three day goal today to stop that. You probably feel a little bad about it yourself, all christians do when they sin, but just know that all sin is forgiven through Christ and by worshiping God and trusting in Him, you WILL defeat this. Best Wishes. I will pray for you. Don't give up hope email me if you want to talk. Got to go...I wanted to say more, but my boss is here! Don lose hope, just talk to God! Lily00

 

[teffie]

god love YOU!!!! so much he gave up all that he loved, in the chance he would gain yours!!! DO NOT GIVE IN TO SATAN!!!! im serious!!! you are NOT full of the devil, as this foolish person states. but in cutting, you see, your distancing yourself from god, cause your not listening to what HE says about you. and you hate yourself. god LOVES YOU!!! your a beautiful, and worthy, and you are a princess. even better, your HIS princess. dont give up hun, cause god is with you all the way. cutting just pushed god away, and gives satan something to hold onto and gives him something to use against you. beleive me im speaking from expeirience. if you seriously feel heaps bad, or even a little bit bad, just pray to god, call out to him...and i want you to bind satan and demons out of you. i mean it. just call out, saying: in JESUS' name!!! i cast away all demons and evil, impure thoughts from within me and around me, and i bind the demons that are struglling to use me!!! in jesus name, i surrender them helpless!!!! amen!!!

exactly just like that basically. i mean it. have faith in the lord!!! HE WILL DELIVER YOU!! im serious. luv ya, please be strong!!! if you cant do it for you, then you gotta do it at least 4 god!!! cause u owe him that much!!!
luv ya, im thinking of you!!
xoxo,steph

 

[jesuschickseven]

Your friends may be seeming to turn their back on you and you probably feel alone, but just look how many people here care about you. We may not be able to speak face to face just as you can't see God face to face, but that doesn't mean that you can't have deep bonds and freindships. God is always close to you even when he seems far away. When you look for him and cannot find him it is because he is standing behind you waiting to catch you in his arms.
The couple of times I really felt suicidal I got out a praise and worship cd and sang along at the top of my voice. Somehow worshiping God puts you closer to him than after before and relieves more pain than anything else Iv;e ever tried. It may take a couple of replays but once you get in that place where you feel his prescence just pray your heart out. It does wonders.
I once abandoned a friend who cut because I thought she was a freak and three years later I found myself in her shoes. Someday your friends will regret how they've treated you and it will be your turn to forgive them. They are wrong in judging you so don't listen to what they say. Just keep looking for God when you feel low and he will get you through.
God loves you and I do too! Don't ever think there aren't people who care about you.

 

[PetraFan007]

WOW. I am extremely impressed by this girl's faith, and also, I feel like the holy spirit is speaking through her. Where did such knowledge come from? You have been blessed with wisdom. God is going to use you one day to help God in his mission to help deliver people from the demons of this generation!!! Amen!

God Bless

god love YOU!!!! so much he gave up all that he loved, in the chance he would gain yours!!! DO NOT GIVE IN TO SATAN!!!! im serious!!! you are NOT full of the devil, as this foolish person states. but in cutting, you see, your distancing yourself from god, cause your not listening to what HE says about you. and you hate yourself. god LOVES YOU!!! your a beautiful, and worthy, and you are a princess. even better, your HIS princess. dont give up hun, cause god is with you all the way. cutting just pushed god away, and gives satan something to hold onto and gives him something to use against you. beleive me im speaking from expeirience. if you seriously feel heaps bad, or even a little bit bad, just pray to god, call out to him...and i want you to bind satan and demons out of you. i mean it. just call out, saying: in JESUS' name!!! i cast away all demons and evil, impure thoughts from within me and around me, and i bind the demons that are struglling to use me!!! in jesus name, i surrender them helpless!!!! amen!!!

exactly just like that basically. i mean it. have faith in the lord!!! HE WILL DELIVER YOU!! im serious. luv ya, please be strong!!! if you cant do it for you, then you gotta do it at least 4 god!!! cause u owe him that much!!!
luv ya, im thinking of you!!
xoxo,steph

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Cutie:

I know it's hard. I have been there. I have not been in your exact shoes but I can still relate. Listen to the people above me, trust me, one day it will be worth it.

I think Deamiter's idea of a youth pastor consultation is a wonderful idea. It's an excellent way to get a great relationship with them as well as get the support you need. Also, don't look at getting put in the hospital until you're okay necessarily a bad thing. SI is an addiction and it hurts, just like the flu or eColi hurts, and so sometimes it's best to just let people help you. I understand those places are not nice to be, but after some time you realize they helped, even if nothing they say sticks, perhaps it was that one time you didn't just walk the fence but would've crossed over it instead.

I am sorry about your friend who betrayed you, it's never a good thing when people turn their backs on you, especially when you need them the most. I know a lot of people who won't talk to me to this day because of the problems I had, they'd notice cuts and burns and thus would avoid me, eventually I made new friends who understand and now I have a great supportive place to turn.

It's not easy and you're not alone: those are two key concepts to getting past this chapter of your life in tact. The most important thing to realize is that God will always be there, all you have to do is ask Him to help you and He will, maybe not immediatly, but He will, and that He will always forgive you no matter what. God is love, He is the epitome of love and in that He will always help you and see, if you follow Him, that the best for you in His will will come forth.

Hang in there.

If you ever need to chat, I have sent some information through a PM to you. Just check it and if you need to use it, by all means do so.

Also, come here if you want to chat. There are lots of supportive people here and often you can and will make some wonderful friends who will understand what's going on and not turn their backs because they don't.