Some days I can't stand depression. I mean, why can't I just have a conversation with someone without taking offense to everything they say? I feel like I'm going to be alone (without friendships and a family I could really talk to about my feelings) because I can't seem to make connections with people without having those weird days when I think I've said something wrong and I'm convinced they are going to walk out of my life. So then I cry because I'm sick and I don't know what to do. I mentioned that I had clinical depression to someone who looked at me like I was an alien. He thought I was this strong genius and was disappointed to find that I am just a plain old human being. I just need a hug, some friends, encouragement. I can't control it. It's like I always feel like someone is rejecting me or holding me up to this impossible standard. I used to try and keep up with other people's ideal of me but I'm just tired.