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I would like to preface this by saying I do not question the unquestionable truth of God and His glory and of Jesus. Before this week however, I didn't even know what the Nicene Creed was but upon reading it of course I believe its every word.
I do harbor certain doubts and questions sadly. I was raised half Southern Baptist and half Salvationist (Salvation Army). This gave me a very unique perspective growing up in two separate churches with some very different theological principles. Now at 20 years old I have been solely going to a Salvation Army corp for two years. I love divisional and Territorial gatherings and I can feel the power of the Holy Spirit resounding during these times. It was actually at a divisional meeting this spring that I first realized what the pull my life was. I had always had a passion to help others and ever since I started my walk with Christ I've wanted others to know of His awesome love. I have been called to Ministry. Within the Salvation Army this would entail going to a Training College and then becoming an Officer, or a Salvationist Minister. Now that I've started getting serious in my researching of the Early Church it didn't take long for me to question something...sacraments...TSA does not practice any in the traditional sense due to a history of empty tradition that TSA was avoiding. But the Bible clearly states how important Eucharist and Baptism are. I've signed my Articles of War and all but I've never been Baptised neither as an infant nor as a teen. I don't believe they are required for Salvation, the theif at the cross clearly did not preform sacraments. But I feel they do convey an importance. I also got deeper in my study of actual scripture which talks plainly about fasting something neither of the churches I grew up in ever mentioned and yet it is clearly there in scripture. Then I research Protestantism in and of itself and wonder how something good can have such a crazy history full of some, arguably, insane people. Now I'm left wondering...can I really minister to a group of people that won't practice sacraments would I not be teaching false teachings? I don't agree with the catholic church but does the Orthodox church hold merit? I'm starting to wonder....worst of all I teach high school sunday school tomorrow morning. The stress of confusion born of curiosity has been eating at me all week. What makes it worse are my officers innate inability to be spiritual guiders due to their love of gossip that makes me know I can't go to them with doubt...I feel alone...
I do harbor certain doubts and questions sadly. I was raised half Southern Baptist and half Salvationist (Salvation Army). This gave me a very unique perspective growing up in two separate churches with some very different theological principles. Now at 20 years old I have been solely going to a Salvation Army corp for two years. I love divisional and Territorial gatherings and I can feel the power of the Holy Spirit resounding during these times. It was actually at a divisional meeting this spring that I first realized what the pull my life was. I had always had a passion to help others and ever since I started my walk with Christ I've wanted others to know of His awesome love. I have been called to Ministry. Within the Salvation Army this would entail going to a Training College and then becoming an Officer, or a Salvationist Minister. Now that I've started getting serious in my researching of the Early Church it didn't take long for me to question something...sacraments...TSA does not practice any in the traditional sense due to a history of empty tradition that TSA was avoiding. But the Bible clearly states how important Eucharist and Baptism are. I've signed my Articles of War and all but I've never been Baptised neither as an infant nor as a teen. I don't believe they are required for Salvation, the theif at the cross clearly did not preform sacraments. But I feel they do convey an importance. I also got deeper in my study of actual scripture which talks plainly about fasting something neither of the churches I grew up in ever mentioned and yet it is clearly there in scripture. Then I research Protestantism in and of itself and wonder how something good can have such a crazy history full of some, arguably, insane people. Now I'm left wondering...can I really minister to a group of people that won't practice sacraments would I not be teaching false teachings? I don't agree with the catholic church but does the Orthodox church hold merit? I'm starting to wonder....worst of all I teach high school sunday school tomorrow morning. The stress of confusion born of curiosity has been eating at me all week. What makes it worse are my officers innate inability to be spiritual guiders due to their love of gossip that makes me know I can't go to them with doubt...I feel alone...