I will be married (for the second time) 8 years April 30. I should be celebrating and all I am doing is regreting. My husband is saved. He was not until after we were married. He is an alcoholic. He stopped drinking for almost 5 years, by the grace of God, on the day he was saved. 2 years ago he started drinking again. A 12 pack a night. We are broke, yet theres always money for beer. My dad is a drinker, my first husband....yup a drinker, now my husband uggggg. I can't help but feel God has given up on me. My husband is a "happy" drunk, so there is no abuse and he usually waits until the kids are in bed to start drinking. I have a developmentally disabled child (no children with my now husband) and my husband helps me a great deal with the children. But I want to leave. I'm tired. I'm 36 and feel 80. I'm afraid of God's reaction if I did leave. I suffer now for mistakes i've made in the past. And I truely do believe that if there is breath there is hope. So what do I do? Pray? I do. I haven't attended church sense the 2006 flood, we lost everything, because I don't want to "pretend".
I don't no. Sorry for rambling. I do fell better saying these things "out loud". Thank you.
Pam
I don't no. Sorry for rambling. I do fell better saying these things "out loud". Thank you.
Pam