I am 26 years old and been married to a loving and responsible husband for 4yrs no. God gifted us with two amazing children.
My husband works in aviation center and had to be living with his relatives because our home is far from his workplace. He only goes home two times a week. I trusted him completely because i know how much he loves me and our kids. One thing is, we are Christians and had a Christian wedding,although ive noticed that slowly he's walking away from God, from going to church,to praying,to giving tithes and talking about Him. I trusted him completely even when i saw another simcard inserted in his id, up to being late of going home, to emplty inbox in his phone whenever his home and i would check it. I TRUSTED him wholeheartedly and without doubt. Until one afternoon, i received a message in my facebook stating that my husband is cheating on me.. I just felt my world colapsed right before my very eye. Im indenial, praying to God that its not true.. It ant be true..
I texted him. He didnt deny it. And when we talked, he was crying., asking for forgiveness. Acting like a crazy man serving me, as if,if he could he would even carry me around so that i wont even use my feet to walk.. During that time, i wasnt showing him how angry i am. I was just sitting there while tears are falling down my face.. I didnt even hit him and didnt shouted at him..i just felt so empty and in pain.. Then i slept just like that, still by his side. He hugged me and whispered words of love in my ears until i slept. The next morning, i called the woman and she asked me to meet up. That was sunday. Me together with my husband and children went to the mall i asked her to go to. And in there, waiting for us, i saw a fat, miserable looking, older woman in just plain white loosed shirt,loosed pants, flops, and a ponytailed hair. While me, i really see to it that i look good. Im meeting the woman my loving husband cheated me for.. I just cant believe she was THAT woman. Then we talked. Away from my husband and children. In a foodchain.. I was clutching my hands to prevent my self from snatching her.. But i didnt insert much effort from trying to hurt her because i wasnt feeling much anger towards her,. I just PITY her.. She cried while trying to start a conversation while playing with her hands. She has lots of hair in her forearms and face, i just noticed.. Then her story.. Shes married. With a husband who beats her and cheated on her thats why she looked for a job. She looked like a lonely and sad woman.. Shes almost a decade older than my husband and theyve been together for 8months. But its not a typical relationship. For my husband she's a friend. But she became almost obsessed with him. She gives him foods and money, and my husband is taking advantage of her. Hes been trying to stay away but shes not allowing him, crying and pleading for him not to leave her. My husband agreed but he just treated her like just nothing. Hes just accepting her foods. Eating with her.. But what pained me is that they had a few sex.. And during those days i thought hes living in our relatives,he was not. Hes living with her,in her apartment. Accepting her cares and her serving him and treating him like a prince.. I also found out that she has PCOS thats why she ant conceive and shes always depressed.During our talk, something happend to me.. I could hear voices in my head so clear as if someone was there talking to me. Its telling me, Really telling me to invite this miserable looking girl to come with us in our church.. An i did asked her! I was like, what was i thinking? Shes my husbands mistress and its our family day! I was thinking like that until i saw her broke down and cried..she told me that she didnt blieve in God,and almost thinking about suicide because of everything, added to those are the bullying shes been getting from their workmates (that my husband didnt cared about) but when she heard me asking her to go to church with us,me of all people, she just felt that God is reaching out to her and asking her to come to Him..
That didnt end there, that person who told me that my husband is cheating on me? She was my husband woman before, just jelous. Shes also married,older and with two kids, the worst is, shes a Christian..
I texted her and told her that i knew about her and my husband. And i said that i forgave her.. And she didnt even said a single sorry..
Me and the other woman became friends,i invited her home and bought foods for her. Even made her my sons godmother.. Now,shes living knowing that God forgave her and she showed so much love and faith to God. I didnt tell this story to any of my family, so it left me with only God as my crying shoulder. For many nights,even days, up to months ive been crying cryin to God in our room,. Telling Him how hurt and in pain i am. I im finding my self, sometimes throwings things just to ease what im battling inside.. I was shouting and crying to God for many nights..
