There were many times I felt the God's call on my life to be in full time ministry. I could write many books on that.
However, I will tell you of the time, when the point was driven home in a new and different way.
In January,1998 I had congestive heart failure. My heart did not beat, but only quivered for 4 days. Finally they gave me a cardio-conversion and got my heart "singing" the way it should.
They say I "died" on the ER table, and "they" brought me back. lol! I have no memory of this so called death and had no "out of body" experience.
Nevertheless, there was a strange side effect to all this.
After I left the hospital, I was like a robot, or some sort of machine. I no longer had a need for sleep. I would occasionally get tired but rarely sleepy. When I did sleep, which was only once in a great while, like every 3rd day or so, I would only sleep for a few minutes, maybe as much as an hour, but usually far less. This lasted for one year.
That being the case, I was up alone, and I took advantage of that time to do some intensive study. At that time many simple and basic scriptures took on new meaning to me.
One of those was John 15:16: "Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you."
Now I believe God has spoken this to every born again Christian. This is surely the most basic of all scripture and the most meaningful to a Christian. Here He speaks of His love and grace. Here He tells us that our salvation has nothing at all to do with oor will. That HE chose us and not the other way around. That we were drawn by His Holy Spirit, and that he saved us for a purpose, and He tells us what that purpose is. Here he speaks of our prayer life and how we get our prayers answered.
This verse is so simple and basic, it is truly milk of the Word. Nevertheless, it is, at the same time, packed full of MEAT!
At this time in my life, this simple verse took on a new meaning to me. I did not hear any "audible voice of God", but there was never a doubt that God was speaking hard to me through this little verse we seldom give a 2nd thought.
Today, I thank God for the heart failure and the side effect that followed. In that time I learned more of God's call on my life than at any time previously. My relationship with Him became more real and personal, and profound.
Since that time, I have taken on new ministries, and my Focus in life has been to spread the good news of Jesus to as many people as possible, through as many means as possible. It was the expressed reason I got a computer in the first place.
I love Jesus as never before, and I Praise Him and thank Him for the time and opportunity to serve Him in a full time way.