Thank you, Anthony, for introducing yourself & giving us your history of seeking after God but not yet finding the reality of Him in your life. And thanks for the questions you have in your continuing search.
I can see that in what you first said: "My family all believe In Christianity." Most spiritually born again from above by the Holy Ghost (Spirit) would have said...'all believe in Christ' because of their personal relationship with Him.
You also said: "I have never had a real connection with the Holy Ghost I guess you could say. Meaning I have never felt a divine presence that I know of..."
You are exactly right! You understand that you have never been born again by the Holy Spirit, that you have never been regenerated or given the very life of God, His eternal life. Had you done so, you would KNOW by experience & by the testimony of the Holy Spirit indwelling in a believere that they are indeed a child of the living God. God is not the God of the dead but of the living!
You have learned some things ABOUT Christianity but you don't know the Christ of Christianity. That was me for many years, so I can relate! I did some of the things Christians do: go to church, pray sometimes, try to do good things & say that I believe Jesus was God and Savior & that He died for my sins.
But I didn't know Him. I only knew some things about Him.
I Cor 12:2,3 You know that when you were unbelievers, every time you were led to worship false gods you were worshiping idols who couldn't even speak. Therefore I inform you that no one who is speaking by the Spirit of God says, “Jesus be cursed,” and no one can say, “Jesus is Lord,” except by the Holy Spirit.
The Bible also explains it this way in the book of Romans in the New Tesatament.
Romans 8:5-11 Those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh; but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit.
6The mind of the flesh is death, but the mind of the Spirit is life & peace,
7because the mind of the flesh is hostile to God. It does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so.
8Those controlled by the flesh cannot please God.
9You, however, are controlled not by the flesh, but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God LIVES IN YOU. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ.
10But if Christ is in you, your body is dead because of sin, yet the Spirit gives you life
c because of righteousness.
11And if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, He who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit, who lives in you.
I Corinthians 2:9-13 As it is written: “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no heart has imagined, what God has prepared for those who love Him.”
10But God has REVEALED it to us BY THE SPIRIT.
The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.
11For who among men knows the thoughts of man except his own spirit within him? So too, no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.
12We have not received the SPIRIT OF THE WORLD, but THE SPIRIT WHO IS FROM GOD, so that we may UNDERSTAND what God has freely given us.
13And this is what we speak, NOT in words taught us by human wisdom, but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words.
14The natural man does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God. For they are foolishness to him & he cannot understand them, because they are SPIRITUALLY DISCERNED.
Although I had read through the whole Bible, I still couldn't figure out why I didn't know God like other spiritually born Christians did. I got into a Bible study & watched very closely the life of one of the Christians who led it. He had a living relationship with the living God! I truly wanted that! So I asked him how he came into a living relationship with Jesus by the Holy Spirit. He simply pointed out some things.
1) John 8:31,32 “If you continue in My word, then you are truly My disciples.
32And then you will know the truth & then the truth will set you free.”
The way to get to know the Lord is to read what He said & taught & I was doing that by studying the Bible, especially the first 4 books of the New Testament, the Gospels.
In the book of Acts 8:26-39, we see this very thing put before us.
Now an angel of the Lord said to Philip, “Get up & go south to the desert road that goes down from Jerusalem to Gaza.”
27So he started out, & on his way he met an Ethiopian eunuch, a court official in charge of the entire treasury of Candace, queen of the Ethiopians. He had gone to Jerusalem to worship,
28and on his return was sitting in his chariot, reading Isaiah the prophet. (in the Old Testament, first part of the Bible)
29The Spirit said to Philip, “Go over to that chariot & stay by it.”
30So Philip ran up & heard the man reading Isaiah the prophet. “Do you understand what you are reading?” Philip asked.
31“How can I,” he said, “unless someone guides me?” And he invited Philip to come up & sit with him.
32The eunuch was reading this passage of Scripture: “He was led like a sheep to the slaughter & as a lamb before the shearer is silent, so He did not open His mouth.33In His humiliation He was deprived of justice. Who can recount His descendants? For His life was removed from the earth.”
