As of late, I've been watching these videos on YouTube by Jan Boshoff (finalcall07). The man himself gives me mixed feelings about whether I'm a proper Christian or not. I'm naturally prone to depression, and try to avoid getting too negative due to it obviously being a sin. However, Jan makes being a Christ-follower sound exceedingly difficult. I constantly doubt my salvation after watching his videos, or do what he says which never yields results. I honestly don't know how I can pursue a proper relationship with Christ, and it really makes me depressed. I have my faults that I'm getting rid of, but that alone shouldn't keep me from Christ. I'm honestly confused on where I stand.