My first post I'm asking for advice! The short story is: I have a crush on this guy and I feel like my nervousness might be interpreted as rudeness. Being a Christian and just a nice person, I hate it that I might be making him think I dislike him.... Thanks for reading the following if you have time and offering advice!
I have a crush on this guy who is a senior; hes really popular and attractive, but above he is EXTREMELY nice and sincere and loving to everybody and just a really great person. I know him a bit (had a class with him one semester- gym- but didnt know him well at all) and we exchanged a few words then, but didnt know each other too well. I had a crush on him then (the semester we had that class together) but the crush wasnt as strong as it is now. Now, when I see him in the halls or wherever, he makes me SO nervous that I cant even really think or, like, choose what Im doing, lol. Since hes such a nice guy and we kind of know each other, he smiles at me with his beautiful smile when we see each other around school, and I . cant even smile back. Literally, I make eye contact with him and look away immediately; I dont even have the option of smiling because I just automatically look away in nervousness. So in other words, hes smiled at me a bunch of times and weve made eye contact (for a short second, till I look away quickly) within the past few months and I just ignore him. I seriously feel so bad because I dont want him to feel hurt or think I dislike him as a person. In fact, lately when I see him in the halls he looks at me without smiling and I think he looks a little sad? Maybe confused? And it makes me feel just AWFUL because I think hes probably noticed how nice I am to everyone else and he probably thinks I am ignoring him for some bad reason.
So Im asking . Is there any way I can gain control of myself around him and be able to smile at him, be able to say something to him? Right now its literally my default, automatic reaction to get away. I can barely even think when we make eye contact so I dont even think I should talk to him until after hes already passed and I get my normal brain back, lol! And I cant smile at him either because Im so nervous
I may want to seek him out at some point in school and apologize for ignoring him because I really am quite sure Ive come across as rude. But do you know how awkward it would be to tell him that the reason is that I have a crush on him?! What do you think about apologizing to him and explaining it? I feel like that would be taking the high road, but would it just be too uncomfortable for both of us? My problem with this (other than it may be awkward for us and make him uncomfortable) is that sometimes Ive gotten the impression he has a crush on me, and if he does have a crush on me and I tell him I have one on him, I dont want him to get up his hopes that we would date, as right now I dont feel like Im in a good time in my life to date (besides, Im only a sophomore, so Ive got plenty of time). And I couldnt bear hurting him by making him think Id date him but then saying no. (Im not even sure if he has a crush on me, but it seems like theres a possibility.)
I have a crush on this guy who is a senior; hes really popular and attractive, but above he is EXTREMELY nice and sincere and loving to everybody and just a really great person. I know him a bit (had a class with him one semester- gym- but didnt know him well at all) and we exchanged a few words then, but didnt know each other too well. I had a crush on him then (the semester we had that class together) but the crush wasnt as strong as it is now. Now, when I see him in the halls or wherever, he makes me SO nervous that I cant even really think or, like, choose what Im doing, lol. Since hes such a nice guy and we kind of know each other, he smiles at me with his beautiful smile when we see each other around school, and I . cant even smile back. Literally, I make eye contact with him and look away immediately; I dont even have the option of smiling because I just automatically look away in nervousness. So in other words, hes smiled at me a bunch of times and weve made eye contact (for a short second, till I look away quickly) within the past few months and I just ignore him. I seriously feel so bad because I dont want him to feel hurt or think I dislike him as a person. In fact, lately when I see him in the halls he looks at me without smiling and I think he looks a little sad? Maybe confused? And it makes me feel just AWFUL because I think hes probably noticed how nice I am to everyone else and he probably thinks I am ignoring him for some bad reason.
So Im asking . Is there any way I can gain control of myself around him and be able to smile at him, be able to say something to him? Right now its literally my default, automatic reaction to get away. I can barely even think when we make eye contact so I dont even think I should talk to him until after hes already passed and I get my normal brain back, lol! And I cant smile at him either because Im so nervous
I may want to seek him out at some point in school and apologize for ignoring him because I really am quite sure Ive come across as rude. But do you know how awkward it would be to tell him that the reason is that I have a crush on him?! What do you think about apologizing to him and explaining it? I feel like that would be taking the high road, but would it just be too uncomfortable for both of us? My problem with this (other than it may be awkward for us and make him uncomfortable) is that sometimes Ive gotten the impression he has a crush on me, and if he does have a crush on me and I tell him I have one on him, I dont want him to get up his hopes that we would date, as right now I dont feel like Im in a good time in my life to date (besides, Im only a sophomore, so Ive got plenty of time). And I couldnt bear hurting him by making him think Id date him but then saying no. (Im not even sure if he has a crush on me, but it seems like theres a possibility.)