34“Tell me,” said the eunuch, “who is the prophet talking about, himself or someone else?”
35Then Philip began with this VERY Scripture & told him the good news about Jesus.
36As they traveled along the road & came to some water, the eunuch said, “Look, here is water! What can prevent me from being baptized? 37And Philip said, If thou believest with all thine heart, thou mayest. And he answered & said, I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.”
38And he gave orders to stop the chariot. Then both Philip & the eunuch went down into the water & Philip baptized him.
39When they came up out of the water, the Spirit of the Lord carried Philip away & the eunuch saw him no more, but went on his way rejoicing.
2) The second thing he told me was that he came to a point in his life where he needed to take action on what he had been learning. He had been going his own way, leading his own life on whatever he thought was right but his sins had brought a separation between he & God.
Isaiah 59:1,2 Behold, the LORD’S hand is not so short that it cannot save; nor is His ear so dull that it cannot hear. But your iniquities have made a separation between you & your God & your sins have hidden
His face FROM YOU so that He does not hear...They do not know the way of peace...We hope for light, but behold, darkness, for brightness, but we walk in gloom... transgressing & denying the LORD & turning away from our God...
Now he came to a crossroads: was he going to repent, which means change his mind & life direction & turn around & trust in Jesus Christ to forgive Him of His sins, calling out to Him in prayer & in faith & confessing Him as Lord & Savior. Instead of walking his own way, He told the Lord He would now follow Him as His disciple & continue in His Word & be obedient to what He commanded. Amen. A simple prayer that was a sincere cry of his heart. And Jesus heard him & made him alive spiritually by the Holy Spirit.
Now I had come to a crossroads. Here was what I had missed. It was not simply knowing things about Jesus that made the difference but praying to Him & crying out to him in humility & sincerity of faith, confessing my sins & my now turning to Christ to save me. I needed a Savior. I could see that now. I was separated from Him. I needed my sins forgiven and only through Christ could that happen. I wanted a personal relationship with Him like my Bible study leader. I had gotten down on my knees at my bed before going to sleep & cried out to Jesus to save me & I would follow Him from now on. There was no flash of light or angels flying around--but when I woke up that morning--I KNEW JESUS. HIS PRESENCE WAS REAL & HE WAS THERE WITH ME & IN ME. I prayed & said, "So this is you God. You are real. You are right HERE. I now know you & am experiencing your Presence with me.
I have never been the same since & His living Presence is even more real today after 48 years of walking with Him & being led by the Holy Spirit. The Bible suddenly made sense because the Holy Spirit gave me spiritual discernment, bringing illumination & revelation to me. And oh the joy of knowing Him & oh the thankfulness for saving me by His amazing grace. It humbles me to realize how much Jesus loved me, even though I had rejected him for many years.
So to help you on your journey, here are some answers to your questions.
1) Where was Yahweh (YHWH--Hebrew tetragrammaton) throughout the old religions?
He has always existed--before any of the old religions. YaHWeH is God's memorial name that He wants us to hallow or honor Him by & it means: 'I AM (the eternally) Existing (One).' This is what He said to Moses in Exodus 3:13-15, when Moses asked Him who he should say sent him to lead the nation of Israel out of Egypt.
And when they ask me, ‘What is His name?’ What should I tell them?” God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I AM has sent me to you.’”
Genesis 21:33 And Abraham planted a tamarisk tree in Beersheba & there he called upon the name of YaHWeH, the Eternal God.
Psalm 93:1,2 YaHWeH reigns! He is robed in majesty...Your throne was established long ago; You are from all eternity.
Habakkuk 1:12 Are You not from everlasting, O YaHWeH, my God, my Holy One?
Have you read what Jesus said to the Pharisees & religious leaders when they asked Jesus who He really was claiming to be? Here is His answer:
John 8:53ff Are You greater than our father Abraham? He died, as did the prophets. Who do You claim to be?” ...Your father Abraham was overjoyed to see My day. He saw it & was glad.” Then the Jews said to Him, “You are not yet fifty years old & YOU HAVE SEEN ABRAHAM?" “Truly, truly, I tell you,” Jesus declared, “before Abraham was born (existed), I AM!” [Greek ego eimi--"I am (the) existing (One)."] At this, they picked up stones to throw at Him.
