Okay, guys, I really need your input here.
Last week, we were talking in this other thread about romanticizing memories of old boyfriends and I let myself indulge in a few reminiscences about my old flame before I put him firmly out my mind again. Imagine my shock today when I discovered this same guy posted a comment on my blog, signing it 'You'll never guess' and leaving a link to his website. To the best of my knowledge, NO ONE from my hometown even knew I had a blog let alone where to find it. I can only assume that he purposely went out looking for me on the net. This totally threw me off, as I have not seen or heard from him in over 4 years. In fact, we have only had contact with each other at all 3 times in past 8 years. I had assumed that he, like I, had decided to deliberately not stay in contact.
You see, last time we ran into each other when I was visting my old church where the two of us had grown up. At one point, I was holding his 6 month old daughter and thought rather bittersweetly that if all my teenage fantasies had come true this child would have been mine. At that moment, I looked up and he had gone from (what seemed to me) unusually happy to see me to this very pensive anxious expression. After a gave the baby back, I tried to talk to his wife but she was sort of tight-lipped, doleful, and not entirely friendly. I felt like standing on the edge of something not quite right and decided, perhaps a little dramatically, that I needed to avoid all contact with this guy forever regardless of what good friends we had been in the past. (We never actually dated. It was one of those unfulfilled, never-the-right-time-until-it-was-to-late things.)
Maybe I'm still being a little dramatic, but him making this random overture toward me has me completely flipped out. I planned to ignore it and pretend like it never happened, but wondered if I am only compounding the stupid, romanticised drama of it that way. Like if I responded and went through all the small talk and 'how is your wife' stuff that it would diffuse this weirdness I felt and I can live the rest of my life knowing that it really is completely over for both of us.
Ugh, I know I'm being utterly stupid about this. Am I making WAY too big a deal out of an innocent blog comment? Please smack sense into me.
Last week, we were talking in this other thread about romanticizing memories of old boyfriends and I let myself indulge in a few reminiscences about my old flame before I put him firmly out my mind again. Imagine my shock today when I discovered this same guy posted a comment on my blog, signing it 'You'll never guess' and leaving a link to his website. To the best of my knowledge, NO ONE from my hometown even knew I had a blog let alone where to find it. I can only assume that he purposely went out looking for me on the net. This totally threw me off, as I have not seen or heard from him in over 4 years. In fact, we have only had contact with each other at all 3 times in past 8 years. I had assumed that he, like I, had decided to deliberately not stay in contact.
You see, last time we ran into each other when I was visting my old church where the two of us had grown up. At one point, I was holding his 6 month old daughter and thought rather bittersweetly that if all my teenage fantasies had come true this child would have been mine. At that moment, I looked up and he had gone from (what seemed to me) unusually happy to see me to this very pensive anxious expression. After a gave the baby back, I tried to talk to his wife but she was sort of tight-lipped, doleful, and not entirely friendly. I felt like standing on the edge of something not quite right and decided, perhaps a little dramatically, that I needed to avoid all contact with this guy forever regardless of what good friends we had been in the past. (We never actually dated. It was one of those unfulfilled, never-the-right-time-until-it-was-to-late things.)
Maybe I'm still being a little dramatic, but him making this random overture toward me has me completely flipped out. I planned to ignore it and pretend like it never happened, but wondered if I am only compounding the stupid, romanticised drama of it that way. Like if I responded and went through all the small talk and 'how is your wife' stuff that it would diffuse this weirdness I felt and I can live the rest of my life knowing that it really is completely over for both of us.
Ugh, I know I'm being utterly stupid about this. Am I making WAY too big a deal out of an innocent blog comment? Please smack sense into me.
