Hello everybody, I am new to this forum and am just starting to get into Christianity. I have been a Christian all my life, but I never attended Church regularly or read the bible. I believe in my lord and savior and admit there is good and evil in this world.
However for the past few weeks my concious has been troubled dramatically. I am not asking for anothers prayers, but more like help. I have a few questions in how the afterlife will turn out.
First off, I am incredibly addicted to porn. Embarrasing to say, I have been lusting over woman for years and I know it is killing me spiritually. I was so addicted that I made a PROMISE to God that I would never do it again. However months later, from saying that promise I cannot lie, I did continue from years on. Now that I broke my promise to God, will he ever even hear me talk during prayer?
One thing that is killing me is that I used to be a cantankerous kid and have commited many foul acts. For one I used to talk behind peoples backs a lot and spread horrible rumors about them just to make myself feel better. The biggest example I can give you probably is what I did to my(now) good friend.
I once was so annoyed with him, I had another friend prank call his house(more severe then you think) and say bad things to make him feel worse and put him in the lower position. To this day he still doesn't know I was behind it; even though he asked me on many occasions. Another thing I did to this guy was make a fake myspace account disguised as a girl to make it seem like someone was falling for him, and he totally bit the bait and dugg into it.
I know many of you will say in order to reach forgiveness you must endure sacrafice. I cannot express how important our friendship is and would not want anything to happen to it. I will admit to the Lord what I did was wrong, but I don't think I can ever admit it to him that I did those nasty things. I will give a good qoute from one of my favorite movies, The Dark Knight(Great movie!
) "Sometimes the truth just isn't good enough" We are best friends now, and he doesn't share the same beliefs I do(I am not one to get another to conform to something else) I pray for both him and I, but I am still troubled that God will never hear me.
Now I will give a quote I found from another site, "However, no sin is too awful for Christ to forgive." Is this true, can someone enlighten me?
I know MANY if not ALL the people on this forum have better knowledge in Christianity then what I do. Please tell me I can still redeem myself to the Lord or give me an insight on what I should do.
I admit that I have sinned and have done wrong.
-Mike
However for the past few weeks my concious has been troubled dramatically. I am not asking for anothers prayers, but more like help. I have a few questions in how the afterlife will turn out.
First off, I am incredibly addicted to porn. Embarrasing to say, I have been lusting over woman for years and I know it is killing me spiritually. I was so addicted that I made a PROMISE to God that I would never do it again. However months later, from saying that promise I cannot lie, I did continue from years on. Now that I broke my promise to God, will he ever even hear me talk during prayer?
One thing that is killing me is that I used to be a cantankerous kid and have commited many foul acts. For one I used to talk behind peoples backs a lot and spread horrible rumors about them just to make myself feel better. The biggest example I can give you probably is what I did to my(now) good friend.
I once was so annoyed with him, I had another friend prank call his house(more severe then you think) and say bad things to make him feel worse and put him in the lower position. To this day he still doesn't know I was behind it; even though he asked me on many occasions. Another thing I did to this guy was make a fake myspace account disguised as a girl to make it seem like someone was falling for him, and he totally bit the bait and dugg into it.
I know many of you will say in order to reach forgiveness you must endure sacrafice. I cannot express how important our friendship is and would not want anything to happen to it. I will admit to the Lord what I did was wrong, but I don't think I can ever admit it to him that I did those nasty things. I will give a good qoute from one of my favorite movies, The Dark Knight(Great movie!
) "Sometimes the truth just isn't good enough" We are best friends now, and he doesn't share the same beliefs I do(I am not one to get another to conform to something else) I pray for both him and I, but I am still troubled that God will never hear me.Now I will give a quote I found from another site, "However, no sin is too awful for Christ to forgive." Is this true, can someone enlighten me?
I know MANY if not ALL the people on this forum have better knowledge in Christianity then what I do. Please tell me I can still redeem myself to the Lord or give me an insight on what I should do.
I admit that I have sinned and have done wrong.
-Mike
