Well let me take a crack at it. Uhm, I wouldn't say its miraculous or anything but I come from a very troubled background. My family was raised in the church but the only people in the bloodline to stay in it was my mom and dad.
Grown up in the hood, dropout, miserable, don't wanna hear nothing from nobody. That was my life. I was so miserable when I look back. My life was literally empty. That is exactly how I felt, like a waste of oxygen. I had no purpose, no career ideas, no friends, no money, nowhere to go, I would wake up with an attitude, hate doing anything because I felt like hey, whats the point, we're all gonna die anyways thats how it works. I always knew God was real.. I just didn't feel like he cared. I didn't need a security blanket. I just wanted to do what I wanted and I thought it was freedom but I look back and see it was just bondage.
Well, I think it was in April. I was at home, my dad had been sick so I checked on him, and he was gasping for air I rushed him the hospital in his car since we're a few blocks away from one and drove up in front of an ambulance parked there with 2 people. I was practically screaming waving my arms yelling at them to help me but they pointed at the door and didn't get out to help. Let me just take the time to say I was furious, I would have killed one of those guys if I saw them again. Anyways I got my dad out of the car and at the door he collapsed. I couldn't lift him because he weighs almost 100 pounds more than me and I am scrawny. I didn't yell for any help but a man came running around the corner, helped me lift him into the hospital and he touched me and said "if you pray for him he'll be okay" Well I did. and he barely pulled through. I sat there for days with my dad and he broke down in front of me which I wasn't used too. He looked at me and said he asked the lord "I'm 78, my oldest childs 50, am I the only one of my family headed to be with the lord?" This hit me hard, the guilt I felt was tremendous. It was like my heart fell out of my chest and went through the floor. I knew right away that I wasn't free It was bondage, I knew right away the Christ was my only hope and not just some security blanket for crazies. I re-accepted the lord, went out and bought a bible and was trying to stay into it. I prayed desperately. I asked the lord to just show me something I was like "OKAY this is great but I really need to know that you're there. I'm 20, you've never even looked in my direction this entire time." and fell asleep and the lord showed me everything I needed to see in a dream. I was in my car with my nephew and girlfriend, and this white vapor surrounded me and I couldn't see anything In front of me. I was driving on the freeway too. I was lifted up into the sky slowly through this vapor and ended up in space. I kept lifting up and at a certain point it stopped and i floated there weightless. I was fixated on the earth and something caught my attention, I looked over to the left and saw this figure. This light so bright it was the brightest light you could imagine and I could look straight at it it didn't hurt my eyes or anything. I looked back at the earth and it shook hard. I woke up terrified but I knew that I had answer to prayer. I ran to tell my dad as soon as I woke up, I mean, I never ever ever ever dream. I can remember 3 dreams that i've had in detail in my entire life right now and they were all about God and after I got saved and this one happens to happen after I pray for just a glimpse. and it was such a quickie prayer too, before I knew that much. I mean it felt so real that I knew instantly that it was from him with no doubt in my mind. I woke up and I said "well okay lord, I'm gonna dive deeper and just trust in you." Best choice I've ever made ever. Yes, ever.
And the grass is just so much greener. I'm gonna do something great for the lord one day I just know it.
Huh, deja vu.
Grown up in the hood, dropout, miserable, don't wanna hear nothing from nobody. That was my life. I was so miserable when I look back. My life was literally empty. That is exactly how I felt, like a waste of oxygen. I had no purpose, no career ideas, no friends, no money, nowhere to go, I would wake up with an attitude, hate doing anything because I felt like hey, whats the point, we're all gonna die anyways thats how it works. I always knew God was real.. I just didn't feel like he cared. I didn't need a security blanket. I just wanted to do what I wanted and I thought it was freedom but I look back and see it was just bondage.
Well, I think it was in April. I was at home, my dad had been sick so I checked on him, and he was gasping for air I rushed him the hospital in his car since we're a few blocks away from one and drove up in front of an ambulance parked there with 2 people. I was practically screaming waving my arms yelling at them to help me but they pointed at the door and didn't get out to help. Let me just take the time to say I was furious, I would have killed one of those guys if I saw them again. Anyways I got my dad out of the car and at the door he collapsed. I couldn't lift him because he weighs almost 100 pounds more than me and I am scrawny. I didn't yell for any help but a man came running around the corner, helped me lift him into the hospital and he touched me and said "if you pray for him he'll be okay" Well I did. and he barely pulled through. I sat there for days with my dad and he broke down in front of me which I wasn't used too. He looked at me and said he asked the lord "I'm 78, my oldest childs 50, am I the only one of my family headed to be with the lord?" This hit me hard, the guilt I felt was tremendous. It was like my heart fell out of my chest and went through the floor. I knew right away that I wasn't free It was bondage, I knew right away the Christ was my only hope and not just some security blanket for crazies. I re-accepted the lord, went out and bought a bible and was trying to stay into it. I prayed desperately. I asked the lord to just show me something I was like "OKAY this is great but I really need to know that you're there. I'm 20, you've never even looked in my direction this entire time." and fell asleep and the lord showed me everything I needed to see in a dream. I was in my car with my nephew and girlfriend, and this white vapor surrounded me and I couldn't see anything In front of me. I was driving on the freeway too. I was lifted up into the sky slowly through this vapor and ended up in space. I kept lifting up and at a certain point it stopped and i floated there weightless. I was fixated on the earth and something caught my attention, I looked over to the left and saw this figure. This light so bright it was the brightest light you could imagine and I could look straight at it it didn't hurt my eyes or anything. I looked back at the earth and it shook hard. I woke up terrified but I knew that I had answer to prayer. I ran to tell my dad as soon as I woke up, I mean, I never ever ever ever dream. I can remember 3 dreams that i've had in detail in my entire life right now and they were all about God and after I got saved and this one happens to happen after I pray for just a glimpse. and it was such a quickie prayer too, before I knew that much. I mean it felt so real that I knew instantly that it was from him with no doubt in my mind. I woke up and I said "well okay lord, I'm gonna dive deeper and just trust in you." Best choice I've ever made ever. Yes, ever.
And the grass is just so much greener. I'm gonna do something great for the lord one day I just know it.
Huh, deja vu.
