Help with fears and loss...

[ToastFiend]

Hey, since this is my first post let me give you some background on me. I was raised in a Christian household, attending the United Church of Canada every Sunday until around age 14, when I decided I didn’t believe anymore. This continues until I met this amazing boy, who started dating me. He was the kindest boy, and I quickly fell deeply in love. He told me he wanted to always we able to be with me, on earth and in heaven and with his help I came back into the faith. We would lay around in the basement and just talk about god, and it was the most relaxing thing. After three amazing years however he left me for another girl and I admit I'm still completely broken ( its been around three weeks). He was my first and only boyfriend.

Another part of this story is my fears. Ever since I can remember I have been deathly afraid of well death. It just hits me sometimes at complete random, and lots of times right before I sleep. I get to the point where I don’t sleep, I lay there crying for hours. I just start thinking, one day this amazing life will all be over, and there’s no way of stopping it, and it scares me. Even with my faith I’m afraid.

I now find myself sitting here, feeling very alone and very scared. I truly thought he was my soul mate, that god had sent him to me and now I just don’t understand what happened. I fear death even more now, because he's not here anymore to comfort me and tell me it will be alright. I’m 18 and I feel as if my childhood is over, and it was wasted on someone who didn’t love me like I loved him. I also fear that I am losing faith again, because I don’t understand why this is all happening to me.

I guess what I'm looking for is guidance, if you know any bible verses, prayers or anything that will help put my mind at ease. Just telling someone is helping... he was the only other Christian I knew and I feel completely alone now, since I am unable to attend church due to lack of a drive and working most Sundays.

Thank you for reading this, god bless.

 

[GrizzlyMonKeH]

Over the last couple years, my life really shaped to a point where I was let down by some Christians I had surrounded myself with, and promptly went into a slump with my faith. I finally came out of it when I heard a podcast sermon which made it click in my head that I was placing too much trust in other human beings, and not enough in God.

I offer this as my encouragement:

Human beings will never fail to let you down. However, God loves you. God isn't going to leave you for another girl, because he created you. No matter what happens in your life, God understands your fears. He understands that we, as human beings, often become fearful. This is why the phrase "fear not" is the most used phrase in the entire Bible.

You are most certainly not alone, and there are many others in your boat. While you might feel like it now, God has not left you. He promises this in Hebrews 13:5

"I will never leave you nor forsake you."

I would encourage you to pray hard about this to God. As 1 Peter 5:7 says

"Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you"

I hope this helps, and I will be praying for you.

Btw, I have a Canadian friend. Canadians are awesome.

 

[singpeace]

Hey, since this is my first post let me give you some background on me. I was raised in a Christian household, attending the United Church of Canada every Sunday until around age 14, when I decided I didn’t believe anymore. This continues until I met this amazing boy, who started dating me. He was the kindest boy, and I quickly fell deeply in love. He told me he wanted to always we able to be with me, on earth and in heaven and with his help I came back into the faith. We would lay around in the basement and just talk about god, and it was the most relaxing thing. After three amazing years however he left me for another girl and I admit I'm still completely broken ( its been around three weeks). He was my first and only boyfriend.

Another part of this story is my fears. Ever since I can remember I have been deathly afraid of well death. It just hits me sometimes at complete random, and lots of times right before I sleep. I get to the point where I don’t sleep, I lay there crying for hours. I just start thinking, one day this amazing life will all be over, and there’s no way of stopping it, and it scares me. Even with my faith I’m afraid.

I now find myself sitting here, feeling very alone and very scared. I truly thought he was my soul mate, that god had sent him to me and now I just don’t understand what happened. I fear death even more now, because he's not here anymore to comfort me and tell me it will be alright. I’m 18 and I feel as if my childhood is over, and it was wasted on someone who didn’t love me like I loved him. I also fear that I am losing faith again, because I don’t understand why this is all happening to me.

I guess what I'm looking for is guidance, if you know any bible verses, prayers or anything that will help put my mind at ease. Just telling someone is helping... he was the only other Christian I knew and I feel completely alone now, since I am unable to attend church due to lack of a drive and working most Sundays.

Thank you for reading this, god bless.

Hi Toastfiend. Thank you for your post, and welcome to CF!

I am so sorry you are going through this. You are not alone. Even though people abandon us, God NEVER does. And as to fearing death, it is a human emotion we all share at times. We as Christians really shouldn't fear death - but sometimes we do. I hope these scriptures and prayer are helpful to you.

Philippians 3:20-21
“But there’s far more to life for us. We’re citizens of high heaven! We’re waiting the arrival of the Savior, the Master, Jesus Christ, who will transform our earthy bodies into glorious bodies like his own. He’ll make us beautiful and whole with the same powerful skill by which he is putting everything as it should be, under and around him.”

Psalm 16:8
“I have set the Lord continually before me; Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.”

Luke 12:6-7
“Are not five sparrows sold for two copper coins? And not one of them is forgotten before God. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.”

Romans 8:38-39
“For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Hebrews 4:16
“Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.”

God has not abandoned you, even in times of trouble!

Philippians 1:6
“Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ”


2 Timothy 1:7
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline."

John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Father God, my little sister's heart has been wounded, and fear has laid a trap for her. I know she is tired of living under the weight of her fears. Let these verses reassure her of your presence and confirm that you are able to heal all her wounds. Give her your love and your power to replace her fear and to show her that in You, she will be better than before. Your perfect love casts out fear. I thank you for giving my sister the peace that only you can give. Help her to receive that peace now as I ask you to still her troubled heart. Because you are with her, she does not have to be afraid. In Jesus' name. Amen.

 

[ToastFiend]

Thank you both so much, Its nice to know that there are kind people out there in this world. I'll use this time to become closer to god, thank you for the scripture and prayers, you have given me hope. God Bless you both