As the title suggests, I want to know how I can reach a humility and faith like David’s in the psalms. Right now I find that I’m double minded and I don’t have repentance or God in mind at all. It’s only when I really think about it that I care. I have a faulty repentance in the sense that I keep going back to my sins even though I know it’s wrong and I know that there’s something hard god wants me to do and it’s the right thing to do (I won’t go into it exactly) however I don’t want to do it as audacious as that sounds. My heart is still very much calloused but I want to try and change without being lazy about it. That’s why i question whether I genuinely want to repent. I also still fear that I’ve reached a point where God would ‘deny’ me repentance because my sins were so bad.