But God, as faithful and loving father as He is remained with me.. God used my experience to make me grow.. Ive been reading books about Him,been searching the net about forgiving, praying,doing my devotion, praying and fasting.. And now? Almost a year after i found out., everytime im thinking about it, it would still hurt, and sometimes i wonder if the pain would never go away, but God made me use it as a training ground.. I wont lie,im not perfect, sometimes i would about revenge,but then God would remind me, that among them all,its my husband who deserved to be punished,. But God showed me the story of the prodigal son tru my husband.. God welcomed him back with arms wide open and hugged him and made him cry on His shoulder.. He came back to the heart of worship, his heart is in flame. Hes not drinking anymore and going home everyday even how far the ride is.. His coworkers noticed his changes. Hes not mingling with them anymore. He said that if he again sleep with the dogs outside, again hell get flees..
God turened this pain to gain.. Now im treating this pain as a training ground.. That everytime im thinking bad or imagining towards those people, and sometimes i would feel this urge of texting them and saying painful things to them, God would calm me, and i would stop.. Even how strong the urge is,God is even stronger! And now, if i would think about it over again, if i would be given a chance to go back in time and would be given a chance to change it.. I WONT! Even how hard those times had been,, those were the times that i felt God Closer to me.. Even felt His arms around me during those darkest hour.. Those were the times where i felt closer to God.. He was my crying shoulder, my day in night, my light in the dark, my calming father during my raging storm.. I learned to forgive even how hard it was.. That journey was my darkest but God remained beside me..
God will make all things work together for good for those who love Him and those who were called according to His purpose..
PS. That woman with PCOS? Shes now diagnosed with 7cm cyst on both of her ovaries. And now under financial crisis. Her adopted son has a heart disease and under therapy.. I prayed that God's plan and grace would manifest in her life.. God would sometimes hurt the man first before He uses him. And sometimes i asked my self,Lord, are u punishing her? And he answered me NO! I saw how mercyful and gracious He is through my husbands life, Hes just planning something good for her..
All glory to our loving., gracious, merciful and faithful Father! May His name would be lifted up through this story.. Godbless u all!
My husband works in aviation center and had to be living with his relatives because our home is far from his workplace. He only goes home two times a week. I trusted him completely because i know how much he loves me and our kids. One thing is, we are Christians and had a Christian wedding,although ive noticed that slowly he's walking away from God, from going to church,to praying,to giving tithes and talking about Him. I trusted him completely even when i saw another simcard inserted in his id, up to being late of going home, to emplty inbox in his phone whenever his home and i would check it. I TRUSTED him wholeheartedly and without doubt. Until one afternoon, i received a message in my facebook stating that my husband is cheating on me.. I just felt my world colapsed right before my very eye. Im indenial, praying to God that its not true.. It ant be true..
I texted him. He didnt deny it. And when we talked, he was crying., asking for forgiveness. Acting like a crazy man serving me, as if,if he could he would even carry me around so that i wont even use my feet to walk.. During that time, i wasnt showing him how angry i am. I was just sitting there while tears are falling down my face.. I didnt even hit him and didnt shouted at him..i just felt so empty and in pain.. Then i slept just like that, still by his side. He hugged me and whispered words of love in my ears until i slept. The next morning, i called the woman and she asked me to meet up. That was sunday. Me together with my husband and children went to the mall i asked her to go to. And in there, waiting for us, i saw a fat, miserable looking, older woman in just plain white loosed shirt,loosed pants, flops, and a ponytailed hair. While me, i really see to it that i look good. Im meeting the woman my loving husband cheated me for.. I just cant believe she was THAT woman. Then we talked. Away from my husband and children. In a foodchain.. I was clutching my hands to prevent my self from snatching her.. But i didnt insert much effort from trying to hurt her because i wasnt feeling much anger towards her,. I just PITY her.. She cried while trying to start a conversation while playing with her hands. She has lots of hair in her forearms and face, i just noticed.. Then her story.. Shes married. With a husband who beats her and cheated on her thats why she looked for a job. She looked like a lonely and sad woman.. Shes almost a decade older than my husband and theyve been together for 8months. But its not a typical relationship. For my husband she's a friend. But she became almost obsessed with him. She gives him foods and money, and my husband is taking advantage of her. Hes been trying to stay away but shes not allowing him, crying and pleading for him not to leave her. My husband agreed but he just treated her like just nothing. Hes just accepting her foods. Eating with her.. But what pained me is that they had a few sex.. And during those days i thought hes living in our relatives,he was not. Hes living with her,in her apartment. Accepting her cares and her serving him and treating him like a prince.. I also found out that she has PCOS thats why she ant conceive and shes always depressed.During our talk, something happend to me.. I could hear voices in my head so clear as if someone was there talking to me. Its telling me, Really telling me to invite this miserable looking girl to come with us in our church.. An i did asked her! I was like, what was i thinking? Shes my husbands mistress and its our family day! I was thinking like that until i saw her broke down and cried..she told me that she didnt blieve in God,and almost thinking about suicide because of everything, added to those are the bullying shes been getting from their workmates (that my husband didnt cared about) but when she heard me asking her to go to church with us,me of all people, she just felt that God is reaching out to her and asking her to come to Him..
