How can god forgive me?

[Alessa_the_jaz]

I was supposed to die when I was born. By some miracle, I survived. My mom prayed that if I survived I would serve god. I’ve turned out terribly. I realize I’ve gone too far with god. I’ve committed terrible sins. I’ve hurt god's people including my family. I’ve been hiding my sins and have caused stagnation in my family’s journey. I didn’t notice it until recently but the devil has been using me for a long time.





All my life I’ve been wicked. I’ve sown corruption and wickedness and now I’m reaping the destruction. I have betrayed my family terribly and I’m no better than Judas. I’ve been scared to confess but the sooner the better. All my life I’ve caused so much damage and pain. I’ve done evil and depraved things.








So how can god forgive me?





I have lived a careless life without god. It’s a mystery whether I’m saved or could ever be saved but I had knowledge of truth and felt conviction for a time before I went completely off course.





I went against conviction and pushed the Holy Spirit away as much as I could. I loved my sins so much I ended up hating god, disregarding him and all he’s done for me.





I’ve harmed many people in terrible ways and caused pain to others, some being gods own children too. I know now I can’t fix it besides confessing but I’ve done every possible bad thing.








God has done a lot for me and I really failed him. I think that while I feel all of this and feel a lot of guilt, I might not truly be repentant.








How can god forgive people who hurt other people with knowledge of truth? Especially his own people. I don’t think I’m forgivable.





I don’t see how god could ever redeem me or the glory I once had. I easily gave myself away to Satan, I barely even tried for my relationship with god.





Now I want to return but I’ve done too much and it feels destruction may come my way. The things I’ve done are very much deserving of hell.



I feel god will truly ‘reward’ me according to my evil deeds. I want a fresh beginning but I’ve pushed god so far. It’s so bad the things I did, and still do.





I mentioned in my last post that God has revealed me to my pastor- I’m not sure whether it was a confirmation that it was too late but I know for sure that I also need to confess to him, even if it results for the worst.





The thing is I had already offended him and of course I want to make amends but I’m terrified of confrontation because he knows I’m not exactly a saint.








I know I'm on here a lot but hopefully this is the last time I come on here because I know I come on here more than I would like to. I realize that in the scope of my situation, my tone to things is very pity seeking and before these past few peeks I had seen how it had affected me and others, but I had never really thought of it as much as now or realized just how bad things are.

 

[com7fy8]

She prayed for you to serve God. So, now if she wants this, she needs to forgive you.

And she can, with God.

And if Jesus expects her a human to forgive you, yes God our Heavenly Father is so much more able to forgive you, than she is.

So, no matter how convincing Satan is to have you think otherwise . . . God is not limited, like that.

However, then God will expect you to be generously forgiving as God has been with you.

So, the issue is, will you become forgiving in honor of how Jesus so suffered and died on Calvary for you and anyone??

Jesus is so pleasing to our Father, that Jesus has pleased God to have forgiveness ready for any and all sins of this evil world >

"And He Himself is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the whole world." (1 John 2:2)

So . . . repent of it all, and start fresh and new in Jesus with God's whole family.

And be ready to spot and be corrected of sins which might not be so obvious but they can spoil a relationship and keep us from growing in Jesus.

Arguing and complaining > Philippians 2:13-16

Beauty discrimination > 1 Peter 3:4

Unforgiveness > Mark 11:25

Judgmental love > Matthew 5:46 > pray with hope for any and all people > 1 Timothy 2:1-4 >

Love "hopes all things" (in 1 Corinthians 13:7)

Anyone who loves you has this hope in prayer for you.

 

[Maria Billingsley]

I was supposed to die when I was born. By some miracle, I survived. My mom prayed that if I survived I would serve god. I’ve turned out terribly. I realize I’ve gone too far with god. I’ve committed terrible sins. I’ve hurt god's people including my family. I’ve been hiding my sins and have caused stagnation in my family’s journey. I didn’t notice it until recently but the devil has been using me for a long time.





