- Sep 17, 2018
- 19
- 24
- 32
- Country
- Canada
- Gender
- Male
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Single
Hello,
For some time now I've been unable to understand how exactly God guides us through life. In my prayers I always ask for guidance so I could achieve health and happiness, but I have a problem with the "way" God is supposed to guide me. I know that in order to be healthy and happy I need to make better life decisions; but how is God supposedly helping me in this regard? I've been obsessing about the thought that God can at moments basically high jack my brain and make me think certain thoughts so I could make better decisions, and this scares me, because it puts the image that God is controlling me like a puppeteer, as if my life decisions are based on what He wants, not what I want. I struggle with this because basically it suggests God is running my life, not me! I have a problem with analyzing God and my faith, so thats why these thoughts kind of take over and make me anxious. I asked a good friend about this, and he told me that the Holy Spirit guides us like a flashlight would in a dark forest, a guiding light, so to speak. But it still doesn't really stop these fears that God is basically controlling me and making decisions for me, so I'm at lost. I tried contemplating if God could lead me through people instead, but again I get scared when I imagine God bringing someone in my path, as if AGAIN He is controlling someone out of their will to basically 'guide me'. I just can't understand how God works through different people and how that doesnt make God basically a puppeteer.
I struggle with OCD so these thoughts have been stuck in my head for a long time and made me anxious. How can I bring this fire to an end?
For some time now I've been unable to understand how exactly God guides us through life. In my prayers I always ask for guidance so I could achieve health and happiness, but I have a problem with the "way" God is supposed to guide me. I know that in order to be healthy and happy I need to make better life decisions; but how is God supposedly helping me in this regard? I've been obsessing about the thought that God can at moments basically high jack my brain and make me think certain thoughts so I could make better decisions, and this scares me, because it puts the image that God is controlling me like a puppeteer, as if my life decisions are based on what He wants, not what I want. I struggle with this because basically it suggests God is running my life, not me! I have a problem with analyzing God and my faith, so thats why these thoughts kind of take over and make me anxious. I asked a good friend about this, and he told me that the Holy Spirit guides us like a flashlight would in a dark forest, a guiding light, so to speak. But it still doesn't really stop these fears that God is basically controlling me and making decisions for me, so I'm at lost. I tried contemplating if God could lead me through people instead, but again I get scared when I imagine God bringing someone in my path, as if AGAIN He is controlling someone out of their will to basically 'guide me'. I just can't understand how God works through different people and how that doesnt make God basically a puppeteer.
I struggle with OCD so these thoughts have been stuck in my head for a long time and made me anxious. How can I bring this fire to an end?

