I was raised in a muslim family , since i was little..i've always wanted to know about Jesus Christ..since most muslims were againts Christians and their beliefs...
Iam lebanese..but was raised in Saudi Arabia because my dad had a good job there , living there wasnt a very good thing but I learned alot , and I didnt know much about Chrisitans except few things , and I only knew some of the things about who Jesus was..., mostly about him as the Isalmic religion , I used to ask my parents about how Christians believe , even though my parents never were strict about their religion , they told me that its wrong..because they believe that he is Son of God..as physically..and such...
Living there in Sauid Arabia and learning alot about Islam was a great experience , but they were too stric to the point I started to hate them and hate the country and even the religion , but I loved God with all my heart..and never thought of hating him , I used to fast at Ramadan with my family , read the holy book but keep it simple , but after all...Christianity was in my mind no matter what , dreams to be one...dreams to live with a family for one day to see how they are and dreams to go to Church and worship
Coming here to the US 6 years ago , made me miss my friends and my neighbors and my house...that i got very depressed , I wanted to end my life because i wanted to go back and I just lost it.., I did try to kill my self but i didnt...and Iam glad..
I stayed depressed for 2 years or so and on an Easter day I started to have faith..., I think it was on 2004 or 2005 , I started watching the Christian channel for some reason , looking for something to hold on to...something that means something to me.., and i wanted to learn more about Christianity , and I started praying and feeling something strange inside me...but that died again...after somtime...when I started to get confused..and got to study Christianity more and more...to the point where I got lost..to which is true and right..., I spent months reading books and learning and knowing things i've never knew before...and how much my parnets and every other Muslim person i asked or questioned about stuff about the Bible or Christianity..they didnt know the truth about it , they just claim its wrong..claim this and that..and I learned the other ways..
I had a tough month praying afterwards from all the studying , wondering..is it really Jesus...the normal man...can be something more , can it be ? and why not? what was special about him and why? , I questioned my self alot..and i used to cry at nights wondering..looking up at the sky from the windows praying and asking God for a sign to lead me to the truth and the only truth , who is Jesus...
I prayed for a whole two weeks for a sign , a story about a girl who was raised a muslim and became a christian...something that can make me see and understand , leads me to the way , I dont know why i thought about a story...but i wanted to relate to something...and...what I got...on a day that I never thought something strange would happen...
My Miracle...that changed my whole life and strongly made me believe and not only this one but this was my first sign and knew that Jesus was more....is my little sister coming back from her friend , her friends family go to church every sunday and her mom works there helping and they are religous nice family , so she comes back and throws a book in my language and tells me that I can read it , I looked at it..and it looked like it was an Islamic book , so I knew that this could be the sign from God..that I should stick to how i was raised..and Jesus was just a man...and a prophet , I let the book stay there on the table..while i was doing things on my laptop then i looked at it again and I was happy yet sad coz I thought Jesus was more than that..., I held the book again and looked at the back to see whats the book about...
I read about this girl who got healed by Jesus and that she was raised a muslim but she became a Christian and how she went through her strict religous family and that she was almost killed because she changed her faith.., the book called "AL-hejab Al-mumazaq"
I couldnt believe it...I was in tears and then i opened the book at the last page of it and it had verses from the Bible..saying that Jesus is the life and the truth ...then the last verse says , God wants you now to invite Jesus or soemthing like that....I would check the verse right now but too tired , sorry lol.., I went upstairs running to my little sister to see how she got the book , she told me they had a two or three of them , some guy gave it to them in a store for free and they just happened to be in the little girls room on the floor , my sister thoguht me or my parents can read this , so she decided to pick it up and bring it to me.
Well..i started crying ofcourse...coz nothing happened to me like this before...a prayer became answered , and from that day...i just felt so happy..., I started to attend a close to church to mine and learned more about the Holy Lord..and Jesus my saviour..and Gods plan..for us and how much he loves us , never knew that God loved me this much or loved me coz i never read it before until I read it in my Bible..
I've had other prayers answered in the name of Jesus , 3 payers and they were in the toughest times that my family would've been broken by now if i didnt ask my lord to save me and help me and protect me....
Jesus my saviour, forever....
-kathia.