All my life I’ve been wicked. I’ve sown corruption and wickedness and now I’m reaping the destruction. I have betrayed my family terribly and I’m no better than Judas. I’ve been scared to confess but the sooner the better. All my life I’ve caused so much damage and pain. I’ve done evil and depraved things.








So how can god forgive me?





I have lived a careless life without god. It’s a mystery whether I’m saved or could ever be saved but I had knowledge of truth and felt conviction for a time before I went completely off course.





I went against conviction and pushed the Holy Spirit away as much as I could. I loved my sins so much I ended up hating god, disregarding him and all he’s done for me.





I’ve harmed many people in terrible ways and caused pain to others, some being gods own children too. I know now I can’t fix it besides confessing but I’ve done every possible bad thing.








God has done a lot for me and I really failed him. I think that while I feel all of this and feel a lot of guilt, I might not truly be repentant.








How can god forgive people who hurt other people with knowledge of truth? Especially his own people. I don’t think I’m forgivable.





I don’t see how god could ever redeem me or the glory I once had. I easily gave myself away to Satan, I barely even tried for my relationship with god.





Now I want to return but I’ve done too much and it feels destruction may come my way. The things I’ve done are very much deserving of hell.



I feel god will truly ‘reward’ me according to my evil deeds. I want a fresh beginning but I’ve pushed god so far. It’s so bad the things I did, and still do.





I mentioned in my last post that God has revealed me to my pastor- I’m not sure whether it was a confirmation that it was too late but I know for sure that I also need to confess to him, even if it results for the worst.





The thing is I had already offended him and of course I want to make amends but I’m terrified of confrontation because he knows I’m not exactly a saint.








I know I'm on here a lot but hopefully this is the last time I come on here because I know I come on here more than I would like to. I realize that in the scope of my situation, my tone to things is very pity seeking and before these past few peeks I had seen how it had affected me and others, but I had never really thought of it as much as now or realized just how bad things are.

Ask that He fill you with His Holy Spirit daily so that true repentance, ( changing one's mind ) takes place and the sins begin to fall away. He has already forgiven you now it is time to truly follow Him because you Love Him more than sin. It is this kind of Agape Love that keeps us in Him.
Blessings.

 

[ozso]

I was supposed to die when I was born. By some miracle, I survived. My mom prayed that if I survived I would serve god. I’ve turned out terribly. I realize I’ve gone too far with god. I’ve committed terrible sins. I’ve hurt god's people including my family. I’ve been hiding my sins and have caused stagnation in my family’s journey. I didn’t notice it until recently but the devil has been using me for a long time.

All my life I’ve been wicked. I’ve sown corruption and wickedness and now I’m reaping the destruction. I have betrayed my family terribly and I’m no better than Judas. I’ve been scared to confess but the sooner the better. All my life I’ve caused so much damage and pain. I’ve done evil and depraved things.

So how can god forgive me?

I have lived a careless life without god. It’s a mystery whether I’m saved or could ever be saved but I had knowledge of truth and felt conviction for a time before I went completely off course.

I went against conviction and pushed the Holy Spirit away as much as I could. I loved my sins so much I ended up hating god, disregarding him and all he’s done for me.

I’ve harmed many people in terrible ways and caused pain to others, some being gods own children too. I know now I can’t fix it besides confessing but I’ve done every possible bad thing.

God has done a lot for me and I really failed him. I think that while I feel all of this and feel a lot of guilt, I might not truly be repentant.

How can god forgive people who hurt other people with knowledge of truth? Especially his own people. I don’t think I’m forgivable.

I don’t see how god could ever redeem me or the glory I once had. I easily gave myself away to Satan, I barely even tried for my relationship with god.

Now I want to return but I’ve done too much and it feels destruction may come my way. The things I’ve done are very much deserving of hell.

