Help Pls I'm Desprete

[dabro]

I'm slipping back into a psychosis or I'm in Hell. The dreams I have been having and this small litl voice telling me it's to late. What about the GF I was with when I died. I hope she made it to Heaven. I would never want her to suffer in this place. I don't believe any of you are real. and you feed into my delusions like your hidden demons that prey off my thoughts. I'm tired of this. It's her that I'm worried about. What if she killed herself after I overdosed. I was taking uppers and downers a bad combination. To me this makes sense. I don't believe it's psychosis anymore but that I really died. And this is the torment inside of me which is called Hell. If any of you are real then your dead also. I've seen Anna doesn't mean she's real. It could be an illusion to cause me more pain cos God sought His Vengence on me and I have to suffer crying weeping gnashing my teeth becuase I'm concerned she never turned to Jesus instead she pushed away from Him or commited her own death and now she is in Her own Hell. To many of ya'll this probably doesn't make sense or you'll just make it much worse by conferming my worst fear. IDK the date time nor hour I was taken but it happened. The thing I want to see When I am raised on the last day is to see her at the right hand of God while I'm on the left and then I'm read everything that I have done then thrown into eternal fire. I just want to see her go to Heaven thats all. I'm crying so much cos none of this is real.

 

[pkhaney]

do you think your dead, you message is confusing?

 

[Jayangel81]

Your in my prayers dear friend

 

[Anihilus]

It is a good thing you are posting on this internet forum, the dead cannot do that.

"whoever comes to me I will never cast out" John 6:37

If you go to Christ, He will not cast you out.

 

[OCDS]

God is not vengeful, Vengeance, like karma, defeats the perpouse of the mercy and love of Christ. God is just, but he is not vengeful.