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[Savannah88]

Please pray
Life being ruined by bipolar

 

[romen33]

Hi, rest assured people here will be praying for you. I have experienced the devastating effects of bipolar and through prayer and perseverance over time God has made my life better as I learned to cope with this illness. I'll pray for things to get better for you whatever it is that you are going through God will be with you to help you get through it.

 

[Loven God]

You have my prayers . I have cried help many times myself . Bipolar is not easy to live with and prayer is a big part of getting support . I pray for what ever you are goig through , wich can be many things when it comes to bipolar .

Dear Lord , I pray that waht ever this dear child of your is going thoriugh that You will reach down and give her comfert and healing , let her know that You are there and have never left her and that we all are here praying for her needs to be meet . Lord I pray that You wil calim down any bipolar effects she is having now and restore he back to being stable . In all of this I pray in your name Jesus Amen .

 

[RuthD]

I have bipolar too and I will pray for you.

 

[Bomichaels1972]

My life has been ruined countless times...suicidal depressions, no friends, church rejecting me, bankruptcy, lost, no purpose, can't go on another minute, drinking, condemnation and judgment, ungodly hurt and pain...

I think we all of been there too many times. Just know we are all here for you. We care and love you. YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO GOD AND OTHERS!

I now fight the feelings with truth and love. Being honest with myself and others. Letting them know I am very weak, broken, and ill. One of my problems with the illness is fear, self-pity, hating people for not understanding, feeling judged and condemned, and a useless human being.

However, I KNOW this is not God's view of me. I have had to change my distorted thinking patterns. Journaling these thoughts help me step back and questions, "Is this really true?" I am fortunate because I have a loving wife to truth check my thoughts. My thoughts can be sooooo negative, fast, and paralyzing. I call it Monkey Mind! I scream to God, "GET ME OUT OF HERE"! Sometimes he answers right away and sometimes he answers in a few weeks. I have found He is always there though even if I don't feel him.

I will pray for you fervently....

Holy Father,

I lift up Savannah to you. Please bring your everlasting peace to Savanna's soul. May Savannah sense a glimmer of your unspeakable peace and love. Please reassure Savannah that you created this remarkable human being and that the thought of Savannah makes you dance with gladness. Please whisper kind words of encouragement to Savannah. Grab hold of Satan and his demons with your everlasting strength. Tell them to flee from this child of yours. Your power is infinitely stronger than them and our own thoughts. Stream your Holy thoughts into her soul and mind. May Savannah find rest in comfort in your arms. Please reassure Savannah every moment that an amazing and loving Savior stands behind her back with a kind hand on her shoulder all through this life. Into your capable arms I pray Savannah too. Thank you for Savannah and the great things you have in store for her in the days ahead. Remind Savannah that better days are just around the corner. That the light in this dark tunnel will be seen up ahead very soon.

In Jesus precious name.

Hang in there! You are a survivor and you are strong! More than you know ok?

 

[Tigger45]

Lord have mercy on our precious sister Savannah.

 

[schrodingers_cat_lives]

Please pray
Life being ruined by bipolar

You are not alone... I feel the same way. Don't know what you're going thru, but i've been in and out (mostly in) of severe depressions since sept. Was hospitalized in nov. for my first suicide attempt. Seemed to have gotten better when they put me back on meds in hospital, then about a week after getting out, i slipped back into depression again. New meds don't seem to be working though they've been upping the dosages. I'm so scared of ending up in that same suicidal dark place again and all i do is cry, isolate and stay in bed watching movies in order to escape this painful reality. I have no support network...no friends, no husband..no church anymore...i've become a semi-recluse because of the constant instability among other reasons. My family doesn't understand my illness and avoids talking about it. (They actually make me feel more shame than give me support) I basically am all alone in this. God is the only one we have to rely on and when we're in clinical depression mode, everything seems so bleak, so hopeless, so paralyzing, so fatalistic and worst of all, God feels a thousand miles away and we wonder why he doesn't intervene to relieve us of this suffering....but when i'm going thru it, though i don't really feel it or even believe the pain will end at that moment, i have to remind myself that those thoughts are not the real me talking...it's the illness talking. Though all of us are different individuals, our disorder is contextual to the person, the degrees of severity vary, and there is a spectrum to this brain illness, there are also many similar thinking patterns among us all when in a depressive state and a manic state. Thinking patterns caused by the imbalanced brain chemicals, distortions of reality we believe to be true since our emotions are erratic and spiraling downward.

Now, when we come out of those episodes, we no longer want to die, feel that despair, fear, nihilism etc. and those balanced moments are important because it's then when you have to burn the real you into your consciousness and remember that that depressive moment is not reality, that it WILL pass, and even though there may be repercussions and loss from those episodes, you can better prepare yourself, learn ways of coping, learn to identify the flags before it gets to that point so that you can prevent them or at least better manage them. That's why finding a good therapist is so important, staying on your meds, having a support network etc is good. I wish i had a support network...at least a bipolar group therapy but they don't even have that in my area.

Well all this to say, it's easier said than done.... i should know cause i'm feeling like this illness has ruined my life in many ways too, so i don't even know how i had the frame of mind to even write all this. I think writing it helped to remind me the truth of it.

I also will be honest and say that suffering still does occur to all of us and being Christians doesn't make us exempt from this. Many of us in the modern church seem to believe that so long as you're an obedient believer, you will always be blessed and live a happy life, but that was never promised to us. We live in jars of clay, all of nature is in a fallen and broken state...it's not that God curses or punishes us with illnesses or doesn't heal illnesses...sometimes there doesn't seem to be rhyme or reason, but what i do know is that God can bring out good things out of bad things and that it's better to suffer with Christ than without him.

