I am finally wanting to stop for me

[oneandlonely]

So last night I couldn't sleep, and so i ended up doing a lot of thinking...

I think that I finally really want to stop cutting

Before said I wanted to stop, But I was only saying that because I knew that is was everyone else wanted for me to do. Deep down I wasn't ready to give it up.

But lately, I have been cutting deeper, just to feel any pain. Well Thursday, I cut really deep. I thought the blood was never going to stop. and it really scared me. Before I was stopping because others wanted for me to, Now I am stopping because I want to, and because I Have to.

I feel myself raipidly getting worse, everytime I cut, i cut deeper. So where am I going to be a month from now if I don't stop? I am not going to be in good shape... am it is not going to be pretty...

So I guess what I am saying is that I am finally wanting to stop for me, not because everyone else wants for me to.

Bethany

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

I'm glad you've decided to stop. That's a huge step in your recovery. I know it's scary... and I know it's hard... but you really can do it. Hang in there and always remember... you can always come here to vent and share your progress with all of us. I'm so very proud of you. Stay strong.

You're loved.

-Jo.

 

[ark_angel]

I am happy to hear that. I remember the time when I had to answer the question of whether I wanted to stop or not, and I remember that I answered yes just because everyone else wanted me to. I remember being in the exact spot of where you are, it is a scary place.
Just remember this little thing, that has to do with all things in life, kinda off topic but not,
it takes 21 days to break a habit and 21 days to make a habit.
So if you can make it 21 days without cutting, you have just broke that habit, not to say you won't every think about doing it again, but it becomes easier to resist the temptation. And since it takes 21 days to make a habit, think of something more constructive to replace the cutting habit with.
I hope and pray you get through this.
Love in Christ
Angela

 

[soonto_be]

Congrats!!! I know from experience that you CAN'T stop unles you're stopping for you. I'm praying for you.

Do you have go to therapy or anything? That will really help you actually stop. Or at least cut back. Find a christian one, though. And...yeah. I'm praying for you. You can PM me if you want to.



And Superchi[k] rocks!

 

[Jama]

That is great news! I'm really glad to hear this. Keep your chin up.

 

[luv4godremains]

I'm really glad, good luck with it, keep your head up and keep praying!
God bless

 

[Mr.Cheese]

you've arrived at the beginning of recovery.

 

[oneandlonely]

*huggles everyone* thanks everyone . I am doing alright and today is day 8

 

[pockleberry]

i think thats really cool that u are giving up...i dont know that i cld i kinda feel like everyone expects me to cut...they have given up on me stopping they just accept that i do...