help me...**may be triggering**

[nessa]

I don't know what to do

People are accusing me of having an ed because i never eat...and when my stomach growls, i don't eat, i just enjoy the feeling.

I have no control over anything in my life, so i try to control my food...but am i really that bad?

 

[blessedmomof5]

are you under weight? have you lost alot of
weight recently.......
ok myadvice is go talk to someone you are young, ED stink, not really the word i had in mind because of how cruel they are they take over your evert thought you think about nothing else it is your life, you have no life outside of it......sounds fun so far huh? please go talk to some one and figure this out or maybe a dr maybe it is phyical? sometimes when people are depressed they do not eat...there are many reasons for not eating.....please, look into it...

 

[Kirley]

I don't know what to do


I have no control over anything in my life, so i try to control my food...but am i really that bad?

I know that exact feeling hun... n trust me it isn't a great one!! i still say 'am i really that bad..' actually mine a majority of the time is 'i'm not that bad!!'

 

[nessa]

are you under weight? have you lost alot of
weight recently.......
ok myadvice is go talk to someone you are young, ED stink, not really the word i had in mind because of how cruel they are they take over your evert thought you think about nothing else it is your life, you have no life outside of it......sounds fun so far huh? please go talk to some one and figure this out or maybe a dr maybe it is phyical? sometimes when people are depressed they do not eat...there are many reasons for not eating.....please, look into it...

no, i haven't lost a lot of weight....15lbs at the most. food isn't my only problem...i am depressed and i hurt myself on purpose. I am just trying to find something to control besides pain.

 

[InTheFlame]

There are a lot of things that you can control - to a point - that don't involve causing yourself pain and/or health problems. The only (pretty big) issue with that, is the amount of time and effort it takes to learn to control that other stuff. Know what I mean?

I think finding a christian counsellor is a sensible first step. Look for someone who you feel comfortable with, and who will help you work out how to control more of your life in healthy ways. Make sense? PM me if you want.

 

[nessa]

even though i have had your support, my eating habits continue to worsen....now i barely eat, and when i do, i count calories. i don't eat over a certain number of calories, and that number goes down every week.

i dont know how much i have lost..but i am sure it isn't enough......



i need help

 

[InTheFlame]

Will you get in touch with someone who can help you? Even a telephone counselling service might be able to help you find a support group in your area.

 

[nessa]

i can try...but no promises...i am not one to ask for help. Which is why i have so many other problems

 

[bumblebee62331]

i can try...but no promises...i am not one to ask for help. Which is why i have so many other problems

Ahh but you have asked for help, right now, in here. Even if you know that we are 'anonymous' a part of you still wanted you to make these posts to ask for help and support.

That's one thing even I can't do right now.

 

[NinadeDios777]

and when my stomach growls, i don't eat, i just enjoy the feeling.

i have been doing the same thing lately....*shrugs*

 

[blessedmomof5]

Please, do not enjoy that feeling.......

 

[chasity]

i understand that feeling and you really need to put pride or whatever it is that is keeping you from asking for help aside....this is serious and support is one of the key things to recovery....

 

[Godsgirl481]

I've been doing that lately too.

 

[nessa]

i have started eating again...during the day...when it goes day, i only eat once, and that's all....stupid, i know

but honestly, right now..i have MUCH bigger issues..but they are causing me to not eat.

 

[shezshy]

I don't know what to do

People are accusing me of having an ed because i never eat...and when my stomach growls, i don't eat, i just enjoy the feeling.

I have no control over anything in my life, so i try to control my food...but am i really that bad?

nessa the thing is the control lies in the not eating,it's your own silent control and that's how this starts for some people. please don't enjoy the fact that your body is fueling itself off of healthy tissue including our hearts after we begin this lack of food. I can't say enough about the joy feeling that comes with not eating. That's the ugly part.