Jesus is YaHWeH!
You will notice an amazing thing in the Bible. When it is demonstrating His power, His omnipotence, He will often use the name El or Elohim. The whole first chapter of Genesis 1 uses Elohim. But when God focuses on His personal relationship WITH His creation in Ch. 2, especially in creating Adam & Eve, the first people on earth: suddenly God introduces Himself as YaHWeH for the first time in the Bible!
Genesis 2:4,7 This is the account of the heavens & the earth when they were created, in the day that the Lord God (YaHWeH Elohim) made them. Then YaHWeH Elohim formed man from the dust of the ground & breathed into his nostrils the breath of LIFE & the man became a LIVING being.
Other old religions worshipped many gods! However, YaHWeH is the only one true God. There is only one God by nature & that is YaHWeH. Some older religions worshipped YaHWeH along with other false gods. That is why the God of the Bible is different than other religions.
Jeremiah 10:10 But YaHWeH is the true God; He is the living God & the eternal King.
Exodus 20:3-5 You shall have no other gods besides (before) Me.
4You shall not make for yourself an idol of any kind, or an image of anything in the heavens above, on the earth beneath, or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them...
Isaiah 43:1ff Now this is what the LORD says—He who created you, O Jacob & He who formed you, O Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are Mine! When you pass through the waters, I WILL BE WITH YOU...For I am YaHWeH your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior...
You are My witnesses,” declares YaHWeH & My servant whom I have chosen, so that you may know & believe Me & understand that I AM.
BEFORE Me no god was formed nor shall there be any AFTER Me.
Yes, I AM--YaHWeH--& there is no Savior but Me. I alone decreed & saved & proclaimed—I & not some foreign god among you.So you are My witnesses,” declares YaHWeH, “that I am God. Even from eternity I AM.
Deut 32:17,18 They sacrificed to demons, not to God, to gods they had not known, to newly arrived gods, which your fathers did not fear. You ignored the Rock who brought you forth; you forgot the God who gave you birth.
I Cor 8:4-7 So about eating food sacrificed to idols: We know that an idol is nothing at all in the world & that there is no God but one.
5For even if there are so-called gods, whether in heaven or on earth (as there are many so-called gods & lords),
6yet for us there is but one God, the Father, from whom all things came & for whom we exist. And there is but one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom all things came & through whom we exist.
7But not everyone has this knowledge.
I Corinthians 10:19-22 Am I suggesting, then, that food sacrificed to an idol is anything, or that an idol is anything? No, but the sacrifices of pagans are offered to demons, not to God. And I do not want you to be participants with demons. You cannot drink the cup of the Lord & the cup of demons too; you cannot partake in the table of the Lord & the table of demons too. Are we trying to provoke the Lord to jealousy?
Question#2: Are demons & angels the same type of entities?
I have started to address this question above. There are unclean spirits that are demons that rebelled against God & there are clean spirits, that are angels that follow God. God created all angels & angelic spirits. Then Lucifer, Satan, the old adversary & the serpent
Revelation 12:3,7-9 Then another sign appeared in heaven: a huge red dragon with seven heads, ten horns & seven royal crowns on his heads. His tail swept a third of the stars from the sky, tossing them to the earth...Then a war broke out in heaven: Michael & his angels fought against the dragon & the dragon & his angels fought back. But the dragon was not strong enough & no longer was any place found in heaven for him & his angels.The great dragon was hurled down--that ancient serpent called the devil, or Satan, who leads the whole world ASTRAY. He was hurled to the earth & his angels (demons, unclean spirits) with him.
2 Cor 11:3 I am afraid, however, that just as Eve was DECEIVED by the serpent's cunning, your minds may be led ASTRAY FROM your simple & pure devotion to Christ.
Question#3: Do angels have sigils also & if so where can I find them? (to be continued)