That didnt end there, that person who told me that my husband is cheating on me? She was my husband woman before, just jelous. Shes also married,older and with two kids, the worst is, shes a Christian..
I texted her and told her that i knew about her and my husband. And i said that i forgave her.. And she didnt even said a single sorry..
Me and the other woman became friends,i invited her home and bought foods for her. Even made her my sons godmother.. Now,shes living knowing that God forgave her and she showed so much love and faith to God. I didnt tell this story to any of my family, so it left me with only God as my crying shoulder. For many nights,even days, up to months ive been crying cryin to God in our room,. Telling Him how hurt and in pain i am. I im finding my self, sometimes throwings things just to ease what im battling inside.. I was shouting and crying to God for many nights..
But God, as faithful and loving father as He is remained with me.. God used my experience to make me grow.. Ive been reading books about Him,been searching the net about forgiving, praying,doing my devotion, praying and fasting.. And now? Almost a year after i found out., everytime im thinking about it, it would still hurt, and sometimes i wonder if the pain would never go away, but God made me use it as a training ground.. I wont lie,im not perfect, sometimes i would about revenge,but then God would remind me, that among them all,its my husband who deserved to be punished,. But God showed me the story of the prodigal son tru my husband.. God welcomed him back with arms wide open and hugged him and made him cry on His shoulder.. He came back to the heart of worship, his heart is in flame. Hes not drinking anymore and going home everyday even how far the ride is.. His coworkers noticed his changes. Hes not mingling with them anymore. He said that if he again sleep with the dogs outside, again hell get flees..
God turened this pain to gain.. Now im treating this pain as a training ground.. That everytime im thinking bad or imagining towards those people, and sometimes i would feel this urge of texting them and saying painful things to them, God would calm me, and i would stop.. Even how strong the urge is,God is even stronger! And now, if i would think about it over again, if i would be given a chance to go back in time and would be given a chance to change it.. I WONT! Even how hard those times had been,, those were the times that i felt God Closer to me.. Even felt His arms around me during those darkest hour.. Those were the times where i felt closer to God.. He was my crying shoulder, my day in night, my light in the dark, my calming father during my raging storm.. I learned to forgive even how hard it was.. That journey was my darkest but God remained beside me..
God will make all things work together for good for those who love Him and those who were called according to His purpose..
PS. That woman with PCOS? Shes now diagnosed with 7cm cyst on both of her ovaries. And now under financial crisis. Her adopted son has a heart disease and under therapy.. I prayed that God's plan and grace would manifest in her life.. God would sometimes hurt the man first before He uses him. And sometimes i asked my self,Lord, are u punishing her? And he answered me NO! I saw how mercyful and gracious He is through my husbands life, Hes just planning something good for her..
All glory to our loving., gracious, merciful and faithful Father! May His name would be lifted up through this story.. Godbless u all!
