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[ANN2626]

hi,
im starting to come to the realization that i have a drinking problem. it mainly started last fall when i started having panic attacks everytime i drank it calmed me down so i started getting wasted every night because i was scared i was going to have another one if i didnt get drunk.
i dont drink as heavily like i did last fall but i still have a couple drinks a night. i always have alcohol in the house. i dont always get drunk, but i at least catch a buzz. i also live far away from my family and im alone all the time and i know thats not a good reason but its true. i have more fun alone at night and its easy to fall asleep. i still go to work and get all my errands done and accomplish things...its just at the end of the day when im lonely and bored
i just would like to know how you guys are recovering and how you stop...i just realized the other day i couldnt stop thats when i knew i had a problem.

 

[PrairieGurl]

Hi Ann,

Umm, you sound like where I was some time ago...before i ended up in detox. It would be nice to think a few drinks a day is not all that bad...but like you said...you can't stop on your own.

I left detox on June 10th of this year. I started attending AA meetings for support, and I have been sober for 25 days. I also read the Bible and talk to (lots of times cry to) "my Higher Power" who I believe is my Heavenly Father. I do have a supportive husband which does help. There is NO alcohol in my house and I still avoid places that serve alcohol...because I'm just not all that strong yet.

Ann...it's not easy...but there are people who have been where you're at...struggled thru and are willing to accept you, listen to you and encourage you!

I hope this helps...please keep posting to let us know how you're doing!

Wendy

 

[Ruth~]

Hi Ann, I have struggled with addiction to alcohol, too. I once quit for 18.5 years and then convinced myself I might be okay to drink again. I drank for 11 months and did some stupid things that I regretted and felt like an idiot. Then I thought if I just stay home and don't go to bars I'll be okay. So then I drank at home alone and about once a week I'd get drunk but I was drinking nearly every day about 4 beers when I wouldn't get drunk. I'd have about 10-14 beers when I would get drunk. I drank other stuff too and I was taking prescription medicine. I shouldn't have been drinking at all. I ended up taking too much medicine while drunk and ending up in a psyche ward locked in. It was not fun at all in there. They don't let you out when you want to go. After 8 days they let me out, thank God. I thought they were going to keep me forever. But I'm telling you this because I thought I was okay to just drink at home and yet I was getting drunk there, too. I just can't really control it. There's a lot of people who can't control it. You are not alone. I am on a prescription that takes away the urge to drink. They started me on it in the hospital over 2 months ago. I haven't drank in going on 3 months. Some people go to AA or other recovery type groups to stop. There are many ways to get sober. Best wishes to you. I'll pray for you.