Right now what you most need to know and feel is his love and protection...to hear him say that your name is written on the palm of his hand, that you are precious to him and worthy in his eyes. I wish we had a real community so we could weep with you and hug you as we listen to you and pray with you. I pray that you feel the hand of God upon your head and the comfort of Christ within your heart as he hides you within his wounds and tells you he will one day restore and mend all that was broken; make all that was bent, made right.

 

[schrodingers_cat_lives]

Hi, rest assured people here will be praying for you. I have experienced the devastating effects of bipolar and through prayer and perseverance over time God has made my life better as I learned to cope with this illness. I'll pray for things to get better for you whatever it is that you are going through God will be with you to help you get through it.

Hi, I've been going thru a depressive episode since sept. and you mentioned you have learned ways to cope. Can you share some of those ways of coping thru depression cause the new meds they put me on don't seem to be working and i don't want to end up in the hospital again. i just feel so alone in this and i feel like i'm just getting worse not better.

 

[schrodingers_cat_lives]

My life has been ruined countless times...suicidal depressions, no friends, church rejecting me, bankruptcy, lost, no purpose, can't go on another minute, drinking, condemnation and judgment, ungodly hurt and pain...

I think we all of been there too many times. Just know we are all here for you. We care and love you. YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO GOD AND OTHERS!

I now fight the feelings with truth and love. Being honest with myself and others. Letting them know I am very weak, broken, and ill. One of my problems with the illness is fear, self-pity, hating people for not understanding, feeling judged and condemned, and a useless human being.

However, I KNOW this is not God's view of me. I have had to change my distorted thinking patterns. Journaling these thoughts help me step back and questions, "Is this really true?" I am fortunate because I have a loving wife to truth check my thoughts. My thoughts can be sooooo negative, fast, and paralyzing. I call it Monkey Mind! I scream to God, "GET ME OUT OF HERE"! Sometimes he answers right away and sometimes he answers in a few weeks. I have found He is always there though even if I don't feel him.

I will pray for you fervently....

Holy Father,

I lift up Savannah to you. Please bring your everlasting peace to Savanna's soul. May Savannah sense a glimmer of your unspeakable peace and love. Please reassure Savannah that you created this remarkable human being and that the thought of Savannah makes you dance with gladness. Please whisper kind words of encouragement to Savannah. Grab hold of Satan and his demons with your everlasting strength. Tell them to flee from this child of yours. Your power is infinitely stronger than them and our own thoughts. Stream your Holy thoughts into her soul and mind. May Savannah find rest in comfort in your arms. Please reassure Savannah every moment that an amazing and loving Savior stands behind her back with a kind hand on her shoulder all through this life. Into your capable arms I pray Savannah too. Thank you for Savannah and the great things you have in store for her in the days ahead. Remind Savannah that better days are just around the corner. That the light in this dark tunnel will be seen up ahead very soon.

In Jesus precious name.

Hang in there! You are a survivor and you are strong! More than you know ok?

You're right, we are survivors. The fact that we are still alive and have endured this crippling illness attests to our strength and God's protection even though we feel like the weakest of all. We carry a heavy burden...don't be so hard on yourself for feeling those feelings of fear, self-pity etc....I feel a lot of those feelings too as i'm sure many others here do too. If you are feeling them during a depressed episode or when rapid cycling like the thought of feeling like a useless human being, paralyzed etc it's not the real you, it's the illness talking. Those are typical symptoms. A depletion of "the feel good" chemicals in our brain will cause us to have those delusions just as a euphoric manic state will cause us to have delusions of over-confidence, invincibility etc... (notice how they are both distortions but polar opposites).

And also, keep in mind that going through these episodes are traumatic to our psyche, so it's only natural that there will be psychological stuff to work through...rejection and stigma is really painful as well as anger producing. Among other things, I've lost a lot of friends because of this... not because i did anything to them, but they just slowly faded away because it was too heavy for them to deal with, didn't believe it was even real or understand etc. I've felt ostracized in churches or just given the satanic affliction treatment as soon as they learned I had BPD. It's great that you're journaling your challenges and finding ways to over come them.

One of my childhood friends who actually witnessed my deep depressions before i was even diagnosed and was never to be found when i was going through them because they depressed her too much, had a clinical depressive episode herself yrs. later in her mid forties. She never had a history of mental illness but during a big move across the country with her family, this one time depressive episode seemed to have been triggered by a lot of stress, anxiety and a few panic attacks. She described the symptoms like a full blown clinical depression that we all are well acquainted with and it was sudden and to the point where she couldn't function. Anyway, she said that she felt worse and more emotional pain than when her baby daughter had died years ago which surprised me cause i can't imagine a worse pain than that. She then finally understood what it felt like and couldn't believe i go through that all the time for all these years. Thankfully she went on meds and it went away. I then realized, more than ever, that most people have great difficulty understanding it unless they've gone through it or lived with a loved one who suffers from it. If you told me 20 yrs. ago that i would get so depressed to the point of wanting to end my life just to end the pain, i never would have believed you, let alone understand why anyone would be driven to suicide. Now, When i talk to people, not just those who have a mental illness, who tell me they feel so alone, i can really empathize and feel genuine compassion for them because i am well acquainted with that feeling. I'm not saying you have to go thru all these things to feel compassion, but this pain and this weakness has made me a lot more sensitive and alert to those in pain...made me more compassionate than i was before the onset of the illness and it has showed me how to listen, reach out and communicate with them better because i just think of what i would want to hear instead of spouting out some formulaic pep talk. My problem is that I'm better at helping others than taking care of myself.