I feel god will truly ‘reward’ me according to my evil deeds. I want a fresh beginning but I’ve pushed god so far. It’s so bad the things I did, and still do.

I mentioned in my last post that God has revealed me to my pastor- I’m not sure whether it was a confirmation that it was too late but I know for sure that I also need to confess to him, even if it results for the worst.

The thing is I had already offended him and of course I want to make amends but I’m terrified of confrontation because he knows I’m not exactly a saint.

I know I'm on here a lot but hopefully this is the last time I come on here because I know I come on here more than I would like to. I realize that in the scope of my situation, my tone to things is very pity seeking and before these past few peeks I had seen how it had affected me and others, but I had never really thought of it as much as now or realized just how bad things are.

I think you're probably over-exaggerating. Like you say you come here a lot but you've only made 18 posts.

Bad sins. King David whom God called a man after his own heart. Jesus is called the son of David. David played peeping tom and watched the wife of one of his soldiers bathing. Then filled with lust he committed adultery and got her pregnant. To cover it up David purposely in a very calculated way sent her husband to his death. He committed murder.

God forgave David.

Stop doing whatever it is you're doing. Repent. Then confess your sin to God, ask for forgiveness, and He will forgive you. Then stay repentant. Don't get into a wash rinse repeat cycle with God. Or else He might have to start getting tough on you to whip you into shape. You don't want to go there.

God loves you.

 

[Diamond72]

So how can god forgive me?

We are forgiven when we become a new creation in Christ. When we put off the old and put on the new. God is still a God of Justice so that is why Jesus had to go to carvery. For the Joy set before Him.

 

[KevinT]

All my life I’ve been wicked. I’ve sown corruption and wickedness and now I’m reaping the destruction. ... So how can god forgive me? ... How can god forgive people who hurt other people with knowledge of truth? Especially his own people. I don’t think I’m forgivable. ...
Now I want to return but I’ve done too much and it feels destruction may come my way. The things I’ve done are very much deserving of hell.

The word "Satan" means "accuser". It is a favorite game of his to induce people to do wrong, and then to accuse them before God. Think of Job, where Satan is accusing Job before God. Also, there is a vision in Zechariah where this is shown.

Zechariah 3 Then he showed me Joshua, the high priest, standing before the angel of the Lord, and Satan standing at his right hand to accuse him. 2 And the Lord said to Satan, “The Lord rebuke you, Satan! The Lord who has chosen Jerusalem rebukes you! Is this not a burning brand taken out of the fire?” 3 Now Joshua had on filthy garments and was standing before the angel. 4 And he said to those standing before him, “Take off his filthy garments.”

God, on the other hand, is constantly trying to raise people up to better ways of life, more love, more goodness. If you compare the very best person on Earth today to the very worst person, that difference is minuscule compared to the goodness of God. So God is not going to consider you too evil to save. Indeed, it is the Holy Spirit that has been working with you to help you understand your need to put aside your bad ways.

Think of a child that got mad at their parents, said "I hate you", and drew on the wall with a marker. A loving parent will understand why their child is upset, help them overcome their emotions and work hard to fix all the problems the child caused. The end result, with time, is a strong loving relationship between parent and child. How much more so with God!

God is working to save you, not looking for a reason to condemn you. Ask for forgiveness from Him, and from those you have harmed, and pray for wisdom and guidance to avoid doing it again in the future.

1 John 1:9 But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.

Best wishes,

KT

 

[Richard T]

That you still care and want to serve God shows that you are still lit with God. So as other have said in different ways, just get that light to expand and push out the darkness that beholds all of our souls. Rom 12:2

 

[NBB]

Hi, the king Manasseh did horrible things, it is said he was one of the most wicked kings, in his anguish he cried out to God, and God listened to him.
I doubt anything you did was as bad as this king.

 

[Diamond72]

The word "Satan" means "accuser".

This is where we need the Blood of Jesus and then the devil will flee from us.