In my short life, I have met two women that I would strongly considered starting relationships that would lead to marriage.
The first one had a boyfriend and so I made no romantic sudden movements. She eventually married him and I took that as God's subtle way of saying we weren't meant to be together ( <- sarcastic humor). After that experienced, I figured God did a boo boo in His divine plan for mankind (it's funny how selfish we can be sometimes) by passing on that match. I was convinced that no one could be as well matched to me as her (have any of you ever felt/thought that?). That was until I met the second woman (which is more recently). After some council from my pastor and a few trusted friends, it turns out she is too young for me to pursue right now (as she is in her first year of college). So again, I haven't made any romantic sudden movements and have kept the acquaintance open. That nagging feeling returned however. You know, the feeling that a) she is not going to make it thru college without finding someone so forget about it b) once she is no longer available, surely there wil not be another. I mean, you aren't getting any younger and availability is not what it use to be (this one especially the "older" I get).
I saw woman #2 again yesterday at church while I was playing drums for worship. That brought back some feelings and got me down again. But I came across some encouraging words in my devotional (My Utmost for His Highest), that I'd like to share with anyone that finds themselves in similar battles. Here is an excerpt:
[font=Arial,Verdana,Helvetica,Geneva,Swiss,SunSans-Regular]Our misgivings begin within ourselves when we tell Jesus that our circumstances are just a little too difficult for Him. We say, "Its easy to say, Trust in the Lord, but a person has to live; and besides, Jesus has nothing with which to draw waterno means to be able to give us these things." [/font] [font=Arial,Verdana,Helvetica,Geneva,Swiss,SunSans-Regular]My misgivings arise from the fact that I search within to find how He will do what He says. My doubts spring from the depths of my own inferiority. If I detect these misgivings in myself, I should bring them into the light and confess them openly"Lord, I have had misgivings about You. I have not believed in Your abilities, but only my own. And I have not believed in Your almighty power apart from my finite understanding of it." --Feb 26 'Our misgivings about Jesus' My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers [/font]
Do you find yourself saying or thinking that your circumstances are too difficult for Christ to handle? That your singleness is too dificult for Him? Could this be a misgiving on your part of the power of God? Those words certainly convicted me of thinking of my own power and my own limitations and applying them to God.
You can find the whole devotional at this link
The first one had a boyfriend and so I made no romantic sudden movements. She eventually married him and I took that as God's subtle way of saying we weren't meant to be together ( <- sarcastic humor). After that experienced, I figured God did a boo boo in His divine plan for mankind (it's funny how selfish we can be sometimes) by passing on that match. I was convinced that no one could be as well matched to me as her (have any of you ever felt/thought that?). That was until I met the second woman (which is more recently). After some council from my pastor and a few trusted friends, it turns out she is too young for me to pursue right now (as she is in her first year of college). So again, I haven't made any romantic sudden movements and have kept the acquaintance open. That nagging feeling returned however. You know, the feeling that a) she is not going to make it thru college without finding someone so forget about it b) once she is no longer available, surely there wil not be another. I mean, you aren't getting any younger and availability is not what it use to be (this one especially the "older" I get).
I saw woman #2 again yesterday at church while I was playing drums for worship. That brought back some feelings and got me down again. But I came across some encouraging words in my devotional (My Utmost for His Highest), that I'd like to share with anyone that finds themselves in similar battles. Here is an excerpt:
[font=Arial,Verdana,Helvetica,Geneva,Swiss,SunSans-Regular]Our misgivings begin within ourselves when we tell Jesus that our circumstances are just a little too difficult for Him. We say, "Its easy to say, Trust in the Lord, but a person has to live; and besides, Jesus has nothing with which to draw waterno means to be able to give us these things." [/font] [font=Arial,Verdana,Helvetica,Geneva,Swiss,SunSans-Regular]My misgivings arise from the fact that I search within to find how He will do what He says. My doubts spring from the depths of my own inferiority. If I detect these misgivings in myself, I should bring them into the light and confess them openly"Lord, I have had misgivings about You. I have not believed in Your abilities, but only my own. And I have not believed in Your almighty power apart from my finite understanding of it." --Feb 26 'Our misgivings about Jesus' My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers [/font]
Do you find yourself saying or thinking that your circumstances are too difficult for Christ to handle? That your singleness is too dificult for Him? Could this be a misgiving on your part of the power of God? Those words certainly convicted me of thinking of my own power and my own limitations and applying them to God.
You can find the whole devotional at this link
