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[Kostilaks]

I was worrying from trying not to do an ocd compulsion. My ocd suggested me to make a fake promise to God not to do the compulsion and use it as an excuse to relieve myself from the worries of not doing it. thoughts about fake promise to God happened without my will in 1 second. I instead of ignoring them completely or fast praying to God to tell Him that they are just thoughts without my will and that ocd tries to trap me, I felt relieved because now I was 100% sure that I should not do the ocd compulsion, even though deep inside me I knew they were thoughts without my will. then ocd started giving me new worries like "what if the way I acted to these thoughts without my will, made them valid just because I relieved myself?" "what if they were fast thoughts with my will and I pretended they were thoughts without my will?"

I remember before happening, I infored myself or maybe God that thoughts without my will are about to happen. in the next second, the thoughts without my will happened, and in the next second, instead of fast praying to tell God they are thoughts without my will, I just felt relieved and some other thoughts without my will happened in my head like " now I should not do the compulsion due to the thoughts without my will and I am happy cause I am not going to do the compulsion thanks to the thoughts without my will." and in the next second, my ocd gives me new worries like " did you just made an accidental promise by allowing thoughts without your will to happen in your head? maybe the became valid just because you felt relieved. maybe you did it on purpose and pretented that they were thoughts without your will"

I cant remember. everything happened in 1-2 seconds. so fast. I have prayed to God many times to tell Him stuff like these will happen and to protect me from promises and ocd. and that I do not make promises. I do not want to make promises. no matter how much anxious, or relieved or confused I am.

 

[Nassua]

It’s really hard but you have to ignore these thoughts. OCD is a loop in your mind that can be stopped by not going through with compulsions. The good news is God is with you. Romans 8:38 says “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from Jesus Christ our Lord.” That means there is nothing to worry about God will not condemn you if you stop making the compulsions. You will always belong to Jesus. I’ve been through this and am healed from it.