Help!

[RJHarmony84]

Please pray for me...
I just gave my baby up for adoption and I'm falling apart. All I can think of, everything I see, hear, and smell is about him...I love him so much, but I can't take care of him...I'm such a bad Mom. Why did God have to give me a baby? I just want him so bad I wanna die...

 

[Ceris]

Harmony, you have my deepest prayers. I cannot say how deep your situation has hit my heart. Giving up your child for adoption.... you have a strength that I could never have. You have my prayers and as much love and support I can offer you. If there is anything I can do to help, if you just need someone to talk to, PM and I'll answer.

With love,
Your brother in Christ, Ceris.

 

[jameseb]

RJHarmony,

As I read your post my heart pounded against my chest. I wish I had some words that could bring comfort and understanding to you right now, but I feel any words of mine would be too feeble. Just know that what you did you did in the best interest of your child, you did it out of love..... and there is nothing 'bad' about loving and caring for your child so much that you would see him with a family that can provide better for him. It hurts, I can only imagine, but you are not a bad for doing that.... that much I can tell you for certain.

God bless and I will be praying for you.

 

[J.A.I]

RJ - You are in my prayers, sweetie.. God will see you through it. Just let Him carry you right now. He has never left you and will never leave you. In times like these, just immerse yourself in the Word and stay in prayer. Know that everything happens for a reason and you would not be going through this if God didn't know you could handle it. Even if you feel you cannot handle it, know that GOD said you can handle it and trust in that. He knows us MUCH better than we know ourselves, so be confident in the fact that GOD said you can handle it, love

God bless you, my sister in Christ. We all love you and you are in prayer.

Psalms 3:3-5
3 But thou, O LORD, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head.
4 I cried unto the LORD with my voice, and he heard me out of his holy hill. Selah.
5 I laid me down and slept; I awaked; for the LORD sustained me.

 

[J.A.I]

And I echo the same sentiments as Ceris. If you ever need to talk, you can PM me

 

[Live4God]

Please pray for me...
I just gave my baby up for adoption and I'm falling apart. All I can think of, everything I see, hear, and smell is about him...I love him so much, but I can't take care of him...I'm such a bad Mom. Why did God have to give me a baby? I just want him so bad I wanna die...

Rj, 1st leme say YOU are NOT a BAd Mamma,in fact you are VERY GOOD MAMMA for Realizing you cannot take care of this Baby! ing that GOD TRULY
BLESES YOU & your Decission! Nick. L4G!

 

[Bartimaeus]

Hi Harmony,
I just want to say that I agree with J.A.I, God will carry you through this. She's right, immerse yourself in the Word, and in prayer.
You can also PM me if you want to talk.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I admire your courage to place the needs of the child above your heart.

 

[Bartimaeus]

*

Well, medical experts have finally figured out the leading cause of pregnancy. If you can't take care of a baby, don't try to make one.
So don't blame God. You got yourself into this situation.

I admire your courage to place the needs of the child above your heart.

I appreciate the second half of your post, but I think the first half could have been worded just a bit differently. I am not saying I disagree with you,
and therefore, that's not my point. My point is she is hurting, and in her state of mind, those words can come off as harsh. Just some food for thought.

 

[Cat59]

RJ:

for you and lots of prayers for you too

Cat

 

[RJHarmony84]

Thanks so much, everybody...for your prayers...you're right, Mr.Cheese--my husband & I got ourselves into this ourselves. After signing those papers I felt like I've lived so much, I must be as old as the hills already...it's so heavy knowing, I can't walk straight anymore. It's just that I've always firmly belived that God would never give me more than I can handle, and I really couldn't handle this at all...even knowing that He's there, leaning on Him, doesn't always help. Maybe that makes me unfaithful, but it's true.
*smiles at everyone* Thanks again, I really needed that... Today I actually felt a lot better than I have been feeling, and I think I'll get to the place where I can be at peace, eventually. The very fact that I can see a place where I'm OK again makes me feel better...like I can see the place to rest at the end of a hike, & it makes me want to hike faster.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I edited my previous post. It seemed to have been a little on the rough side. But you seem to understand what I was saying. That's important. I'm not mean I promise.
When things get crazy hold on to God all the more.
In my life I've found out that it's not God giving me more than i can handle. It's God getting me out of the mess I made.
You're not unfaithful. You're human.
I've been through a lot, but your situation is one that I have no point of reference for. So I don't understand nor can I imagine what is going on in your heart right now. All I know is it hurts.
But the sun will shine again.
*hug*

 

[Bartimaeus]

Mr. Cheese,
Thumbs up on the edit.

Also, thumbs way up on your reply to Harmony this morning. Hmmm, makes me wish they had a thumbs up graphic smiley.

 

[desi]

Thanks so much, everybody...for your prayers...you're right, Mr.Cheese--my husband & I got ourselves into this ourselves. After signing those papers I felt like I've lived so much, I must be as old as the hills already...it's so heavy knowing, I can't walk straight anymore. It's just that I've always firmly belived that God would never give me more than I can handle, and I really couldn't handle this at all...even knowing that He's there, leaning on Him, doesn't always help. Maybe that makes me unfaithful, but it's true.
*smiles at everyone* Thanks again, I really needed that... Today I actually felt a lot better than I have been feeling, and I think I'll get to the place where I can be at peace, eventually. The very fact that I can see a place where I'm OK again makes me feel better...like I can see the place to rest at the end of a hike, & it makes me want to hike faster.

You have a husband and he agreed to give up your child.

 

[RJHarmony84]

You have a husband and he agreed to give up your child.

He never acknowleged that it was "our child"...it was always "the kid" or "that thing"...he totally distanced himself from everything about it. Just another problem to him, a thing that he doesn't want anything to do with, until he decides he wants one of his own. I guess I'm a bit mad at him, for making ME choose--I really had no choice at all--but he was right, when he said we couldn't possibly take care of one now. No matter how much it stinks to see him being so cold! So I'm mostly mad at myself, for wanting the impossible...

 

[desi]

God has a way of making things work when they shouldn't. You are probably much wiser than your husband and should steer him in the other direction if this happens again.

 

[RJHarmony84]

There's NO POSSIBLE WAY I'm ever giving my baby up twice!
I thought the birth was bad, but the emotional tsunami was much, much worse.

 

[desi]

There's NO POSSIBLE WAY I'm ever giving my baby up twice!
I thought the birth was bad, but the emotional tsunami was much, much worse.

God keep you and your family.


desi

 

[silentpoet]

The hardest thing to do when you love somebody is to let them go. But it can also be the most loving thing to do.

 

[devoted daughter]

RJHarmony,

As I read your post my heart pounded against my chest. I wish I had some words that could bring comfort and understanding to you right now, but I feel any words of mine would be too feeble. Just know that what you did you did in the best interest of your child, you did it out of love..... and there is nothing 'bad' about loving and caring for your child so much that you would see him with a family that can provide better for him. It hurts, I can only imagine, but you are not a bad for doing that.... that much I can tell you for certain.

God bless and I will be praying for you.

Well said....
RJHarmony
Remain prayerful.

May the Lord bring you and your family peace and comfort. May you have strength and may His Spirit help you persevere and give you patience. May He deliver you from your heartache

May you have peace, sweetie,
your sister in Christ,

DD