Help Me >_< :(

[Loopi]

I dont know what to say. What am i doing. to myself, to my body. when did i let myself fall this much. I didnt ever expect to fall into this. Never expected to want to take diet pills. Sure, ive never liked the way i look, but to hate it to the point ill not eat, or if i have to, find a way to burn it off/remove it from my system. Is this really an ED? my doc said i was heading towards one, but that i seemed to be coping. am i really that good an actress? Im seeing a CAMHS (child and adolescent mental health specialist) on wed. Should i tell her what im doing to my body?
*cries* i dont want this, i dont wanna fall this deep. But i have.
blegh, sorry, this makes no sense, i just suddenly realised this cant go on

 

[Music4Hym777]

Oh sweetie, yes, you should tell them. It sounds like you are on the downward spiral of an eating disorder, it will be much easier to deal with if you catch it earlier.

 

[BlackRain]

it's better to deal with what you're doing now, than later when it may be much worse. girl, i'm so proud of you for realizing you might have a problem and that it can't go on!! that's just awesome

 

[faithful_heart1968]

Dear Loopi,

Please tell your doctor and your parents what is going on. An eating disorder is a very serious disease. I'm 36 now, and I started anorexicing about your age. And I suffer the results from it all too. First it started out that didn't seem like an eating disorder, then I started learning from books, tv and magazines on how to succeed in my anorexic. It can permantly damage your body. I'm living proof to it. I suffered many years before discovering I was anorexic and took almost dying to open my eyes. You are noticing the problem now, stop it before it spins out of control and the disease is controlling you. Not eating right can do so much to your body. Most people don't think so. But it damages your heart, which I have done to mine, and some people have died from it. Leave the diet pills alone please. It is so important that you get professional help. I'm a recovering anorexic, but I fight it everyday. God helps me through it. But its just like a person that is an addict, well anorexic or belimia is the same thing. It's a disease! And if long term it can cripple you and kill you. Your young sweetie, and your looking for help and advice. The advice I give you, is talk to your doctor and your parents. They will get you into counseling and support groups with people that have the same eating disorder as you. Even though it might not seem that its a big deal, but you have noticed it, so seek some professional help. Talk to your parents. Let them know what is going on. Communication with your parents or one of them is very important of someone your age. I say all thi with concern and believe me there's not anything your thinking that I didn't think of at your age. If you ever need to talk about it and need support, please do not hesitate to write me or messenge me. And I will be praying for you. And lifting you up to God. My daughter is your age. And she too almost had an eating disorder till I stepped in. And we open communication. God loves you hun, he created you. So take care of your body, it's the temple of God. And HE LOVES YOU VERY MUCH! God bless you!

"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yeah, I will help thee; yea I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness." (Isa. 41:10)

Blessings,
Becky

 

[Loopi]

i come from a broken home and live with a parent that i seriously do not and have never got on with. There is no communication. I am seeing a psych, my inital appointment was on wednesday. I could not speak about my problem infront of my mum, but i will bring it up on my next appointment as my mum will not be there. It will be hard as i am hoping my leader will come with me, and she used to have an ED before i knew her, but as i have great respect for her i think it may encourage me in telling my psych.
Im struggling to leave the pills alone, i will try, im fighting, im fighting so hard. Im depressed, selfharming, and now by the looks of it sliding into an ED. I havent eaten much this week compared to normal, skipping meals, over excersising when i can. I feel like im on a path to self destruction.
Im struggling to fight, but i see my psych on the 3rd June, and will do all i can to help myself until then
Loopi
xxx

 

[faithful_heart1968]

I'm so sorry that your having such a hard time with the ED. I know how hard it can be. I'm sorry you can't talk to your parents, I couldn't talk to mine either. Mine use to tell me it was stupid and I was doing it for attention. So trust I know where you are coming fom hun. But sweetie, for your own sake, tell your psychitrist. You may have to do like me and be put in a hospital for anorexics/eating disorders. That way you can understand the disease. And if your not giving your body food, then your going to be depressed more so than normal too, because your body is not getting the things that it needs to survive. I'm 5'6 and at one point I weighed 69 pounds. When the doctors finally got to me they couldn't believe I was not dead. So don't wait till then Loopi. And anytime you need to talk, please IM me, I'll be glad to listen and help you as much as I can. Also your still in my prayers. Make sure to go post in the request prayer forum. God bless You!